according to the gospel  Under the Storm    Christoffer Carlsson

                                                                        Old people say pightle instead of yard. Isak has recently noticed this. How old people sometimes talk a little different, using words he’s not used to. He likes the way they sound. Elvard often says words are one of the links we have to those who are no longer with us.

                 Ahfuckinmen

I hear ya brother

                   Take a pightle to a yard any day

Has panache  Verve

Would bleed hot red blood if cut

                                    Careful  hazarded mariachi

Arya getting ahead of me

Methinks  Perhaps

Then finish my thought

 

This feels like a challenge

Not at all

              Id love to embrace you  ifya call the same side of the coin as me      Fiftyfifty

Isnt it

    Is

Jah

      Is

Clear your throat an call

                          Im thinkin a thought   Red hot blood if     cut

Cut

Cut

    It   Then be rude since Id be

Finish my thought

Cunt

Aye

   Cunt

Very virile

           An stranglin it for all its worthits most derogatory

 

Kunt

With verve

Kunt

Well done

             Deserved like a feral at my doorstep dropping a gopher expecting a ceramic bowl of warm milk

Which Id happily provide as per their providence

Defending my orchard of young apricots

 

I  We    Understand

   On the same page despite me talkin a little different

Youre not old

                 Or dead

  Flatterer

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lunch

cash pretty scarce

a thermos of black coffee preferred with milk  

in his jacket pocket a buttermilk unglazed Old Fashioned donut    hard as a rock

it was Thursday

almost Friday

pay day

after work

bank

cash

food

eat

 

That’s what you’re eating for lunch?

Don fuck with me

What? Yagonna take mine?

No  Had no affection for those pricks who tried

Tried?

         They didn’t take a kid’s lunch, a kid’s lunch money?

They coud try 

I didnt look kindly on it

                         So no

I wouldnt take yours

 

 

 

foreman stood up

                    Lets get back to work, men.

Work

Men

if they werent he couldnt be a foreMan

                                         hed love to see that guy worksits on his ass all day usually unseen in the trailer blueprints spread across a makeshift table legs on plywood pencil tucked over one ear a cigarette over the other another smouldering in an ashtray  work  smoke   hows that work

man wasnt a multitasker

he went over the cliff on a rope tethered to his axle to clawout groove its face run a eightinch drainpipe U-ed rebar securing it pounded into holes he drilled into the rock

                                                               if he looked  and he did

had the best view on the job

ocean under him 

saw blowspouts

caught whale breaches

 

too bad 

nearly finished 

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When I was a kid, kindergarten first grade, I knew I liked girls the first time I saw a girl do a flip on the bars in a skirt.

White cotton pantiesill do it

Stealin’ my fire, man.

Sisters didnt wear white cotton panties

I don’t know what they wore.

                                 I wasn’t a creep.

Never helped your Maw do the laundryhuh

    Laundry?  with a sneerNo.

I did

      Brought laundry baskets from upstairs down into the basement

Maw had a fourlegged Maytag machine on casters a wringer We shredI shredded Ivory soap bars for detergent When the clothes were washed pushed it over to the deep sink wrung them out then I humpedem up the walkout to the backyard an I held the basket while my Maw hung clothes on a cottonline with wood clothespins

                My sisters wore white cotton panties

Well. I didn’t know until that little girl went round and round.

I was fascinated. I knew I liked girls.

I loved one girl 

She was tentwelve years older than me

Id walk down the block to her house an knock at the back door an she come out onto the porch

Id give her an apple a piece of fruit candy a piece of vanilla pound cake a caramel  something

We talked a few minutes

I asked her if she would wait for me

    Wait for you?

Jah  Wait for me to growup so I could marry her

How old were you?

Six  Seven

Why would you think she’d wait for you?

Before she went into the house she always gave me a kiss on the cheek

Can you imagine

Love

From a kiss on the cheek   

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Itsbout time ya got off your ass

I was distracted  plain an simple

Annow  youre undistracted

    Now  I remembered it an want to get to it

Youre obstructing me

You were the obstruction yesterday morning

I was

Thas a big admission

It isnt

        Ya must have something else better to do

    Mind if I read over your shoulder

I don

       But sometimes things are slow in comin Im fleshing it out as I go

Fleshing

            Thad be something         

nodded he appreciated their quandary  had no appreciationdidnt knowcoudnt imagine how they came to be let alone find him

        Tha woud be something

Thank you

Youre welcome

                   I meant it  A sincere acknowledgement

We understood

                 Yaknow   Think Ill leave you to it

We can read it later when its complete

Ya realise youre incentivising me

Hope were doing something for you

Never doubt tha

Later

Jah   Later

    he couldnt feel them come didnt feel them when they left

Awright he thought  Lets get on with this

 

liknowleum had its way with him yesterday morning

if he wasnt alertdidnt have an inquisitive nature an ur-curiosity he would miss its sleight of hand  vague subtle    how to describe it       heatwaves  how heatwaves sift off concrete an blacktop   radiation

yesterday in the intersect of two fake tiles a pinhead wearing dark goggles weld shades emerged and as quickly fadedmorphedbecame a grinning baboon fadedbled away   ecru fractals once more

pinhead

baboon

 

 Wha he said aloud   What      

he could imagine liknowleum humoured  holding its tongue

                                                                   amused

                                                                    by him

                                                                 he  bemused

again  talking to the bathroom floor

                                       Youre not going to spill it

Arya

       I can wait

 

 

 

 

 Until Hell freezes over

                         Were back

   It aint gonna say 

 

No

     It never does

 

Might suppose it leaves tha to you

Jah

      Might suppose

Though nothing     nothing

                                   Right now

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not many things wired him

                            her birthday did

he thought she told him 1706hours

                                       No  he was wrong

1705

         San Jose California

she corrected himhe was grateful  he wanted to know exactly when she landed on the planet Earth

    perhaps wild to others

not to them

was 30 years

                     years after his wife died

his daughters talked behind his back is that what children do  daughters do  behind their fathers back

                                                                                                                        talked about women who might eventually come into his lifedidnt come into his lifethought of  six years later

they couldnt see him date someone his age

someone younger

                      as long as she wasnt younger than them  joked

    she was

younger than them

choosing their happiness over his

                                        they disapproved

he rarely disapproved of what they thought

                                                 Fuck them

Who taught you love 

Your mother an I did 

Who are you challenging me

    Fuck you 

some would think he was offensive

 

fuck them too

 

it was her birthday today

                              he was crazy about her coming to life

as he had been when his wife came to life

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Harry Nilsson  Without You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8dnUv3DUP4E