he wasnt grizzledhe didnt thinkhe was  yet maybe   inside

                                                                 wasnt brittle hardened    chiseled perhaps more apt

when he thought of grizzled he thought of bacon

thicksliced

welldone

crispy

        he preferred his plump  chewy

if it wasntcame to his table  hed sling it back

cook could crumble it over some poor yahoos Cobb salad

he liked to think he was elasticpliable  agile stretchy   with an edge

                                                                          whoknew

maybe he wouldnt cross grizzleds threshold

                                              Time would tell  such a cunt   couldnt keep a secret for its life

fingers crossed

when imagining grizzled he thought of someones brain

grizzled brain

                not cervelle de veau tasty   wetscrambled with eggs coarseground blackpepper

grizzled brain

               charred smoky    unappetising

maybe

         but maybe waste not want not

slathered with catsup

raw grated horseradish

   still edible     the Why of catsup

1741,  Thursday,  28  9. 23

1248,  2sday,  3  10. 23

leftie

   cracked him up

he finishedup his toiletry before bed spit toothpastefoam rinse his mouth swallow a couple handfuls of cool water wiped his mouthhands with a handtowel steppinback from the basin lookindown left leftie would be lookinround the corner from the hall

                     Bedtime baby

didnt need to ask twice as he began down the hall she bolted past himbeat him to the sack

none of the other three cats followed suit

                                           though shy or bomber might later 

hed wake twothree sleeping with him

Awright leftieshe was up at the pillows lemme pull things down get in

                                                                           reluctantly shed back off

made him think hed like to meet a woman as enthusiastic  fat chance

broke her mold

                was the onethe only  pussy

once in bed shed come up onto his chest to be pet scratched her tailtugged shed turn on his hand spikedhim with her claws sometimes break skinsometimes not bitenot too hard meet a woman as enthusiastic

                                                                                             shed roilturn clockwise two

three times reverse herself eventually park her ass between his legstight to his crotch

beddybye time

   leftie

            his night cat nightcap

0130,  Monday,  2  10. 23

1147,  2sday,  3  10. 23

Tom Jones  What’s New Pussycat?  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qQvIAs-nPSo

Yeah Yeah Yeahs  Phenomena  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D4dfIfoBk3k

when push comes to shovehe was already over the top

his old man told him

                      There’s a moment  when a fight’s inevitable . .

. . In in . inevit . tabell Dad? I don understand.

Certain. Certain to happen?   Unavoidable?

Certain.

For certain.

Yah.  Gotcha thank you.

You’re welcome.

                 The moment that happensyou're sureya hit ‘em  get in the first punch.  There’s been lots of one punch fights.  Rockim.

his father may have had something to do with his volatility

their privilege exhausted himcompounded by his set-in-stone entitlement attitude  which he had going for himselfthe pair born white  when that occurred to himhe had it he took it ran with it   but their additional germ of privilege was vile   upended him

Difference between you and mewhich you think otherwise  is yare dependent

Im independent

You need attention

I do not

You need to be assuaged

I do not

You need people

I do not

You need peoplepeople to like you

I  do  not

            So to the said items  care to refute any say otherwise

he glared

Gonnasay

Thinkhard 

            Ya donwanna trip up the tenet you declare sacrosanct primacy

You tell the truth

I tell the truth

                 But I tell it bettertell it more convincingly honestly

Because  I have conviction Im authentic

I woudnt cross myself if you put a gun to my head

Ya worrybout gettin beat

Ive been beat  I didnt mind cuz I remember  A time will comeit always does always presents itself to get even 

An I have

The cards clean

They wanna go two out of three Im happy to oblige

They win       

Happy to go fourbest of five an on an on I do not go away

   hard white tightlipped

                                 nothing

  

2220,  Monday,  2  10. 23

1018,  2sday,  3  10. 23

Daniela Andrade  Crazy  (cover of Gnarls Barkley)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fzxag7U3Snk

Jacob Banks  Worthy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pvcbDaNsPKQ

Kaleo  Way Down We Go  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0-7IHOXkiV8

Michael Kiwanuka  Cold Little Heart  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nOubjLM9Cbc