What is he saying, asking? 

                                   these are the words communicated between his cats inaudibly transmitted between sidelooks glares blinks shakes shimmies  body language

He said NO.

Who’s he noing?

they do not defy grammar or spellings or punctuation unlike him 

they outnumber him by three 

all four are blood

only idiots try to play blood off each other

quick way to find the misfortunate dead

their bloodline wouldnt be missed

the genetic pool ticks down incrementally but they have been emptied refilled boiled despoiled rarified since time immemorial 

   she shivered  Say, what time do you have? 

What’s that?

Numbnuts isn’t one to fawn over it yet every morning without fail he asks me, Whadayasay? Time to get the show on the road?

Do you think he expects you to answer?

Where did you come from?

I was under the bed.

Ah.   I have no idea what he expects.

He does seem to like talking to us.

Yeah he does, but we’re all he has in here. Too bad there’s not another like him that he can talk to.

Do you think there’s another like him? He’s a bird of a different feather. 

A horse of another colour.

What’s a bird, a horse?

He uses those words.

Ah.

Anyway, I think that’s why he talks to us.

Which makes sense.

Yeah, that’s makes sense.

Did he mean noing, or knowing?

Is there a difference?

I don’t no.

I think it’s know.

I don’t know?

Yes, I think that’s it.

   I don’t know. I was up on the kitchen counter when he turned from the one opposite to put, he calls it wetfud, what’s that? out for us.

Eats!

What?

She said eats, fud, wetfud.

Ah. 

      Where was I?

I don’t no. Know?

Know idea.

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1259,  Saturday,  10  6. 23

Vor mir keine Zeit, nach mir wird keine Sein. 

                                              fuck didnt speak German 

texted a friend who didwho was German  taptap tap  taptappy rap

not ten minutes later they called Are you alright?

Heyyah Im fine 

                 Why do you ask 

What you wrote.

I asked for its translation

You didn’t say that.

I didnt think it was necessary ya know I don know German  I thought that was obvious

So you obviously aren’t recalling this last year of your life, your depression, you called that.

I did I own tha I was I am

And what do some depressed people do . . not that it isn’t their right? 

   Jesus man Suicide 

Yeah.

   Really 

Yeah.

You thought I wrote you a German phraseknowin  I don understand German suggesting Im considering sui . .

. . You wrote it!

 I copied itwha the fuck does it mean  

                                           Yare beginning to piss me off anya known how much I dislike piss  catch my drift

   You wrot . .

. . Copied

Alright then . . copied.  Before me there will be no time, after me there will be none.

Whell fuck

                I didnt know

 

So in light of your last year . .

. . You jumped the gun

I was frightened.

Aw  ya love me

Fuck you. 

1314,  Reggaefriday,  9  6. 23

1148,  Saturday,  10  6. 23

https://biblioklept.org/2022/11/09/whited-meridian-last-scattered-thoughts-on-cormac-mccarthys-novel-the-passenger/

Actually I do have a couple pieces of news. One good, one bad, of course.

What’s the good?

Tulsa’s (a former girlfriend) is back.

Okay. What’s the bad news?

The bad news is that that’s the good news.

*   *   *

Does she know about your lack of feelings? Or the lack thereof?

I dont know. She’s a pretty astute girl. Who knows? You’re always on thin ice. Of course anytime a woman shows up after a long absence there is one thing you know for certain and that things have not gone well. 

Cormac McCarthy  The Passenger  pgs 303 & 304

  

   . . . a woman showsup after a long absence . . .

hit home 

        reminded him of his outdoor cats  cats  women  women  cats   ofttimes their absencestwo days cause him duressheartache because hes fed bigfoot ten years wee eight Robert seven theyre not spring chicksdidnt come to him as kittens anbecause of their feralocity feral ferocity ofttimes reappear toreupraggedy anbecause theyre truly feral which in his eyes is their preeminent drawingcard theyd attack him if he were to try an trap them to take them to a vet for care   Livin’ life here man, keep your paws to yourself.

   women  cats  cats  women 

                                 while gone theyre being fed an petted an cared for by someone else   until it gets old

Welcome back whereya been whore  Ya do understand my hearts not a WELCOME mat

1322,  Thursday,  8  6. 23

1106,  Saturday,  10  6. 23