he could hear her words in his ears despite the trumpeting just behind him a big boorish woman YOU’RE FUCKIN’ GORGEOUS

                      Candidates lie Papa, I wish they didn’t, maybe he wouldn’t have been where he was.

Ah babe People lie

You don’t.

I don hangout with people only person I can lie to now is myself

                                                                       You don either

No.

No Were not popular

she wasnt fuckin gorgeous

any more than the boor

                         she

reminded him

of his sisterinlaw looks like sinister inlaw  maybe not sinister  he wasnt keen

BOORish is a distinct quality

some hone and perfect it

this woman had

his sisterinlaw had

they were big women

one couldnt miss them

broadside of a barn came to mind

                                      YET 

they were loud  projected

when she YOU’RE FUCKIN’ GORGEOUS dogs in the venue cringed

                                                                             cowered

he felt bad for themFUCK he felt bad for himself  for others

                                                               when she bellowed his minds eye saw an Atomic bomb going off in the Nevada desert against a black sky

not its mushroomcloud its phallic property

its two yellow glowering eyes

   she was fishing

the compliment didnt come back to her  wasnt a boomerang

knew it wouldnt

                   hed also seen the woman she was remarking aboutNOPE in his estimate

hed dated a lot of beautiful women married one  had two beautiful daughters

YOU’RE BIRTHDAY’S NOVEMBER NINTH I KNEW IT  I’M SCORPIO TOO  Were gorgeous

NOPE

        Not so much

the House lights dimmed

the warm-up singer took the stage with an acoustic guitar

gratefully

           Scorpios dimmed too

2030,  Reggaefriday,  8  12. 23

1251,  Monday,  11  12. 23

Anna Tivel  Worthless  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BkDPbmOp8_k

he heard what he heard but he had to be sure he heard right

                                                            . . . Excuse me I don mean to interrupt

What did you say

What part? his daughter replied

The disorder he was being treated for the he had been murderedshot to death he had told her murder for hire was out for him

The disorder, yes, it’s called I E D.

Whas the acronym stands for Im only familiar with one I E D Improvised Explosive Devise Apparently another fuckin acronym SAYWHA Christ Say wha just say wha it is

You’re not upset with me? 

he could imagine her expression

No No no I’m not upset with you

                                   Acronyms are euphemisms  Or attemptsdabbling in semantics They antagonise the shit out of me are caustic

                           But thas me

I’m sorry Papa, I don’t know what it stands for. It’s what he told me he was being treated for earlier this week. He was terrified I could hear it in his voice . . so terribly frightened.

a sob caught in her throat

                             I wish he would have said when I vetted him.

But tha woudnt have been your call

No.

     I’m sorry to say . . . candidates lie I wish they didn’t maybe he wouldn’t have been where he was.

Ah babe  People lie

You don’t.

I don hangout with people only person I can lie to now is myself

                                                                    You don either

No.

No  Were not popular

 

he had hisHA interactions  thats what he called themhumoured him his employers called them fights

he didnt get bounced because he didnt throw the first punch

he was defending himself

usually the provokedtruth be known he didnt work with Einsteins were moved to a different job site one or two fired

talk at lunch was rarely informative

Mondays the worst weekends preceding it the gallivanting bragging booze conquests

liars

he listened

he was married with children

he didnt buddy with these guys

a lot of these guys were drugged

a lot took medications

                          a frightful amount of medications like techs threw shit at the wall and hoped the combinations worked

sometimes  briefly  they did

if not back to the drawingboard

several were still eating meds they began taking as teenagers

listening

          he was WHA THE FUCK  WTF

they were treated for ADD which was upgraded with an additional letter H ADHD Attention Deficit Disorder then Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder fuck yah inside  in school  maybe FYIIS pronounced fizz

                                                                                                       fizzes usually end with POPs

No specific medications for IED

but certain meds MAY help

antidepressants

selective serotine reuptake inhibitors of course there is  SSRIs mood stabilizers

including

          lithium valproic acid carbamazepine (he misspelled that but WORD corrected it – why would WORD know tha an not other words he had to Add to Dictionary)

Fluoxetine (Prozac)

Sertraline (Zoloft) & Citalopram (Celexa)

Paroxetine (Paxil)

Fluvoxamine (Luvox)

Rosperidone (Risperdal)

Quetiapine (Seroquel)

   and last but not least  Olanzapine (Zyprexa)

(he recognised the brand names – Pharmas moneymakers)

maybe just maybe

                     the country was drugaddled keeping the economy chugginalong

I see chewchews

he didnt want to work with them

they werent hard to provoke

                                          DUH

1629,  Sunday,  10  12. 23

1137,  Monday,  11  12. 23

Delectatio  Quietly  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0TT8dZGHwOk

https://www.dhs.gov/publication/ied-attack-fact-sheet

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC10262303/

https://www.nichd.nih.gov/health/topics/fragilex/conditioninfo/medicationtreatments