he was pretty tore upcoming apart
at the seams threads unraveling skin thinning
he wasnt tolerating things as
well as he used toas well as perhaps he should
not that he ever tolerated anything well
it wasnt skin he
readily invested skin in various games
rather it was the lines the barriersethics not wall his morals
morals
there wasnt anything that could
entice or seduce him
no price tag
he couldnt be other than who he was
the thinning skin he inhabited
was something else he knew exactly from where it came
his sister diedshe died of
ovarian cancer
she battled it for six years
if
her doctors had known a few months earlier what they learned had she undergone a complete hysterectomy
after her breast cancershe was done having babies having a uterus and ovaries doesnt make a
woman a woman MAYBE she wouldnt have
suffered the bouts of ovarian cancer she did
MAYBE IF
IF MAYBE
the words had caught in her throatcaught in his
craw
shed
never have a craw
she was too beautiful
he wasnt
however curiously people always remarked
when they meet them together that she was the spitting-image of him if she were a man and hed be the spitting-image of her if he
were a woman
usually they nixed agreeing refused
the flattery
he usually step into the fray first
and said Thank you although he couldnt agree
because if he agreed hed be distracted by playing with his enormous
tits hed have become a porn star
and she covered
his ass admitting admitting if she was drunk she be prone to distraction
by playing with her cock Not
enormous Stop
they were yin and yang to the
other or yang and yin or yanking cock or tweaking and sucking nipples
when he gave his mother and
sisters and sisters-in-law vibrators one Christmas she was the only one who
said Thank you and left it at that
simple Thank you very much
she shamed Elvis
his sister died ten months ago to
his mind theyve missed forty telephone callseighty to onehundredtwenty hours of
talking sharing laughing they were robbed
every second of that missing time thinned his
skin
Aw baby he whimpered you need to
help mehelp me from going down this rabbit hole Im struggling struggling terribly
You know me
I rarely struggle
SHADDUP
AND MOURN Eventually Eventually
or
maybe it was the whiskey talking
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