a fly erratically buzzed him

ever meet one that wasnt

straight lines werent their forte

                                   although

what he would pay to ride one

ought to be a carnival attraction

                                   odds on

itd try to snap his neck

anwhile not a betting man

he woudnt be able to resist

Coney Island

Sheephead Bay

buddy who lived there invited him to come out

                                                  A week. I’ll cover you.

Youll cover me

Wouldya stop.

                 Yain’t begin to have what I have.

No I do not

couldnt argue that

                     Roommate had always been generous with him

the Cyclone

they arrived late

was a slow day

few people milled about

operator wanted to go home

he peeved him

               Awcomon man Im in from Chicago Roommate says this is a ride to die for 

Rollercoasters Ferris wheels only rides tha inspire me

Your roommate. He tellya this was a ride to die for?

He did

Alright.

          To die for.

Thaswha he said

He riding?

No doesnt like em  Just me

Alright. First car?

Damn straight

Fine. Letting this one go first. I’ll bring ‘round the next train.

                                                                You patient?

I know yawanna call it a night Im happy to wait forwha it takes

                                                                     Thank you sir

Don’t thank me, boy.

he ran the train

the next rattledgroaned up to his feet

Take a seat.

he sat

operator laid the lap bar across his hipsshook it violent back an forth

                                                                          Set?

I am Right as rain

a fly buzzed him

A big one. Gets late they come for spoils.

                                              Off ya go.

the cars rattled noisily as they climbed

he threw his handsup above his headglanced down at his roommate

he shook his head bewildered by his childish glee

shake shake shake shake shakeOVER the toplap bar failedMOTHERFUCKER he tossedpitchedwas bitched 

MOTHERFUCKER MOTHERFUCKER   MOTHERFUCKER

                                                                     exhausted  clutchingclinging so he wasnt throw out

rattle rattle rattle rattle ride ending rollingup to the operator 

                                                               So boy.  How was that?

weakly  Lap bar failed at the start

Lap bar?

Yah he flopped it so the operator could see   Its broken

It was. Ride to die for you said.

                                   smiled a gappedtooth brokentooth smile  A ride to die for you said.

   couldnt argue with that

1707,  Sunday,  4  8. 24

2233,  Sunday

during the documentary CRUMB

                                  Charles Crumb Robert Crumbs brother sedated a man living at home with his mother relates that without tranquilisers antidepressants hed be unhinged

unhinged

doors

   he wondered if taking down all the interior doors in his house suggested he was

                                                                                          unhinged

he refused to tolerate restraints impediments bansanything that would inhibit him from freely accessing whatever he chose to pursue

if unhinged

             he didnt see a downside  until

until this graphic example presented

                                        he was troubled witnessing Charles talking with his brother

his hard-won compassion stepped forwardthrew an elbow to his shoulder

                                                                                This is different

Youre liberated

This man is not

Hes imprisoned

Count your blessings

You mean blessings literally

   Of course I wouldnt tolerate religion even if you thought you were being cute Id drop you where you stood

he did not fuck with his compassion

Charles unhinged Robert wasnt doing much better himself was drastically different than his

it was strangeinvigorating the things that occurred to him when he let – like he had to let – his mind waonder

9PMish,  Saturday,  3  8. 24

1258,  Sunday,  4  8. 24

Crumb  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3sdwibrYkUU

. . . he wouldnt ever hear ulterior motive again . . .

odds were excellent he wouldnt ever hear ulterior motive again unless in another film but he had to admit he thoroughly enjoyed the memoryrush

   note

         he took pains never to write never so he went with the lessnauseous wouldnt ever and it turned upbit him in the ass in a matter of 1031hrs to 1410hrs VIA Netflixs Suits bout threeanahaf hoursREALLY

                                                                                                   wouldnt ever

on the same freakin day

so much for excellent odds

Hold on there Skippy

Don call me tha

   Awright  wha woudya have me call you

Depends where youre going

Defending

            You

From yourself  You arent kind but youre particularly unkind to yourself

High bar

Maybe bring it down a little

                             Yaint whaya used to be no one is

Your point make it quick

Quoting you Odds were excellent you wouldnt ever  hear ulterior motive again

Fair quote  Thas wha I said

   they rubbed the skin under their right eye perturbed contending   the softest most belligerent scream hedNEVER hear

          Whaelse did you say

Whaelse

QUOTE Unless

   humility crept up behind himkissed him on his ear

                                                         whispered Unless

they were tagteaming him

they were right

                 together they whispered so the others hangin on their every word couldnt hear READ THE TRANSCRIPT BABY

       whispered Unless in another film 

streamed series are film

                           in a broad sense

Were happy ya didnt jump off a bridge eat a bullet cut your throat step in front of a train overdose drive into a wall hit onfondle a burly ragin idiotic homophobe

I seeya gave it some thought

We can go on

               Those were just straws we chose from an imaginative arraymultiple straws an awfully deep bench

   No thanks Tellya wha

                            Haunt me in my dreams

We intend to

              Best hone your lucidD scalpel

1410, Sunday,  4  8. 24

1549,  Sunday

ulterior motives

hadnt heard that in years 

he was watching No Sudden Move on MAX

early in the film a male character says to a moll thats how he read her watched lotsa noir Ah, baby, I know you have ulterior motives.

STONEDhim

             the last he heard ulterior motives uttered washe remembered precisely  a “friend” said it to him  Miami March 1976  the negative connotation wasnt just implied  it bore weight

the dialogue reminded him of the woman friend had made the comment about  friend later wounded him in the leg with a .410 shotgun while hunting rabbits in the Everglades

   he had a .22

                 he suggested   You better run along  AnI mean run

fortunately they went hunting with two other fellas

he reconnoitered with them their kills  they took him to a student nurse one was sleeping withhe remembers her  Rosey

she was very kindkept her mouth shut

friend wisely made himself  scarce

   the woman  if she was able to plot more than two years out that theyd marry in Montana

                                                                                                     considering

when they met he was dating four women  she would have to have been a savant

she wasnt

             became his best friend

odds were excellent he wouldnt ever hear ulterior motive again unless in another film  but he had to admit he thoroughly enjoyed the memoryrush

        

evening 7PMish,  Saturday,  3  8. 24

1031,  Sunday,  4  8. 24

   things that comprised   compromised? his life

the simple task of washing dishes containers mugs

                                                     MUGS mugging it up the mug his wife gave him that had been hers since she was a teenager a voluminous rounded ceramic moustached comic face the ceramic mug a palegreen turquoise handledcanister his daughter gave him that had a buffalo etched on it

the mugs were here

they had died

comprised

              compromised

when he died

his belongings dispersed

things

         without context of why he had them rendered inarticulate   dumb  

he had half a mind to have a pit dug and all his belongingshis books art record albums picture albumsEverything which were cast to his life  his body laid on top of them  immolated

he was elsewhere

                    maybe ashes bind   atoms congeal 

      

0757,  Sunday,  4  8. 24

0941,  Sunday

America  You Can Do Magic  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ac-NcLcX6q4