3.10.19


                cops
                                “ . . one of them brought his knee up into my groin and I bent over and someone kicked me in the side of the head and said, ‘You dirty cop-killing rat.”

   he paused a momentclosing the book Black Wings Has My Angel on his finger so not to lose his place  what a place
there was a ticking in his ears the gears in his brain working  he knew that it like a carnival Fortune Telling Lady machine was gonna lay something on him whether he wanted it or not because he dared to think or slipped it a thin dime

the ticking finally quit it took over his mouth he said out loud  Why is it when a cop kills someone theyre referred to as officer or policeman not a dirty nigger-killing rat  a dirty white-killing rat any-ethnic-killing ratWHY why are they granted the benefit of doubt when they take it upon themselves an deescalateexecute with a bullet
because the Court has their backs
their Union has their backs 

they feared for their life 
                       maybe they dont think the person they killed feared for theirs or they dont have to think just react to their fear


thinking goes against command
                                  a commandment evidently punishable by death if someone doesnt immediately-or-sooner do what they say  a reverse Mother-may-I  they ice you if you move if you shudder if you run for your life  a soul aint been born who can outrun a bullet


dead men tell no tales



That?  I forgot to turn my camera on. the benefit of doubt


1400,  Monday,  23  9. 19
1154,  Thursday,  3  10. 19


revisiting Frantz Fanons words from The Wretched of the Earth

cunts yammerings yesterday 
                               “ . . the impervious being crazed by his absolute power and by his fear of losing it, no longer remembers clearly that he was once a man . . .”

1210,  Thursday,  3  10. 19