he looked around the lightthe colour was different sky trees flowers   paler 

                                                                                 something was off

Fercryinoutloud he wished he was intuitive  he could realeyes   struggled to intuit

somethings amiss

he felt wellthe difference felt external to him  externalised    external lies

                                                                              external lies the issue

Wha

     wha

one of hes cautioned patience

                               Let it in  Like drowning  Ifya don fight it its over quicker

Drowning macabre lil shit

                          Yare right thank you  that helpsreally helps

Yare welcome

like drowning he clogged his ears noseshut his eyes minimised his sensory perceptions  satstill in the pale yellow sunlight

he and his force hunkered down patiently

                                            it must have been like this during air raids hiding in tunnels cavesbehind false wallssuddenly bombs the enemy had supernatural abilities

                                                                           he wondered if he was even breathing 

his body began to cool  the sun fell lower in the sky

                                                      inside him shadows grew longer

There space   a slight space among hes  those to either side of it were suddenly aware of it too  they appeared to worry he was going to accuse themwarily looked back at him they knew better 

                                                                                   he smiled bemusedrelieved put them at ease  it wasnt their fault

 

she was missing 

               his hes were hims and hers  she was missing   she had made the difference he witnessed

he opened his eyesunplugged his ears his heart beat unplugged his nose

                                                                                       she made the difference

he was abandoned by an angel

 

 

he could only hope it was temporary

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1339,  Thursday,  7  10. 21

Unloved  Tell Mama  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ePrARKG5g_w 

the girls wanted ice cream

                            looking into their eyes he saw they were adamant

he didntwasnt interested  he began humming Whatever Lola Wants

they dressed him down in stereo eyes   suggested he might wanna cut that out

Wha he wasnt convincing 

                            he was playing  shesh No sense of humour

For that his wife said  you’re having ice cream with us.

Thats fine Im happy to have ice cream with you

No, I mean have, eat, ice cream.

Id prefer not

Com’on, Dad his girls said excitedlypicking up on their mothers derision have ice cream with us, that’d make it a real treat.

no sooner than they closed theirs mouth they worked him with their eyesthe three of them  his wife and eldest had huge brown eyes touted their hereditary brown eye treatmenthe watched guys jump hoops for his wife before they dated IDIOTS he told her when they began dating that that wouldnt work on him though only with extreme effort was he able to resist  not that he told her his youngest braided him with her greenishhazel eyes  as huge as her mother and sisters

felt like he had fallen headlong into the 60s film Village of the Damned

he went along with themthe path of least resistance 

he couldnt remember  yahhe could Sanibel Island Florida after hours of swimming in saltwater under the sun refreshing blizzards at the Dairy Queen without fail their girls were little

                                                                he conceded

it was a bright yellow ice cream parlor

there were booths

the girls had sundaes

how could they eat that much ice cream 

                                      he had a cone

they convinced him to have two scoops  creamy coconut ice cream

as they fell mindlessly into their feasts spooningingesting his cone unraveled the scoops falling into his hand

Manohman he saidbarely attracting their attention

                                                        I get a discount for eating out of hand 

they looked up

he took their barrage of laughter in good humour

                                                   Yes  Very funny  Someone wanna hand me a napkin please

the dispenser at the table was empty

his youngest boundup to the counter

she returned with a spoon

                           They’re out of napkins, something about an order unfilled, it's late . . I brought you a spoon . figured you could eat your ice cream cone out of your hand. she laughed  that tickled her

Out  of  my  hand

                     he tried to keep his anger in check  anger warms the body

You always say, Dad, waste not, want not.

Thank you doll for your thoughtfulness

You’re welcome, Daddy. that wasnt necessary  Daddy  unnecessary

                                                                             she fell back to her sundae  his problem wasnt hersher ice cream was getting warm

he ate down to the unfolded cone then with melted ice cream flowing down his forearmdripping off his elbow he stood and walked up to the counter  he apologised to the clerk asked for the manager for the mess on their floor from their failed producttheir lack of napkins

Originally he said to the manager I was going to ask for a discount

                                                                       but sticky as I am I prefer to be reimbursed for my doublescoop coconut cone  Im wearing half of it  Shared a portion of itoff my elbow with your floor

the manager correctly obliged him

the girls had exitedwaited outside for him

                                            they knew when he got something into his skull hed to be sure to get what he believed was reasonably his

they learned from his exampleparticularly his daughters

                                                           he always made them standup for themselves against adults when they were children

while they werent keen about it as girls they thanked him more times than he could say as young women

gratefully they didnt ask him eat ice cream with them again

0343,  Sunday,  3  10. 21

2313, Day-between-Two-Ts, 6  10. 21

Sarah Vaughan  Whatever Lola Wants  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Oa6oM5kzBg 

Village of the Damned  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-AUBlW5EWnI 

 

publicly politicians obfuscate make word salad he understood that

                                                                        however when in private conversation with party colleagues he expected their discussions to be frank their points succinct and distinctly able to clarify their positions

Don play politics with cohorts

“Respectfully, Senator Sanders and I share (pause here Senator Manchin yare not sharing but . . have) very different policy and political beliefs. As he and I have discussed, Senator Sanders believes America should be moving towards an entitlement society while I believe we should have a compassionate and rewarding society.”

Manchin has refused to define an entitlement society and now believes we should have a compassionate and rewarding society however also fails to define that

Sanders Senate Budget Committee chairman who is helping mold the presidents ambitious priorities into legislation wants specificity “. . tell us with specificity – not generalities, but beyond generalities, with specificity – what (Manchin) wants and what he does not want, and explain that to the people of West Virginia and America.”

West Virginia elected Manchin with just north of 209,000 votes

the country elected Biden with a record 81,284,000 votes seven million votes more than the disgraced former

1021,  Thursday,  7  10. 21

https://www.pewresearch.org/fact-tank/2021/01/28/turnout-soared-in-2020-as-nearly-two-thirds-of-eligible-u-s-voters-cast-ballots-for-president/  https://www.cbsnews.com/news/joe-biden-popular-vote-record-barack-obama-us-presidential-election-donald-trump/