Well kiddo youre a better man than me

                                             she admitted going to a forgiveness class held at yoga festival she attended as a volunteer  they called her an angel

obviously

            didnt know her like he did

I think you’re selling yourself short.

Think again

              Anyone who has legitly wronged me have I forgivenbetter yet  Have I not extracted my pound of flesh

    Revenge?

Retribution  They may think revenge

                                         My acts have been proportional not freaky  not irresponsible

I thinkI believe  believe  some were artful

Sadistic?

Ifso my mother was a good teacherNo

                                         I held them accountable

They probably thought theyd get away scot-free  free of obligation harm penalty

Not in my world

They encroached on meshoud have thought things through better

Ah.  But you’re granular, anally granular than most.

Thank you

You’re welcome.

                  Why do you think that is?because . you’re often brash.

Thank you

             Brash isnt rash

Ive understood consequences since I was a kid

                                                  I may be the only one of my siblingsNo No We were two  We learned our actions had consequences an takin action definitely understood if caught  wed be accountable

Its a beautiful thing

To beat a rap?

Yes

    Occasionally

Enough so tha it kept us coming back

                                         Irrepressible

A brother?

Sister

        The only one who paid attention to me

To what you said?

No

    By act

Saying means shit

Thasaid by your action attending the forgiveness class may have been a profound experience 

I had . . epiphanies.

I hope better than not

Better. Yes.  Harder. 

                        But better.

Im happy for you

Thank you.

Youre welcome

2002,  Tuesday,  6  5. 25

1238,  Wednesday,  7  5. 25

emptied his bladder

returning to bed he couldnt find the proper spot or position to fall back to sleep

                                                                                   he fell a long time

before bottoming out

                      aware becauserandomly  he hadnt put his cellphone turned off in his desk drawer in the studio

as he readied to turn in his daughter called

he took her to bed

when they hungup he hunkered downBAM  out like a light

    downside  of not falling asleep is his brain spasms twistssquirms like a late term chick inside an egg an once it began percolating he was intrigued

                                                  phone in hand

he began texting restless brain opines to himself

this morning he took a gander

texted six times  last at 0436

one in particular tickled him

                                :  :  Id sleep with a gun under my pillow, but since Im a restless sleeper I might shoot myself in the head

                                    theyd find him  Anyone find a note?

Look in my phone assholes

evenif he committed suicide he wouldnt leave a note

                                                        keepem guessin  though frankly theyd be very few an ofem most would let go of that kite stringlet it flutter upanaway in short order

                                                                                    wouldnt think mediating suicide was in anyones wheelhouse

one tried to breach his well hed send it packinwasnt curious why someone suicided its their life the one true thing human beings have own  to refuse coercion an all that others might try to heap onem

wasnt curious

hopeful they didnt leave a mess

a sincere suicide decider deserves a pill

                                           a spy cyanide capsule

since theyre unable to cleanup after themselves

  hes known a few

hurt his heart deeply

but they did what they needed to do for themselves

0253,  Wednesday,  7  5. 25

1028,  Wednesday

believe this episode was prompted by reading a line by Ocean Vuong:

                                                                                                                   The dream of a relationship unencumbered by reality is a dream of a poem unencumbered by prose.

https://nursingclio.org/2025/04/30/last-resorts/

United States Education Secretary Linda McMahon  a felon sycophant sickophants opening salvo in a letter to Havard explains that the federal government “has a sacred responsibility to be a wise and important steward of American taxpayer dollars.” 

scratched his head would counter  Methinks not:

                                                     https://abcnews.go.com/Politics/7000-troops-tanks-parachute-jumps-military-parade-coinciding/story?id=121410722

0857,  Wednesday,  7  5. 25

McMahon brays  https://www.msnbc.com/opinion/msnbc-opinion/harvard-trump-grants-doe-mcmahon-letter-rcna205180?cid=eml_mda_20250507&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951