18.2.19



this is a theatre
                 this is where community  people  come together to share a film

if you didnt want to share a movie you could stay home and catch it on DVD or via some personal online access

catching it opening night to later boast about wasnt something he did or respected
                                                                                       Yeah, I caught it opening night.
So wha fuck you  


he hadnt been in a theatre where he didnt rub elbows with people to either side of him  the thrust thrust parry parry Excuse me Sorry their arms dancing in the dark the shared bemusement embarrassment

these were plush seats recliners frankly buttons embedded in the arms operated how far back you wished to leanhow high to raise your legs on incorporated footstools  he would have to have weighed fourhundred pounds to fill the arms  and still he wouldnt have rubbed elbows with his neighbours unless they also weighed fourhundred pounds

he was alone on a fucking island 

there wasnt anything communal about this theatre this experience



he remembered catching the Exorcist at the Ramova of South Halsted with friends

the floor under their feet was slick reflecting the muted overheard lighting before it went down for the previews still moist from vomit mopped up its smell still emanating

he remembered rounding the corner part of the line they stood in  finally able to eyeball the marque  COMING SOON! EARTHQUAKE  BILLY JACK its face swept by the flashing lights of an ambulance  before they bought their tickets knew they made the cut for that showing the attendants wheeled out an older man who suffered a heart attack 

he remembered when Regans head turned onehundred an eighty degreesspooked he rocked back hard in his seat his arms went out openhanded he slammed his friends to either side of him (he would have jammed anyone who sat to his sides) he dumped Jane on his left into her boyfriends lap she almost went hysterical nuts with fright his sudden violence FUCK! barked at the top of his lungs




sitting in this obese chair he wasnt sure he could even reach the people who sat beside him VICE however wasnt going to frighten him he wasnt going to shove anyone despite their distance it wasnt going to save them from his snake hiss his Fuucker 
            he tried to keep his voice down

unfortunately he remembered American political history more than he might care to admit 

he could suppose when something offends youmakes you feel a victim you dont forget for a long time America had offended him  asif a fat man sitting beside him at a banquet dinner helped themselves to the food on his plate eating it with their greasy fingers their bodyguards seizing him by the arm when he went for his fork to stab him the second time  foregoing the warning Excuse me fatso

at the end of VICE he startled several of the moviegoers with his applause didnt people applaud a good movie any more he appreciated the actors art the films vision the subject though he wished would have died when he suffered his first heart attack

                   the entire world would have been better off    

2335,  Twosday,  29  1. 19
1539,  Sunday,  17  2. 19

Leonard Cohen  Chelsea Hotel #2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EhaPHtVUaX4



James Baldwin  People who shut their eyes to reality simply invite their own destruction, and anyone who insists on remaining in a state of innocence long after that innocence is dead turns himself into a monster.

                                                                                                       how prophetic

1558, Monday,  18  2. 19


he hadnt cared for the mongrel since first he heard him yip yipyip  immediately he wanted to strap him with a muzzle or roll a rubber ball out into the street FETCH! before a milk truck  and fantasise about the broken bottles of cold white milk spattered with hot red blood and twisting in the gutter among the spoils curdles of pink brain matter 

the mongrel has a name Stephen
                                    he is responsible for Drumpfs Inaugural American carnage the Muslim ban SIT! he sits across from Chris Wallace Sunday and relates that Wall is a matter of national survival however he couldnt refute that none of the prior 59 national emergencies since 1976 tried to get around Congress to grab military construction funds  he stated there are 4000 troops along the Southern border  overtly  obviously  omitting that the troops are there only because Drumpf ordered them to be there or that of those national emergencies only two authorised military construction one during the Gulf War  the second because of September 11
                                                        quickly he tried to sidestep those notable examples to insist that previously we have engaged in military adventures to destroy drug fields in foreign lands in Afghanistan and in Columbia and therefore they are pretexts for Wall to combat the criminal cartels at our border the criminal organisations that are destabilising the Western Hemisphere (and) are fundamentally foreign policy 

destabilising the Western Hemisphere
                                         thats a breathtaking pronouncement

Stephen Miller a policy wonk another wannabe American oligarch


he hated to admit it but for once he agreed with Ann Coulter The only national emergency is that our president is an idiot

evening,  Sunday,  17  2. 19
1319,  Monday,  18  2. 19