4.10.19


They never go clockwise.
                           that was his daughters observation of her daughters
something he saw but hadnt said anything to her yet
                                                        Yes Round and round counterclockwise

Always counterclockwise, no matter what they’re doing; skating, scooters, chasing each other.

Probably a good thing otherwise the collision might be horrible Broke my nose the first time running clockwise to my buddy Ricks counterclockwise sprint  I fared better than Rick I knocked him unconscious concussed him  We didnt hang out afterwards

Well, there’s that.

the girls squealed going round and round on their scooters

Ten more laps, girls, then inside for a shower.

Aawh! A shower?! they chorused

A shower.

They dont like showers

They’re like a couple of boys, tomboys; you’d think they thought they were going to melt, you know, like the Witch of the West.

she winked Who likes stinky girls, right, Dad?

he laughedshe joined in the hilarity with himher dimples dimpling beautifully  he was jealous of her dimples  she had her mothers dimples  he was jealous of his wifes dimples but ohsovery grateful both his daughters had them  their smiles and laughter always returned his wifes face to him   

their hilarityconcurrence was due to many years ago when he was potty-training her and stressed how necessary it was that she cleaned herself very well after using the toilet

she told her grandmother after using the bathroom that she made sure she cleaned herself because her daddy didnt want her to smell like a dead fish

that ticked his mother What a thing to tell a little girl; that’s horrible.

No  Whats horrible is a girl a woman smelling like a dead fish Dont tell me I know firsthand Scrub her downrub her downturn her inside out  Elton John Evidently he ran into a few himselfWhew Puts ammonia to shameon noticetheres a new sheriff in town WHEW  Nasty

You’re ridiculous. You’re ridiculous and aw . .
. . That stinks awful  You dont get to tell me what I know almost broke my neck



their laughing deepened they were on the same channel I don’t know if I told you, but I’ve told the girls that story, and their fastidious about their bathroom habit. I think it’s due to what you told me when I was a little girl.

Ah this is the first youve said which frankly makes me proud Seems Ive crossed the generation gap in fine style

he laughed again  she laughed with him not covering her mouth



if she wasnt his daughter and married he would have pursued her


1712,  Monday,  16  9. 19
1644,  Friday,  4  10. 19
Elton John  Dirty Little Girl  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lj6lFN9YHW4




fueled on black coffee  whiskee   imaginee Why not nobody was lookin over his shouldernobody could tell him what to dothey tried they had not been successful  they did not make good arguments to support their demands 

an unsupported demand is shit 

smelled of when his parents used Because.

Why 

Because.

Because isnt an answer Youll have to do better than thatdig a little deeper  because Because dont cut it


he was their eldest

the eldest of eight

he held their feet to the fire by the time he was nine

he blew up their parental honeymoon

they had to contend with their middle management now
                                                            and middle management was no pushover

maybe if their Number-Two son was head of middle management

but he wasnt

he was a disinterested second in the food chain 

he was disinterested because their Number-One son crushed him
                                                                     even when he was fresh out of Marine boot camp a trained killer his brother crushed himturned him upside down in the front yard before the neighbourhood and pounded his skull in the grass until he was unconscious it was the third time his brother knocked him out  his brother dearly appreciated his determinationhis balls if it were war his brother would have killed him  solution   solved

instead Number-Two was always to be in his brothers shadow 
                                                                  that long early morning shadow  every day


Ahwell he thought his brother Number-Two could try again any time he wanted
                                                                                    any time he wanted

though if his brother was smart he would have shot him in the head from behind


when he sued his employerwon his lifetime workmans comp he thought his exemployer or workmans comp would have shot him in the back of the head cowardly but effective  but they didnt
                                                                              they werent smart


he was smart

if he was his exemployer workmans comp he wouldnt have quibbledwouldnt have been squeamish  he would have shot him in the face 
                lotsa luck ducking or diverting a bullet in midair

where did that come from 

he had no idea

it was the way he thoughthe worked


the authorities still hadnt found the head and hands of the psychiatrist who prescribedkilled his wife

the psychiatrist had an ugly record

reprimands hadnt changed him



the psychiatrist was a cold case  unlikely to be reopened
                                                              they knew when to say Buhbye


1322,  Thursday,  3  10. 19