the torment of a long memory
is being
unable to forget hard times times that
turnedtorqued his brain that he felt it was going to SNAP
remembering how long it was torturedhow long the
knot took to relax before he could get his fingers between its greasy coilsto tease
and pinch and work apart loosen its hold
over him
the anguish
bruising
the big tears that fell
out of his eyes that he couldnt stopCOULDNT COULDN’T the pain went too deep was like him
unforgiving
there was nothing to be forgiven
the times were seared into his
brain branded smelled like burning hair
when they seep backtheir time again
the soreness of the bruises return though duller
the smell returns less pungent
no matter theyre back like
clockwork calendarwork all he can do is suffer them
because before the suffering there
was joy
there is more joy than suffering
1050, Sunday,
6 12. 20
Aniela I love you
Childish Gambino The Night Me and Your Mama Met https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HT4MgAtBbJA
