he catches his breath
then he sees a picture of her and loses it
there are pictures of her throughout his house
he would she
was his daughter
he
had family pictures up thats why they
took themhis wife took them to remember to
remind them
he never imagined hed be recalling all those times
by himself
they were dead
Gawds a twisted fuck kneel
at His altar
as likely hed have Him kneel at his cock
because thats all he had to offer him
sacrilegious
Nah you have to believe to be sacrilegious
on the fridge under a magnet
she smiled out from under
a khaki winter ski cap they bought her when they lived in Minnesota
life-threatening winters
if
they treated them as anything less it was like opening a door anif breached could kill them
people froze to death in their rural driveways spunout in the
snow and either tried to walk in whiteouts to their houses or thought to sit
tightwait it out but didnt make sure their tailpipes werent buried and carbon
monoxide backed up into their cars
sleep ah . sleep the
Big Sleep
in the picture she wore her khaki
cap her sister wore a turquoisepurple
banded cap between them they held his
granddaughter
it is a beautiful wintry picture of the
three in Illinois
his mother
probably took it
his father had as much interest or
aptitude taking photographs as he did
they
lived in the moment in front of cameras
they werent interested in
recording it
he could say so
for himself which went the same as
having his picture taken
what pictures there were of him
throughout the years were few and candid
he didnt pose true Snap shots
the only pictures he might recall
he posed was when he and his kid sister took pictures of each other
taking pictures of each other behind the cameras dueling snapshots
people looking through
photos
What’s this?
they laugheddidnt say it was an inside joke
those pictures he kept readily on
hand
they were the antidote to the heartbreak
hed suffer otherwise
2321, Saturday,
19 9. 20
