China Mieville  Three Moments of an Explosion

                                                       We were eleven and death couldn’t touch us.

eighteen he was immortal

  submitted to the Draft

served in-country one tour thirteen months Marines

upset his parents

they didnt want him to serve

                                You can utilise college deferment.

2-S  Im 1-A

               I think not

Never once caught an A in high school

                                          Besides

Competition will never get more realany keener 

they begged  seriouslybegged Pleease.

Christ It was good to be eighteen

                                         Out from under their thumb

       obviously

        survived

        immortal

   proofs in the pudding

       butterscotch 

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https://www.gilderlehrman.org/sites/default/files/inline-pdfs/Draft%20Board%20Classifications.pdf

Stones  Under My Thumb  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0asxTqf0NhE

muttered  These new beds . . .

                                     bought the one he was laying in in Twelve

before he had slept on blankets on a carpeted concrete slab floorhis experience only in California

the Midwest  Chicago  wood floors  basements floor joists overhead  two storey house  ceiling  floor joists

slab is a different animal

needed blankets for – fuck – was it really – fuck it was – eleven years

                                                                           bedded his first girlfriend after his wife died on two blankets on the carpeted concrete slab

she was a sport

she still is

               . . . these new beds

no boxsprings

theyre incorporated

tall

       when his cats jump off the bed they have to negotiate the leap like they had acrophobia

bomber particularly

a tabby

minimum twentyfive pounds

could shatter a foreleg if he doesnt stick the landing

 

    his girlfriend asked when she realised he hadnt a bed  Why?

                                                                         Kiddo  I cant knock you off the floor

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234preferred,  Monday,  27  7. 26

if he hadnt have read fac ut ardeat   some time Sunday  26July  he couldnt say where  had been roaming through random booksmany many books

he wouldnt have found this

                                https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b4lzA_aQx2g

which he had an appreciation for the melding blend fold merge combine of voice instruments and string instruments

fac ut ardeat translated  make my heart burn

                                                    relates to Marys anguishgrief at the foot of Jesus cross

His Crucifixion

 

Not heartburn

Don be an asshole

Were assholes You said crucifixion

                                          You say to pique us

Because I didnt say crucifiction didnt say crucinonfiction

                                                            No

Although heartburn your reference is an interesting word  Its etymology is the Middle English words hertbryne and herte-bren  literally heart burn combining the Old English heorte  heart and brennan  to burn

      Neal Brennan  Netflix  Three Mics  one for one-liners second for stand-up third for emotional confessions

microphone number three  To Burn

You think he knows tha

I don know wha he knows

Taking Wittgenstein  Whereof  Thereof

I is

Yawanna know wha I think

When I do Ill ask

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who knew

           “I come from reckless, unsentimental people.”  Flamethrower by Rachel Kushner

he did too

    as a boy if an uncle didnt trip him when he was running through the house an aunt pronounced ant not tha queer aunt he on occasion heard that made the hair on the back of his neck standonend

                                                                             an aunt did

rugburns on his hands an knees

                                  he was moving  high school  was a fine scatback

did he learn his lesson

                        No

and Jah

        he made it into a game a gauntlet  and more than a few times he made it from the back of the house to the front hurtling feet legs laughing gayly at Quit running in the house. We don’t run in the house.

    no they didnt

theyd spill their beers whiskeys highballs wine coffee even Careful, hot coffee. didnt dissuade him

it was a fine dysfunctional environment

                                           helped him determinehone what functional was when he ran into it

like a brick wall

                 There now  Thaswha its supposed to be

growing up that way certainly made things interesting made him curious made him turn whatever sphere he was in in his hands like a child that does not know what a ball is they turn it overanover roundanround seeing it from every possible arc

a ball hasnt angles

he wasnt embarrassed when someone asked him what his people were like where were they

“I come from reckless, unsentimental people.”

                                                      who he visits once a year

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entropy  everything breaks down  Order  Disorder  Chaos   https://smarthistory.org/robert-smithson-spiral-jetty/

Goo goo g'joob

who knew

                let me count the ways I love my dick aside from its usual expressions

voyage began with being stumped by the word proprioception its fishhooks all being Ps which made the word terribly attractive the lone hint -ception he thought perceptionthought  some kind of knowing

 

    he gave up

                but just before he did a shiver ran through him his cock

ohno please not priapism

                             mariachi immediately chided him Its notChrist  Two different words

he wiped a few beads of premature sweat off his brow

they were right

                   proprioception an priapism are different words

    it did not change for a moment his opening who knew

he went to the dictionary The New Oxford American Dictionary: Second Edition proprioception                                                                                                                    …the stimuli sensory system that are produced and perceived within an organism him that helped him know where all of the parts of his body are relative to each other, and the orientation of his body relative to gravity  esp. those connected with the position and movement of the body

as long as he had the dictionary out priapism confirm his thought

                                                                                   … persistent and painful erection of the penis  late Middle English: via late Latin from Greek priapismos, from priapizein ‘be lewd’ 

who knew

                let me count the ways I love my dick

    who knew there were flavours of priapism

Ischemic priapism also called low-flow priapism

Stuttering priapism also called recurrent or intermittent priapism

Nonischemic priapism also known as high-flow priapism makes sense  must have symmetry  balance

 

who knew woud be whoever knew prior or learned here

                                                                  learn something new every day

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proprioception  https://learn.genetics.utah.edu/content/senses/proprioception/

priapism  https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/priapism/symptoms-causes/syc-20352005

Beatles  I Am the Walrus  (has a social curious  vocal personality)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Og-yjQGzIS8

That’s not a word.

If one can write one an express squeezeout the rationalereason in it  it is

What’s your comparison?

Isnt it obvious

Perhaps to you.

You saw crossed your eyes now cant see straight  the forest for the trees

peeved  What’s obvious?

Wholeheartedly   I believe

                                  Precedes   Precedent    Wholebrainedly

    I thought for sure wed agree wholebrainedly

crossing his eyes for real  I see what you’re doing.

Realeyesing

You’ve used that before, an earlier doing.

I have

         Tell me

    You’re riffing on the rhyme, we’d agree wholebrainedly.  Agree.  Brainedlee, two Es.

I am

You can’t help yourself.

I cant

          Word

    If I concede you’ll shaddup?

Howbout you concurId rather you concur with me than concede

 

I concur.

See

         Tha didnt hurtdid it

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science  hard thinking  https://paulkrugman.substack.com/p/the-fire-this-time

Christopher Cross  Ride Like the Wind  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wd9rToNGTxk