disillusionment
delusion
disillusionment
he knew it was he knew it was as
he wokehis eyes blurry woke and watched
the texturing on the wall at his feet
melt go flaccid without blemish serenely
flat hardmirror flat
the
sunlight falling on it moments beforerevealing its blemishes now glances and reflects and sees itself on the wall adjacent at his right painting a concise rainbowribboned arc as if it were revealed through a prism
he knew that was disillusionment
for yet in a
hypnagogic phase or fashion he rightly knew that the driedmud smeared on plasterboard
for texture beneath the paint could not melt like bits of congealed butter he knew that he willed it he smoothed it with his
mind and willingly saw it
he did not actually see it
had he seen it
he would have deluded himself
and his reasoning was too acutetoo raw to ever actually see something
that was not there
his roommateshis ghosts were there
their breaths on the back of his
neckon his facemaking him flinch like a babehis name said audiolised perhaps
kin to idolised idol-eyed idolatry giveidleatry they made him giddyspooks can do that and just when sex was thought primeval to
males giddy their goofy fuckfaces declaring Im cummin! a spookll do that
a suckubus an incubutt theyll make you put chewed gum where you wouldnt chew it again
a suckubus an incubutt theyll make you put chewed gum where you wouldnt chew it again
they were his frenetic
reality
not
frantick disillusionment
not
Somewhere Over the Rainbow delusion coloured Oz blackandwhite Kansas tapping rubyred slipperheels together Theres no place like home Theres no place like home Theres no place like
home
delusion
one worked hard to delude
themselves aint talking psychoticbreaks like windows psychicslips on ice or bananapeels
the first time he saw The Wizard of
Oz he didnt see the
coloured OZ until he shared the movie with his daughters in the 80s
Awcomon The tornado would have eaten her
alive
SHUSH! Watch the movie.
he relished the righteous apple
trees nobody touched his
fruit unless he wanted them to
lazy 1000ish in
bed, Sunday, 10 6.
18
1212, Monday,
11 6. 18
