if they hadnt said he wouldnt have known 

                                             should have supposed his eyelids would be par excellence to project his dreams against for mariachis to screen them 

                                               compleat with buttered popcorn iced sodapop Raisinets Milk Duds Sno Caps Jujyfruits Good & Plentys orange Dreamsicles from lobby dispensers only times he ever partook  which made memorable the twin-bill movies cartoons and intermissions he enjoyed

                                                                           he wondered 

was his dreamlife providing them in kind

ifso 

     lucky bastards 

but NAH 

           he wasnt nice had that scribbled into the contracts tedious fine print 

he called them mariachis

                           didnt mean they couldnt read English ANYBODY  ANYBODYANYBODY or were they just illiterate ahFUCKnah 

                          Bouncer would have stopped em at the door

or lost his job

literate

curious

imaginative 

sense of humour

able to park their sexuality at the door 

                                        keep an open fuckin mindHahah  maybe feels like it must feel to complete an on-line dating app resume

  

   eyelids 

           knew they were more than just shutters or shades

Hmmm 

        he wondered if they were translucentshowed through on the other side       

2038,  Saturday,  21  1. 23

1845,  Sunday,  5  2. 23

Miki Asakura  Hero (Holding Out for A Hero)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_TBUQMwJVjc

some words tickled his friend 

                              he was like a little kid hearingsnickering when penis or vagina was said 

                                                                                                         the snickeringlikely an attempt to cover his mortification his family churchy

can take a boy out of church but not the church out of the boy 

                                                                 Ohwhell  wha the hell  his issue he thought not mine 

not that he wasnt sacrificed 

Why am I the only kid goin 

his parents looked at him asif he had two heads 

                                                    You’re the eldest. 

he got that as often as he got Because. 

Im the eldestbecause of your actions 

                                        I really don think I ought to be paying for your sins not that they sinned  the accusation however put a knotbunched up their panties 

crude retribution 

                 which he knew if they didnt he was smarter than he looked or acted

   what sent his friend this afternoon

if he wanted to offer a defencehe didnt he could say he was high

when he was high he dumbed waay down 

                                            frankly infantilised  a fart would set him off eyes buggedHARharharhaar  hand clasped over his mouthspeaking through it You farted!

   biology

            everyone farts

hed rip off enormous fartsbe the suddencenter of attentionderision How uncouth. Fuck you an simply say Excuse me were they too uncouth to excuse him 

                                    they fart 

Really

What?

Banal triggers you 

                   Lacking in originality  as to be obviousboring 

It’s a funny word.

Howso

An invitation.

   Remember the cocksucker is high he counseled himself inside his head  unfortunately he knew where this was going right up Lovecrafts alley La Farges Nether Gulfs

Be anal. 

TADUM 

            How fuckin banal 

But ah  stoned men tell no tales

1836,  Monday,  30  1. 23

1213,  Sunday,  5  2. 23

"And then there were two." 

                              Paul McCartney

recorded during the filming of The Beatles: Get Back  televised by Disney Season1 Episode2: Days 8 – 16 (9:36 minute-mark)

the Beatles the documentary film crew may have been the first to strike gold a vein that messily continues to bleed out today  Reality television 

                            though of course its not

as soon as the cameras startpeople on their marks immediately the acting begins  the only thing real is the recording of set circumstances happenstances

unless filmed surreptitiously clandestinely underhandedly  the product is aware  people performative 

                                                                                                               the only thing it lackedhe mused to anyone who would listen but didnt because he wasnt saying what they wanted to hear was the barking of circus seals while balancing on big striped balls on their nose 

                                                                     doing other tricks 

   tricks 

             tricks swung opens all sorts of doors inside his head immediatelyhe thought of prostitutes wondered if they could bark and balance balls 

he held up his whisky  To Paul and Ringo! 

   . . . then there were two.

2036,  Saturday,  4  2. 23

0924,  Sunday,  5  2. 23

Beatles  Fire Interlude Abby Road  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jq7VkBUQ2Xg&list=PLT8CkhThdRZkT5Dxyf2XN2mwt9n_WtOjs&index=3