anile 

               he couldnt remember now how he  stumbled   upon the wordstubbed his toehad to look it up   adjective of or resembling a doddering old woman

he had to admit that anile sounded better than dotard  albeit it a noun  from dotage  meaning a state or period of senile anile decay  marked by a decline of mental acuity and alertness 

                                                                            Jesus   sounding trembling terriblyclose to  retard

not nice language  disparaging old people hed met some sharp cookies in his life and sending them spinning off after their dictionaries and Goddammit! What the hell!  if they can remember where they put it 

                                                                                          leaving them to defend themselves against a juvenile  Oh yeah?   Yeah   OH yeah?   Yeah  Oh Yeah.  YEAH     What are we talking about? 

Fuggitaboutit

 

weird the shit that entertained himthat cropped up in his beaker before bed it was that free-range organic aspect of him that kickedup its heels when he was tired

anile struck him out of the blue he usually liked out of the blue and fat in his lap he played with it like Silly Putty   There   he played with it up against annihilation   No not quite    howbout  anile elation 

                                                                                     annihilations of a sort

anile

senile

juvenile

agile

-ile  suffix

              suffix  prefix  are affixes   word parts attached to ends and beginnings of words  word bases – a word stripped to its simplest form 

                              getting afield here tired third kind of affix is infix whod thought inserting into a word or word base  s  cupsful   swear words  bet-yer-fuckin-ass

                                                                    wandering to bed

mebbe hed dream

                    he promised hed try dream of a moose of bones eating dirt and rocks that fell out through the spaces in his skull or a swimming manatee of bones   hed try all he had to do was visualise when he laid down in bed

 

Sonofabitch he woke  he didnt dream period pieceshe dreamt a period piece late nineteenth century a park and gardens fountains stone animals close a man with a top hat and stout wood cane accusing him of trying to seduce his wife

unwisely he said I dont try   And I did not

I think he murdered me

Or I may have killed him

I heard someone scream Murder! 

                                   an either I was walking away or something-less-than-me was walking away 

he supposed anile elation annihilation followed him in   

1927,  Thursday,  21  1. 21

1326, Twosday,  2  2. 21

Jesus Wha a mout 

                     itd been awhile since hed been was scoldeddressed downridden roughshod over  by a squirrel  and this was one salty squirrel

salty

his mother used to accuse him of using salty language when did she hangout with sailors You were educated better than that, you know better.  Yah yup  but like art once you learn the basics you experiment Hence Picassos Blue Period his Cubism Modernism  Abstracts 

                                 If you prefer we could call my language abstract

she harrumphed him 

                      salty and harrumphed in one conversation  made him wonder what he could chuck on top that to make a triple scoop  give him some time   his mother inspired him 

                                                                          sex  itd be sex   sex really pulled her chain

widhis father it was evident from the getgo race 

                                                   there was an article from the Smithsonian that threw coldwater on any argument once and for all  humankinds birthplace was Africa

he Xeroxed a couple dozen copies of it

on its naked reverse side he wrote letters to his father it was something he did when writing his parents so his arguments usually against their positions had proof or evidence confirmed on his letters reverse side

he thought he was clever

                           If yawanna rebut me make damn sure youve read the other side of my letter Im not talking off the top of my head

they typically thought he was because they did 

                                                   I donwanna read your opinions  Opinions aint fact

they and he had grown up under the tenacious Chicago Public School system 

hell he suffered corporal punishment until it was finally overruled when he was in fourth grade

if someone thought Chicago neighbourhoods were tough they wouldntve wanted to tangle with teachers in their classrooms 

             wasnt one spoiled child  wasnt one spared rod 

Joe. You really have to stop sending letters to your father with the mother-of-all-mankind-is-black article on its reverse side. He’s not humoured.

Im humoured 

               Im humoured inside out that he hasnt a leg to stand on for his prejudice

His father did him no favors regarding Negroes.

Hes not his father Hes not accountable to the sins of his father 

                                                                   Deuteronomy Twentyfour Sixteen  Fathers shall not be put to death because of their children, nor shall children be put to death because of their fathers. Each one shall be put to death for his own sins.  Old Testament was mighty abrupt  Devarim  The fifth book of the Jewish Torah  Judaism preceded the Christian faith

Thought I didnt pay attention during my Communion classes  

Yahave no idea how many times I had to kneel on broomsticks for my perceived slights and indiscretions

The words are fuckin grievous but they certainly strike homemake my point He doesnt have to pick on niggersas he says because his upbringing afforded him better Hes never stopped a moment to walk in their shoes

 

the squirrel scolded him from a desperately leaning digger pine

digger pines leaned a longlong time before they finally fell over on their faces like drunken sailors

he didnt know how he crossed this little prick 

                                                but in the back of his mind  stopped  taking its umbrage  he thought itd be perfect if the pine fell over and the squirrel had to ride it down like Slim Pickens did as Major T. J. “King” Kong atop a nuclear bomb in Dr Strangelove           

one can only wish

 

he realised that the squirrels spite would outlast his patience without him knowing the reason why

                                                                                                         so he moseyed off letting the lil bugger celebrate its perceived victory and undiluted spleen

1432,  Sunday,  31  1. 21

1403,  Monday, 1  2. 21

Lovin’ Spoonful  Did You Ever Have To Make Up Your Mind?  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=txTEhgReZUA 

https://www.smithsonianmag.com/science-nature/how-africa-became-the-cradle-of-humankind-108875040/ 

Major T. J. “King” Kong  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sBvA1oKVruE