he struggled understatement to keep a lovely young lady from his lexicon

now he talks about their confirmation thinks hes clever

Confirmation  arrangement of atoms

                                   Im listenin 

Wha arya talkin about

I’m talking about an advertisement, a looping advertisement, that’s been coming up on my phone recently.

Looping

Yeah.

How long does it loop

Until I leave the site I’m on.

How longs tha beenhow many times

I couldn’t say how many times.

Hafdozen dozen two dozen

                               You tend to become fixatedparticularly  if the ad uses an attractive woman dig her confirmation

    A while.   I didn’t count.

Wha captured your imagination

Jiggly tits. Jiggled five seconds, began again.

She have a head

A head?

               What are you talking about?

A face

        Was the image truncated emphasised   her jiggling breasts

Wha was the advertisement about

About?

Ja

       Wha was it about

 

I do not know.

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her mother  he couldnt stand her

                                     she was vampire had to wrest soul from those around her to have soul

she believed God provided for her

                                  NO

her daughter provided for her her daughters been providing for her since she left high school freshman year to care for her  her little brother

                                   bitch doesnt cover what the woman is

I’m sorry, I’m going to be late to dinner.

Ill push the reservation backwha  an hour

You don’t have to.

We planned to meethavent seen each other in a long time  Whas another hour

Really?

the pleading in her voice bugged him

                                 May I ask why

    You won’t like the answer.

Im a big boy

You’ll be a big irritated to the gills boy.

Your Maw

Yes.

 

She’d like to go to church.

She knew of our date

                             You mentioned it    Didnt you it was an accusation  he told her not to

I did.

    Ive never known a more selfish person

 

You’re being . . . . generous.

I am

 

Lemme ask you something

What’s that?

If she went to church an in the reredos where the crucifix hangs there hung an empty cross a cross with nails in it where Jesus hands an feet were nailed

                                                       What woud she make of tha 

What would she make of it?what would I make of it?

    Fair

Aside from the church being vandalisedit wasnt if you were to give it a thought wha woud you make of it

    Your mother close to God an all ought to know exactly wha it was

Shed be terrified.

Enough to kill her

 

    sounding hurt  You don’t mean that.

Mean

        A single moment of mean doesnt hold a candle to her meanness her Godanointed selfishness

 

This got ugly.

Its honest

                              Cant imagine youve had a moment to consider the empty cross

No.

Ive no contempt for you  You know tha you understand tha

   I do.

         I do, though it hurts me . . .                                                                                      

You are hurting you

 

You deserve betterhave deserved better for a long time 

She robbed you of your childhood shes robbing you now

                                                               I don get it

Its not for me to get

It hurts my heart

 

 

 The empty cross

 

The Spirit crucified  

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his compadre hed like it if he knew he was referring to him as such guy dabbles poorly with Spanishfreaks when he calls it what his father calls it  Mexican  though the old man has only encountered Mexicans no one from Spain South America guys lead a long cloistered life in white men enclaves doesnt even like Mexican food foolhardy   unfortunate

his compadre doesnt like to do anything for a long time

You know why

You gonna tell me why I don’t like to do something?

I am

All ears, can’t wait.

    You lack discipline Stoics called it temperance

                                                         Temperance suits you compadre cringed

Im discipled

               Rather selfdiscipled

Not very complimentary.

Wasnt my intention

And why do you say that? What’s your evidence?

    Please

 

What evidence?

Really want to go there

Damn straight.

Books

    What about books?

Twohunredfifty pages about your limit

What of it?

Last three books Ive read have been fivehunred to sevenhunred pages

                                                                               You callem tomes

They ar . .

. . To you

               Me  A book

Yeahwell, you’re nuts.

I have discipline

                   Besides

   It aint a book ifya cant kill a kid with it

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OhJoy  aenigma

                     too  too much fun

Latin for enigma

aenigmas tonnes more fun

                              Sebald  “It is well known is it  shed challenge wellknown at the drop of a hat  that a pronounced pedagogic talent often goes hand in hand with repressed paedophilic desires.”

   how the hell are they twinned

TEACHING

             a talented teacher suppresses paedophilic desires

maybe in Austria

maybe Germany

couldnt say she felt put upon by any teacher through grade school junior high

                                                                                   by high school

shed be beyond paedophilic lust

however majority paedophiles are male and majority grade school teachers are female

she didnt have her first male teacher until she was a sophomore

                                                                      a biology teacher

he retired after she finished her senior year

Oh  Sebald Sebald Sebald

                              she would love to understand why he wrote what he did

but dead men tell no tales

she wouldnt judge him

shed like to understand why

 

   albeit  an aenigma

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W G Sebald  https://www.theguardian.com/books/2025/feb/07/silent-catastrophes-by-wg-sebald-review-academic-writing-at-its-most-sterile