3:17 on 3/18 of 2019

                       it was hard for him not to get caught up in numbersthey tickled him

his happy joke regarding them he admitted was when he discovered what 36 – 24 – 36 meant his fascination and attraction and abstraction multiplied significantlyexponentially an he learned what the figure meant before he learned in school that the number-line also had negative-numbers

1 plus -1 equaled zero

1 plus -3 equaled -2

1 plus -3 equaled -2 equaled debt  equaled an obligationan indebtedness

                                                                                possibly equaling I am in your debt

debt upset him

it as a leverage a cudgel

                           one could be owned if they incurred excessive debt

the number-line was terrifying

so as a boy he decided to try to remain to the right side of zero 

                                                                   an later reading Mario Puzos The Godfather he saw what an obligationwhat indebtedness might entail

an inability to refuseto say No

he said No often

most often he said No to himself quietly honestly quizzing himself if he needed it or wanted it

3:17,  Monday,  18  3. 19

1149,  Twoday,  19  3. 19

Dear cunt or cuntess --

after your batshit blitz of tweets this weekend

                                                 which made you sound like a trained mynah bird rather than a sentient human being  it occurred to me that you may never have enunciated mulled over or even considered one of the tenets of your office the Declaration of Independence:

                                                We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their creator with certain unalienable rights, that among these are life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. That to secure these rights, Governments are instituted among men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed. That whenever any form of government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the right of the people to alter or to abolish it, and to institute new Government, laying its foundation on such principles and organizing its powers in such form, as to them shall seem most likely to effect their safety and happiness.

I quote them hoping you might read(read?) or recite them before you choke to death

during the evening while watching Abraham Lincoln: Vampire Killer,  Monday,  18  9. 19

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eoE8pd_C45w