19.7.20


theres usually a prick or cunt in every family
                                                hed allow he was difficult his ethics were hard but to align him as a prickGo ahead dare ya if siblings or extended family dared to open their mouths hed close it for them . . these screwballs didnt conceive of banding together and attacking en masse  an yet they think hes a prick  FuckChrist whadey sniffin


it was queer to be born into a family and raised on par yet swing so wide of his parents and siblings
                                                                                                          asif their shared upbringing provided no alignment of ideation or critical values he could have called them morals but he didnt want to think his family was immoral  between them 

it astonished him that of nine children only he the eldest and his secondborn sister – they were five years apart -- shared like-values which they recognised early and became keenly intimate
he may have rubbed off on her

he didnt create a monster on purpose


though monsters need playmates



all told – they were extremely different from the rest of the family – and for that difference they were shunned which didnt affect him because as a boy he knew he didnt want to live in-state and that which beckoned him continues to beckon he was restless what he called homehis boyhood family house was bulldozed long ago
                                                                                                     but his sister remained in-state and the bestial shunning eventually broke herbroke her health 

she refused to submit to their orthodoxy she tried to change them her earnest desire to make better people of them was the slender thread of difference between them  

he said Theyre not worth your time and effort

she said They’re my family; I love them.


Family is a noun If you conflate or imbue it with unwarranted attributes youre being too kind and they will see your kindness as a weakness and beat you for it Theyre vampirestheyll bleed you

I can’t help myself, Joe. I . . I . can’t sever myself from our family.


Unfortunately I cant help you babe

It’s different because you’re awa . . 
. . Away  There is no differencethe only difference is that away I cant physically hurt them  I would Theyd understand that




his family was pricked and cunted like the nearly-invisible spines on nettle
  

1624,  Saturday,  18  7. 20
1042,  Sunday,  19  7. 20


on FOX NEWS SUNDAY Chris Wallace interviewed the president
WALLACE: “No, I'm going to ask you a direct question about Joe Biden. Is Joe Biden senile?”
TRUMP: “I don’t want to say that. I’d say he’s not competent to be president. To be president, you have to be sharp and tough and so many other things (OH  Drumpf is so many other things). He doesn't even come out of his basement (an offhand slight because Drumpf has a bunker  a basement isnt a bunker  is it). They think, ‘Oh this is a great campaign.’ So he goes in, I’ll then make a speech, it’ll be a great speech, and some young guy, starts writing, ‘Vice President Biden said this, this, this, this.’ He didn’t say it (lemme think  Ah  Drumpf now-old refrain  ‘What you’re seeing and what you’re reading is not what is happening’  https://www.bbc.com/news/av/world-us-canada-44959340/donald-trump-what-you-re-seeing-and-what-you-re-reading-is-not-what-s-happening). Joe doesn't know he's alive, OK? He doesn't know he’s alive (out of the mouth of an “acting” American president). Do the American people want that (Do the American people want the useless bag-of-wind we have now  again)?”
-- TRUMP: “Let Biden sit through an interview like this, he’ll be on the ground crying for mommy. He’ll say mommy, mommy, please take me home (he had to admit that that sounded authentic – the exact same whine that came out of his mouth when he was leaving the doctors office who verified his bone spurs that kept him from serving in Nam).
being a coward never erodes
1250,  Sunday,  19  7. 20