9:54
that is a real nice time of the night
he usually didnt write it suchusually
in military time 24-hour clock the
military does that to simplify time for simple soldiers theyre okay as long as they can count 0 to 23
and to 59
he dug the time this
evening because if he twisted it numerologically added 9 plus 5 plus 4 equals 18 and 1 plus 8 equals
9 9 his end
numberhis lucky number 9 means humane and
altruistic
which was very much who he was
military time itd be 2154 hed end up with 3 Hmm
3-squared 9 thats something still what did 3 mean Ah creative self-expression encouraging others to be creative optimist
socialNAH
hed stick with 9
at 9:54 in his prior lifebefore
things went off the rails it was bedding
time NOT bedtime
his girlfriend was a profound
bonbon meaning everything inside her head was equal to her
superlative body and face
people fixated on her beauty and said thats why he was seeing her they were perplexed angry when he put them in
their placewhen he told them they were superficial Sigh
beauty is only skin deep if she didnt
have going on inside her head what she did likely he wouldnt have seen her a
third time
he met wholly attractive women
who were dumb as sticks
he didnt fetch
his girlfriend was extraordinary
she was considerably younger than
he
he would have been happy just being
her friend
she asked him out
he said yes but not too fast
9:54
bedding time a staple of their healthy relationship
he liked lying beside her in bed as
she talked with her mom as she said goodnight
he loved her caring her astute thoughtfulness
hed nuzzled her while she
spoke a little game they played shed give him the eyesthe unsaid STOP IT but
her grinning belied it
she was so beautiful he tried to
imagine her as a young girl then he didnt he didnt think there were laws for thought
pedophilia but he wasnt sure
she hit stride when she was very
young as he did his mother said he was
though likely he was compelled by
his younger siblings who always seemed to need one thing or another or maybe they played the game deeper than he
had patience to
Good night, Mom. I love you. We’ll
talk tomorrow night. I love you very much. she hung up the telephone and set it on the
stool above her head they slept on blankets
on the floor he had back problems and hadnt
met an extra firm mattress that didnt fuck with him
Besides he said explaining it to her yadont have to wrong about gettin bucked
off the bed
he was such a sweet talker
however in the gathered darkness missing her nothing compared to her
smilesthe lilt and assurance in her voice as she talked with her
mother
it was as warm and coloured and beautifulsensual as an applewood fire in a rustic fireplace
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