strike while the irons hot
melding folding metal a smithy hammer and an anvil
ironing shirts who does that anymore? he did
branding cattle (dont neglect
yourself dont breathe in while
branding its awful its nasty)
making blueberry waffles
physical iterations
his was emotional
his anvil is an electric white
pagehis hammer the puny keys of a
keyboard
pent up wild emotions ciphered into common words
because what would be the point
of writing cryptically about his feelings his emotions which all human beings share despite their wide varying degrees or shades obscure black to lightningbright white
this communique is a miserable
attempt to strike while the irons hot
because his
emotional confusionhis battle vied warm bloodred hope against cold concrete
reality
idealists at the get-go dont have
a firm grip on reality reality is
elastic malleable unfixed
he doesnt see his sisters body
rendered by cancer exhausted decimated
he hears her lively vital voice albeit tinged with exhaustion worked to wearinesshe hears her rapid neurons
snapping wet towels at naked asses in a high school shower Leave your fleshy ass turned to me so I dont accidentally
snap your pecker or slap you in the ballsTHATLL HURT
he hears her voice now as
astonishing as he heard her voice when she was a babe disgruntled without the words crying FEED ME!
CHANGE MY DIAPER! FIGURE OUT MY DISPLEASURE
but sometimes she
just needed to cry
she
needed to learn that she was as responsible for her comfort as much as they were in trying to alleviate her touted discomforts they assumed and discovering their T’s crossed I’s
dotted insoluble they let her to determine her druthers thats
from where druthers come
he heard herhe hung on every word she said
and when she says I better go. I’m
taking up too much of your time.he abruptly interruptedNo youre not If youre tired thats something else I love spending my time talking with you I love you sweetheart
she admits shes exhausted
he doesnt want to let her gohell
never let her go Okay Then well talk next week
Yes. Next week.
when
theres no Next week When theres no next week When theres no next weekwhat will he do theyve been talking like this
for better than six years every week
what
will he do
hell remember what he can
hell talk about his baby sister
until he cant talk anymore
then only one thing will be able
to shut him up
1134, Sunday,
26 8. 18
