20.12.24


death   oblivion
                   he knew wha shapedformed the pair    oblivion attractive   oblique attractive
maybe it was because his life was smalldidnt socialise  that lefties death impacted him as deeply as it did

she was coming into her own
they related
were intimate
               her choice
the other three werent prone
very catlike

                 which is why he had cats
was not keen on dogs
demanded attention
                        brooding loyalty
possiblyprobably why couples tested the water with dogs before going hogwild
                                                                                      have children
see if they could tolerate  manage   a mammal  pet
the smart ones

                      unlike those whose children were byproducts


he lead a small contained life jammed full of badgering interests
                                                                     few distractions
entertained himself
                      therefore
lefties death
unexpected
subtracted
              substantially shook him              

    her ashes lay in his lap as he wrote as she used to sprawlbe stroke while he did

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    dreaming  Quit composing  woudya
                                                 mete out clearly  sharply
words woke him
                   could suppose they gave him permission to use the head


urinating he thought  he was composing   Chainsaw  Hacksaw  Buzzsaw
                                                                                 Chain  Hack  Buzz
coud hearem bitch in the bedroom Don’t call us that.

they could read his mind But yawere ya absolutely were  Pulled my ass out of a going-one-way sling

Don’t call us that.  Please.
                             they werent really worried they knew he wasnt partial to nicknames
hed only use them in the future teaching lessons  or to recall his deep affection for them his respect that they saved his ass
You were truly magnificent
                              Say thank you

they chuckled conspiratorially
                                  No biggie Daddy-O, no biggie.

 

    fast asleep  awakened
                                               noise   in the livingroom
he sat up two cats were poised at the foot of the bed their attention riveted on the hall livingroom beyond
                                                                                                               queen sat on the steamer trunk under the window she too was fixated on the doorway hallway

he slipped out of bed
was naked

    didnt do the cinema HELLO  WHOS THERE

cats primedremained steadfast  eyes big their vision working the dark

silently he went up the hall into the livingroom
                                                no sooner stepped inwas rocked by a fist on the temple staggeredthrew a hand outcaught the sofa table eyes went to his coach coachs eyes convinced him he gathered himselfdidnt dropped though some element wanted him down  he was yanked off the tablespun right into a telegraphed haymaker meant for his face tucked his chin took the brunt on the forehead widows peak that couldnt have been comfortable was rocked backwards into flurry of kidney punches glanced again coachs eyes convinced him  he spunthrew an elbow caught bone skull  was banged forward a knee meant for his balls turned his hip took it on the thighbehind him a hiss from Hell shriek queen shreddingclimbed an assailants back bit his neck slashed his face with both paws claws took an eye assailant to his right  tom a heavyweight  slammed into the outside of his knee it turned inwardcrumpled he fell tom lacerated his shins thighs bit his hands as he tried to fend him off coach nodded but his leg collapsedhe hit the wall with his shouldertook heavy claws upcross his back then he was light and the guy before him with the bad hand wrist was slow to get his arms up avoid the buzzsaw of claws that raked his chest throat lips face a bloody slicedslashedfuckin mess rendered in seconds
                                                  cats leapt away growling deep in their throats  hissing  backs arched
fuckedup three hit the doordoorjambs stumbled out cryingmoaning they escaped down the hill
looked at coach 
                  put a stool down in his corner


    Chain  Hack  Buzz
                            Don’t call us that.
    
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FRAGILE
                     printed clearly on a cardboard box mailed for Christmas containing cookies

is the same kind of thing as a woman telling a man NO

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