musing
musing while taking a cool bath
to offset the heat of the daythe continuing heat at night
thank Gawd it wasnt humid it wasnt
that kind of heat the wholesale sweating lying in it until the sweat chilled the sheets and he was able to fall asleep as he did in his youth in Chicago
a nice cool bath
he thought it would ease his body
his mind
rather he mused about mortal remains
he hadnt given a thought to them in a very long time
he had to seriously considered them
when his wife died
when he stoodup in the gathered
room and excused himself Everyone youll forgive me I have to go the chapel to
the crematory he
upset the entire room
virtually
everyone there his entire family his
daughters his parents her parents their siblings other family close friends stood
and barred him from leaving She’s gone,
there’s nothing more for you to do. Why would you submit yourself to
that? there were whispers of That
seems ghoulish.
the reality was the truth was
they wouldnt submit themselves to her cremation
when he tried to press forward through
them the tears and wails began No
no NO hands gripped him held him fast
he tried to escape but he wasnt able
nothing
short of violence would free him
on the wall above four doors that exited the banquet hall a huge round whitefaced clock read
Ten her cremation began at Ten
he
was late
he hadnt conceived of a wholesale deployment of grief of repulsion
frankly revulsion
she was the first
of the family who wanted to be cremated
that she was being cremated not buried upset
a slew of them
but thats what she wanted
she was going to have what she
wanted
they didnt talk of anything
beyond that
maybe they should have
then it would have been known he wanted
to attend her cremation
since
given that upset then that near irrevocable violence hed missed two cremations
when they died he was at their bedside
he was keenly aware he missed them
though it seemed no one else was
in a cool bath on a terribly hot
night he mused regret
0111, Sunday,
11 7. 21
1206, Sunday,
11 7. 21
Cream White Room
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V5BF1V1pbTs
Emancipator
– Rena Jones -- Flowerpulse Iceland https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a7RSaFAnu04
