21.1.17



1460 days left




it was so fucking cold inside the house that he didnt want to touch himself to take a leak(thats how fucking cold it was)  yet he went outdoors and stood on the porch in the dull flat sunlight sipping a cold Rasputin(rash Putin  curious timing) smoking a joint

he didnt know which goaded him into the weather into winters embrace  a kind of paltry gauntlet he thought though not muchnot much when compared to the two Minnesota winters he worked as a carpenter when he was remanded legally to wait until the temperature rose to thirty-below before he could strap on his nailbags

Nope  this winter didnt hold a candle to those


it wasnt the weather that ended his fledgling career(not that he ever aspired to a career) it was the carpenters union he refused to join on three separate occasions

he didnt think those monkeys remembered

he didnt know if he was purposefully excluded from being called off the job but he was the only one of the crew he worked with to show up on site where he found himself suddenlysurrounded by five union hacks who materialised brandishing hammers from out behind lumber stacks inside the project managers trailer and one  out of the honeyhut

he went to his belt and withdrew his 32-ounce framing hammer and a roofing axe  Gents he said this can end ugly
But you should ask yourself which among you wants injury because I guarantee itll be more than one of you who falls with me

sanity was shaky

but it prevailed

they allowed him to back off the job site to his car and he left

he stopped at a gas station and used a pay telephone to call the other guys on the crew he worked with  

no one answered their telephones

none of them ever returned his messages



he quickly found another line of work a temp job delivering furniture

his work impressed the companys owner 

he was hired full-time worked his way up and later managed the firm

he held up there until it became apparent that despite his word the owner wasnt going to give over the day-to-day operation to him  the owner wasnt going to stop making bad decisions and under-cutting decisions he had already made to put into play

Its not what you know the owner told him  but who you know

Yeah theres that but Id amend your remark  Youre not that clever  You fail to grasp that your hands are tied by your partners who are smarter than you and for some alien reason to me you continually try to impress them while they take you for a ride  You might wanna keep a tube of K-Y Jelly nearby so it doesnt hurt too badly when they finally take you outside bend you over and fuck you in the ass  Excuse my plain speaking

nothing flourishes under bad management  no matter its realm


Ah  water under the bridge



he did hear a year or so later from the owner that he was being sued for sexual harassment

he asked him to write a letter attesting to his veracity and imply it wasnt beneath the girl to lie for financial gain

he wrote a terse letterhe wrote him he appreciated the years of employment he provided him but in good conscience he couldnt vouch either for him or his unseen conduct

he alluded(though doubt his allusion would pique him) hed do well to recall his words when he abruptly removed her from his Bloomington office to be under him in St Paul

he never did hear back or what evolved




even now  blitzed  standing in the cold all these years later he recalled Laura  the young woman who sued who possessed an attractive playful vitality a radiant sex appeal   

his memory hadnt eroded  

she was the rare innocent one encounters and realises its not naivety

he sent her home on more than one occasion to dress more professionally  for the office

and each and every time she was confusedhonestly confused  I dont understand  This is an attractive outfit 

Ohyes very attractive  But attractive if you wore it to a nightclub and this aint no nightclub

shed pout her lips like a childridiculously attractive   very fetching when she did

Now get out of here  Keep in mind youre not on the clock until you come back

and shed return dressed  more   tame

there wasnt a damn thing she could do about it  it frankly wasnt through any fault of her own    she naturally exuded her   her native sexuality

she was comfortable in her skin and made no bones about  she was matter  of  fact                                                                             
I dont get it Im no different than anyone everyone has a body 

she could hide herself inside a potato sack but would still raise eyebrows  men and womens alike

yet inside her head crawled a curious mind  she was a quick-study

when he realised her depth he turned her loose and told her if she had a question she could come to him

she didnt often come  

hed see her through the acrylic at the face of her office at the back of the store and watched her brow work her fingers rubbing her forehead a thumb at her temple massaging it  concentrated  her head either popping up in excitement  or dropping in dismay

he liked that she worked things out for herself turning them upside down around and around and that she didnt allow herself easily to seek him

as much as she used her head at work most of the rest of the time she was out of it

and that was attractive too


a chill got to his spine through the booze and dope

the sun was a soft muted disk floating behind the clouds


he hoped Laura took his ex-employer to the bank

not because he was vindictive

but because he knew she was underestimated 



before he went outdoors before the Rasputin and grass he read an on-line Washington Post op-ed by E J Dione:

"Speaking of autocrats Vladmir Putin's engagement in American politics on Trump's behalf continued Tuesday when he called reports that Trump had been compromised by Russian intelligence 'total nonsense' designed to 'undermine the legitimacy of Trump's presidency. Putin accused those spreading the information of being 'worse than prostitutes,' adding: 'They have no moral boundaries.'"

he might have said the first thing that occurred to him though it couldnt have been because two tried coming through the doorway of his consciousness simultaneously and got wedged trapped in the doorjamb their herky-jerky arms legs twisting shoulders jabbing elbows struggling to come through making hilarious Three Stooges noises trying to pass first

one was Putins reference to prostitutes "being worse than (women)"  the bitter other was who the hell was Putin
to pronounce morals suggest morality




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Is it just me? or does Drumpf remind you of Yosemite Sam too?






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