4.8.19


he suffers a kind of dyslexia 
                               whether reproducing telephone numbers haltinglyregurgitated at him into the passiveagressive registers keyboard  numbers he accuses of being tattooed to the backs of the reciters eyelids  or eyelid  one gal closed one eye and twitched around seeminglystaring at her closed left eyethat was a first  as opposed to others who cast their eyes upwardstare at the ceiling or over the top of his head at the blank wall above the ice coolers   

he was provocative hed lean back staring up at the ceiling with them  Where ya lookin I dont see no freaking numbers
 
it was humour 
                everything goes better with humourparticularly when you force people to laugh at themselves

if they didnt laugh he kept a ballpeen hammer on hand to encourage them  ballpeen hammers had a way of being very persuasive 
            particularly if one wields them with enthusiasm and mentions the pigs theyve killed with single savage blow struck between the eyes

We gotta eat



he flashed to a website called Distractify looking for the young actress who appeared opposite DiCaprio in Upon Once a Time in Hollywood
                     Julia Butters   

shes on American Housewives 
                                 though itd be a cold day in hell before hed venture anywhere near that shit

good thing Miss Butters excelled at her audition

he wouldnt see her again until her next role in cinema 

little screens are little screensplaces where actors cut their teeth

hed rather toss them teething biscuits than suffer television 
                                                               its not where he roamed
he had other curiosities to satisfy


nevertheless his dyslexia 
                             whether juxtaposing numbers 3437 3473  or words Distractify  Decrucify                                                                                                                     
Decrucify acquired his attention 

whether correct or incorrectly


how would one decrucify pull nails pounded through flesh defrock of a crown of thorns  reversing a Centurions spear jab would be difficult  he couldnt unless he could rewind time

but if he could rewind time hed be curious to look at the primitive black and whites of Adam and LilithEve wringing her hands back in the Garden the serpent seducing herslipping headlong between her thighs gooble gooblegooble Eve buckingEve holleringEve almost suffocating the serpent   

hed been a serpent many times he could relate  have sympathyhave empathy
                                                                                       but not a terrible way to die
up to your eyeballs in cunt


Yah Decrucify attracted him

but if anyone had it in their playbook  it had to be Christ 

Why didnt He flex his superhero muscles and lay waste to the Roman Empire 


Didnt He get they were a bunch of dagoes

Saturdayafternoon,  3  8. 19
1739, Sunday,  4  8. 19


its called terrorism



lets stand it on top of his prior entrykinda like making an ice cream sundae scoops and scoops and more scoops of White hate

he was inclined to lay the whole terrifying bloody mess at Fakers feet



"he worked all dayjust got home

“while he heated up some leftover beef kidneys and egg noodles on the stove he went to his computer  to his Hotmail

“The Nation reported  rather rereport a TomDispatch article  Adam Hochschild’s America’s Real War  http://www.tomdispatch.com/post/176592/tomgram%3A_adam_hochschild%2C_america%27s_real_war/#more

“there was also a horrific NPR offering  20 People Killed In El Paso Shooting; 21-Year-Old (white) Suspect In Custody (the shooter didnt have the courage to put the weapon in his mouth and pull the trigger)  https://outlook.live.com/mail/inbox/id/AQMkADAwATYwMAItOTA3MS04MGZhLTAwAi0wMAoARgAAA3WjpKc7cPZFny%2BrLdaubrMHAMepe1zO4DpMpnJXM8BCucMAAAIBDAAAAMepe1zO4DpMpnJXM8BCucMAArQVNB8AAAA%3D

“things remain to be seen
                           however theres a wretched possibility that Drumpfs violent words – in translation -- have cut down 20 lives”

2310,  Saturday,  3  8. 19
“Try not to hurt him. If you do, I’ll defend you in court, don’t worry about it.”  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WIs2L2nUL-0 
 
1642,  Sundae,  4  8. 19
almost makes one desire a simpler time  Neil Young  Ohio (4 dead)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TRE9vMBBe10