there was a little game his immediate
family playedactually he was late to it anif
he was correct the game began between his son-in-law and youngest daughter
his youngest was very protective
of her sister as might be with sisters he couldnt say it was so between brothers or not so much he had five younger brothers possibly within the realm his youngest
daughter held he only questioned his brother who was a year younger than he
he asked him if he knew what he
was doing
his brother had proposed to his girlfriend
he asked him if he really thought
it throughthought it through thoroughly understood what he was getting into
his brothers girlfriend was
pregnant there were op..NO he didnt softpedal it he didnt like euphemisms people hid behind them
Have
you discussed aborting the fetus A pregnancy
is a poor reason to get married I ask
because I havent heard you say you love her
not unreasonable he provoked a nasty response
however not the response he
expected
it was a shrill condemnation that
he . .
Whoa You marrying her has nothing to do with me Ive
my own life Im asking because I love you You might remember several months ago you came to our fourplex and
stayed with us for a week when you went through a scarea fucking scare that she was pregnant Which you followed up with a couple months
later a Thanksgiving table announcement We might be pregnant Might be pregnant You dontit still gripes me you dont announce you might be fucking anythingleast of all We might be fucking pregnant Brilliant
Two uhohs Couldnt figure out you might wanna wear a condom
Anthen third times a charm Knocked up And you know how much I hate that vernacular
the shrill condemnationexercised
frantic excitement had nothing to do with him suggesting an abortion rather he his brother said had no honorhe
didnt know what honor was
Honor
Ya fuckin kiddin me
out of the blue in drops Hemingwaykicks a hole in the side of his head Honor A
Farewell to Arms Abstract words such as
glory, honor, courage, or hallow were obscene
beside concrete names of villages, the number of roads, the names of rivers,
the number of regiments and the dates.
Brother you can take your military conscienceyour government
issue GI
a Marine is just another GI to
bend to or kneel to orders to be
subservient No my wordsmy actions are my honor if and
I wouldnt had to scar them with your
honor
his kid brother got married
and had a baby
he said he loved his baby
his youngest was protective of
her sister she found it hard to think that
any man was good enough for her
thats what she told him
thats what she told him when they
were separate and away from her sister
they had a meeting of the mindsthe
hearts the two them sitting on top of a stout oak diningroom
table in a house rental on a lake in Iowa for his parents fortieth wedding anniversary all night
he went to bed they were talking when he woke in the morning they were still
talking they didnt get off the table and
quit talking to go to sleep until breakfast was being prepared
they have an intimate history and amid their historyhe never understood or
wanted to know who first said it
said But secretly
for instance Did you want a slice of apple pie
Yes please but
secretly I want my apple pie
heated and served ala mode French Vanilla ice cream topped with a sensual sticky
drizzle of caramel and a cognac beside a Rose Bone China cup of hot black
hazelnutflavoured coffee
Secretly
but not so secretly he didnt want people trying to excuse their
actions because they heard some people or them or they say their action was admissible
WHO
Dont tell me them or they
somebody Tell me exactly who these
people areName them Anif you cant name
them then its on youall on you you have
no cover You decidedyour decision You
are accountable
he was sick and tired of people
eluding their responsibilitynot being held accountable hiding behind pronouns
he wasnt sure they knew what a pronoun
was
had he his druthers they didnt sound attractive having them might frighten him
but if he had his druthers hed throw them in a celldetain them until they admitted
either these others their names or were in fact responsible solely responsible
apparently But secretly
most people prefer to lie
0923, Sunday,
4 11. 18
Neil Young Words https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HN53WZjCL_g
