things were lost in transition

not translation

                 were  those kind of things

gutted

        willing to transition

or gutted an knocked down

  Will you transition?

Lemme think about it

Should have thought about it earlier. We’re not asking again.

he didnt like its fixed machineface

                                   quickly smashed it with a ironore railroad spike  last centurys  it wouldnt have recognised as lethal 

                     stomped it deep through its neuralnetwork blueghostlightning worked up it shaft

he deftly stomped again trusting its ability to cryout communicate was severed by the violent penetration  then he stepped backanaway an kicked it in the head with his steeltoed boot  so fuckingrateful it wasnt a human skull

that would have made him puke

   willing to transition

he wasnt 

             not a hope in Hell

1415 close,  2sday,  17  10. 23

2319,  2sday

Daniela Andrade  Creep  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DDjlaN-X8-0

Morgan James  If You Don’t Know Me by Now  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NzncBq3nQxo

Rachel Price  Can’t Find My Way Home  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1xZxxVlu7BM

Puff Daddy  Come With Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X8eoVa3s-vE

Eminem  Lose Yourself  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iw5BiCxOR-c 

   recurrent  a drone in his ears across his eyes  if muscles arent exercised they atrophy if muscles arent exercised they atrophy if muscles arent exercised the atrophy . . . 

it was distracting

What are you thinking?

he sighed was with him all night long  If muscles arent exercise they atrophy  a real trophy

                                                                                                 Goes for ones brain too

took it personallyhe sneered You think you’re telling me something I don’t know?

Wha

Something I don’t know.

   Ah  Yasay ya donwanna work tha hard

You’re, as you always do, are taking it to an extreme.

I wasnt But extreme paints undeniable pictures  Its hard to look away from

                                                                                  Pursuits are up to you

They do not fall in your lap.

Thank you

So, extreme is as extreme does, since the end of your last relationship you expecting a woman to fall into your lap?

I do not

When are you going to pickup, no pun intended, your pursuits?

Im not got things to do

You are not?

Thas wha I said

   That makes no sense, I’ve seen numerous women look after you check you out.

Thas flattering thas nice

                           Not interested

You’re not interested in getting laid?

Youre not 

             Not to put too fine a point on it yare tryin as hard as I donwanna work tha hard allows 

he sneered Clever. I’ll repeat myself you’re not interested in getting laid?

Because thaswha women are for 

                                     No  Not at the cost of a relationship time invested   I havent time

Of course you do.

Of course you do I don

What if . .

. . Im not entertaining hypotheticals

Humor me.

Not even to humour you Its off the table

                                           To each his own I havent time  I have priorities

But you’ll minimise mine?

Did I say tha

It feels . .

. . I don care how it feels I didnt say tha don put words in my mouth  tha doesnt fly with me

   I apologize.

                 So. If I can ask.  What are you spending time doing?

Im trying to figure out Structuralism Levi-Strauss Derrida Foucault Deleuze Post-Structuralism  Im not havin much luck

   So much for atrophy.

Yes

0520,  2sday,  17  10. 23

1239,  2sday

back to back restless nights restless dreams

                                                       Eileen  a piece of work

worked at the Recycle Center

was hired a yearyear  abit better than a year ago

                                                      looked overqualified for the job

if looks had anything to do with it

he understood she was crackerjack at the books numbers easy to her

they were with him too

it became a game they played who could compute the numbers correctly quicker in their heads

on any given day except today a coinflip since realising their mutual petpeeve

                                                                                 itd become a nifty competition

Look what the cat dragged in.

he looked quickly over his shouderbehind him

                                                 turning back he smiled Me  You talkin to me

You’re the only one here.

Are you  arya talkin to me

they thought they were pretty funny

she clobbered him

Ya crushed me

Did. Though when I said look at what the cat dragged in I meant it. You look beat.

Im exhausted

               Dreams have been unrelentingeach an every damn one wants a piece of me Whadaya think of tha  they shake me up so I wake turn on the lamp write em down an as I do I say out loud See  Yasee wha Im doin okay  Now gimme some time lemme dig in an Ill get back to ya let ya know wha I think

Curious. You think they’re listeningthey can hear you?

Fingers crossed  Though tryin to reenter roll back to sleep theyre leaning backs against the wallarms crossedheel up on it expectant asif by writin em down Ive handled their asks

                                                               Tell em again Ive written em down Ill get back to ya

Anyway I lay there eyes closed watch palegray ghost sheens bubbleup float through the black Theyre entertaining for a while then they cease I look around Pitch black But I wont open my eyes  Its exhausting

You fall back to sleep?

   Eventually

Eileen looked bemused

Whas up

she cleared her throat

                         Know what I do?

When you cant fall asleep

Yeah.

No  Wha

she gave a quicklaugh shook her head she couldnt toss her dimples smiled

                                                                                Iah masturbate.

he barked a laugh though he hadnt dimples 

                                                  So do I he nodded So do I   Eventually I fall asleep

We ought to get together kiddin her     

turning to the counter she picked up a business card wrote on it handed it to him

he looked at itat her

                      backing away the card between two finger he tipped it to his forehead a salute   Ill call ya

See that you do.

b4 6,  2sday,  17  10. 23

1045,  2sday

Lee Morgan  Since I Fell for You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y-0i-ianljw

Brad Mehldau Trio  Since I Fell for You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RShj9RTSYMA