fumble

unforced error

kissed his sister

                    I have no discipline.

Yasaid it Great Gawdbout time you let the cat out of the bag

                                                                   Liberating  Feels good don it

I didn’t mean that.

Perhaps not you  But You

                              You meant it anIm supremely aware you havent

Because I do

Ancomparatively

Zip bro ya got shit

I’m disciplined.

Flip flop sally forth Sally

You got to do that?

When someone tries to defend the indefensible

                                                 Go ahead   Defend away

I’m disciplined. I tell the truth.

Yah

     Confessed

Fuckyou. I seek knowledge.

                              I’m concerned about health and welfare.

Discipline  Discipline

                       Those arent disciplines Worldwide you braying  You subscribe to things but are unwilling to attest for yourself whaya might perceive if you coud  a discipline

I make my bed every morning whether Ive shared it or not  Personal

I eat breakfast take my vitamins.

Imagine you shit too

                      Tha not discipline

Sure youve admitted

Rectify whaya understand about yourself

                                               No shame

You are who you are

I certainly know who the fuck you are

1627, Saturday,  29  6. 24

1717, Sunday,  7  7. 24

saw The Dangerous Method    again

                                         which is always dangerous to watch

he was firmly groundedentrenched with Jung  couldnt tolerate Freud

                                                                              college

openly antagonised disputed the individual teaching professor? fuck if he knew Psych 101

got bounced

went to the Registrars Office demanded his tuition be refunded   one would think the money was equivalent to a First Born

got Ugly

but he could do UGLY with the best of them

was recompensed

                     then  SURPRISE

the following quarter had trouble getting classes he needed

                                                                   LESSON

DO NOT STAND UP FOR YOURSELF

thatd be a cold day in Hell

he spent lotsa cold days in Hell

“True sexuality demands the destruction of the ego.”

                                                         no-brainer

destroyed his ego when he was a boy

he didnt understand at the time it was his ego

                                                 he wasnt going to have anyone fuck with him

Pick on someone your own size

but who would do that

fix was in

he learnedunderstood people abused others who were smallerless fortunate

                                                                                    laughed sardonically

he was surprised he hadnt killed anyone yet

                                                but maybe that was the source the accumulating leverage meant to exploit him  have him submit to the Draft KILL yellow people who were fighting for their way of lifemaybe not the countrys geopolitical issues  but their familys 

Communist Domino Theory

fuck those lilywhite purveyors

POWER

old as Christs dog

too old to fetch a stick

but he had young arms young legs

he could throw and fetch

                          FUCK

probably could righteously pat himself on the head

                                                       Good boy good boy such a good boy

laughed

            he was mighty surprised he hadnt killed anyone

yet

1852,  Thursday,  4  7. 24

1616, Sunday,  7  7. 24

https://www.history.com/topics/cold-war/domino-theory

mischievous Microsoft Word hellion   think its past juvenileSO  WHY

                                                                          when he wrote Im askin

yet againdespite correcting it four times when he wrote Im askin a fifth timeWord corrected it to Ima skin

if he typed faster he might not have seen it change his words

                                                                   whas a Ima whas an Ima skin

he wasnt going to wade hipdeep into those questions with Microsoft

                                                                        however  if tendered

he sincerely doubted

probably wouldnt receive a reply

                                   or is tha  are ply

Tsk tsk tsk  no correction

                           task tisk tusk not offered   thankfully

he had to arrest himself

didnt take a knee

Hallelujah

              injected

a little Godsmack Godsemen  sements his No knees  bees knees   knows no need to kneel

    all the above mangledwrangled  liberated

                                                not a suddensingle “correction”

Imagine tha

1039,  Sunday,  7  7. 24

1500,  Sunday

Leonard Cohen  Hallelujah  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M6mU0wMEmbQ 

he overheard a kidwas a kid to him younger  lateTwenties maybe earlyThirties was complaining he was having a hard time making ends meet

was dressed well the car he leaned against was a couplethree years old  likely paying on it

he thumbed towards itdidnt like assumptions 

                                                  Yours

The car?

Yah

It’s mine.

Goodlookin car

Thank you.

Had to setya back

Don’t they all?

I imagine  My cars old

                           I overheardwasnt listenin in  Tough to make ends meet

Yeah. Hell. You must know.

I hear

others stepped aside he leanedup off the car rubbed where he leaned with his sweatersleeve   returned his attention to him

        You’ve heard.

Make ends meet

You heard me.

You Others    So I ask

You want to ask me something? sizing him up

didnt care for guys who pulled that they shouldnt foolish to think these days it may be a physical encounter

                                                                                                          I do

still sizing maybe reading his mind  continued letting it scroll subliminally on his brain chyron

                                                                                             What’s that?

Wha ends

              Ya living within your means

You want to know . why?

If youre just complaining

Complaining?a lot of nerve, man.

Im askin Dislike assuming

                                Woudya rather I did

stepped towards him

he didnt retreat

Whas your read now

So what are you saying?

   Im asking

If I’m living within my means?

In debt

        Heard tell from my parents a tale of Keepin up with the Joneseswhich confused the shit out of me as a kid  There were two Jones families in the neighborhoodcrazier still Jones  They werent related   But they were similar  How many kids they had one ten one twelve wemy parents  had eight

                                                                            Wondered if my parents were tryin to keep up with thathey werent

I was the eldest

Seven siblings

Thawas a plenty handful The Joneses eldests were scarcetheir brothers an sisters hellions he laughed   You know this word  Hellions reminded him of In Bruges Alcoves  You know this word alcoves

I don’t.

could have knocked him over with a feather

                                              had he not been rolling foolish to think these days it may be a physical encounter on his chyron knocking him over with a feather might have registered Alcove a small recessed section of a room an arched opening as in a wall  AlcoveHellion A rowdy mischievious troublemaking person Especially a child

Learn something new every day if youre interested

                                                           Keepinup with the Joneses

I don’t know any Joneses.

Know somebody whos got more than you an youre tryin to keep pace thereby not living within your means whaya can afford whaya need not want or arya dragged around by want

he took another step forward evidently didntcant read brain chyrons You got your nerv . .

. . To poise a question

                           It is a nice car

casually turned his back on him walked away

easily offended

                  but didnt strike him as a bitch

1549,  Reggaefriday,  5  7. 24

1114,  Sunday,  7  7. 24

In Bruges  alcove  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zQXlW0GzlD4

PE DAN TIC PE DAN TIC

     PE DAN TIC

PE DAN TIC PE DAN TIC PE DAN TIC PE DAN TIC PE DAN TIC PE DAN TIC PE DAN TIC

counted sevenfuckin screed

he rolled out the wrong side of the bed and went to the windowlooked outPE DAN TIC   where the hell was this little crow he wanted to see

PE DAN TIC PE DAN TIC in the trees

   nothing  fluttered

 

 

nothing

crying was over

                    except maybe

for his  if he took the birds word to heart

its accusation

                 he wouldnt what does a boid know

if it knewwas brainy  why didnt it hound him with PU RIST or QUIB BLER or CAS U IST or CA VIL LER or NIT PICK ER or tantamount DRY AS DUST  more than one way to skin a cat  whispered had cats  didnt want to upset them

he stepped backwards away from the window bed at the back of his knees   sat still looking outside for any hint  crime scene sweptclean of evidence   

Crime

Wha crime

Felt like a crime

It did didnt it

Hypnopompic

Maybe

         Felt like I was awake

Wha arya doing up

Me Uses   Were just up before you just asleep before you

Yah youse woud be

                      Thank you

if the accusing bird were looking in in silence it might think he was talking to himself   Wha crime   It did didnt it   Maybe  Felt like I was awake  Wha arya doing up

                                                       boid wouldnt understand his dialogue with his Mariachis  heshes shehes

Thank you

Don mention it

he was polite

Im not pedantic

                  If anything he mocked a  PED A GOGUE

he hummed

             words were  Maybe I should go to hell but I am doing well/Teacher needs to see me after school . . . Im hot for teacher

7AMish,  Sunday,  7  7. 24

Van Halen  Hot for Teacher  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6M4_Ommfvv0