the back and forthback an fortback an forth nauseated him
                                                               he didnt wear glasses
the optometrist said his eyes were 20/20

Then why am I having trouble reading smaller print

You aren’t getting any younger, are you?

No

That’s what your trouble is, and from where I sit getting older isn’t bad when you hold it up, compare it to not getting older. Huh?

Readers. 2X magnification is fine. Nothing more.

Thanks doc

You’re welcome.

when he wants to read at night he slips the readers on but keeps his eyes shut until he has the book open before his face  

he doesnt look away from the print  anif he has to he closes his eyes and removes the readers before he opens them again

looking away bespectacled things blur  are unfocused reminding him of the mornings after Datura jimsonweed trips he ventured
         first time he had was with a friend Mary ofcourse it was hed do whatever itd take to get in her pants when they were introduced he chemicallyimmediately he wanted to fuck her a gawddamn switch thrown wanted to eat her alive  no garnish 

turned out that while they had more things in common than they thought she preferred being coybeing a cocktease and distanced herself from his sexual advances

they became great friends without favours

she did grace him though with a few handjobs

intent intensely he watched her handher eyes her handher eyes her handher eyes as she stroked his cock  teased  pinched  stroked  brought him to the edge then didnt let him go over it

she didnt meet his eyes

they were the longest most erotic handjobs he ever got

when she finally let him cum a great gout of cum shot into the airan inverted elongated exclamation point then a lesser gout and mark then lesser  and lesser    and finally a quivering ooze

he came on them both

he came in her hair

on her cheek

on his shoulder

his chest

she looked at him  then herself

happy mischievous eyes 
                          then rapidly shed yank his cockstroke itwhip his cum to a lather and he struggledwouldnt stop herstruggled didnt stop hertried not blowing his mind out the top of his skull beads of pearlcum clung to the back of her hand he bucked his hips his eyes went in an out of focus he laughed a queer laugh a mad laugh and in the harrumphthe frenzy in his eyes he imagined forcing her to give him headimagined yanking her pants downpanties torn offrubbing his face in her cunt he could smell her she was getting off tooimagined her straddling himfucking him
                                                                                                      suddenly she unhanded him smiled deviously I can’t. I can’t. asif she could read his mindsee them in his eyes I can’t.

I have to shower.

You have to shower.

they showered together

fuckinChrist a platonic shower

his erection went in with them

she laughed  Quit poking me, woudja? Quit.  Quit it!

Its got a mind of its own

she grasped him with a warm wet soapy hand  smiled

Okay, but a quick one.


                           he ejaculated a rocket of jism that lashed the glass shower door looked like queer alien writing

You know what that says he said staying her hands from cupping water dousing it away

she humoured him  No I don’t.

It says  Fuck him

Fuck him? Fuck you?  You think I want my vagina paintedstretchedblasted with that force? You might kill me.

It aint Russian roulette

So says the man with the loaded gun.

when he was around her his vision kept coming and going and coming and going

she may have contributed to corrupting his vision

yet if he closed his eyes
                         he could see her perfectly  wolfish canines  her lips curled    predatory

0949 & 2149,  Thursday,  26  12. 19
1516,  Thursday,  14  5. 20

$88,199 he understands money, not American deaths

in the bellow of the Beast https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z34YoC2woHw the clown in the center-ring thinks “If we didn’t do any testing, we would have fewer cases."

Lets quit testing in the White House thatd be a good place to startexamine his hypothesis

1805,  Friday,  15  5. 20

the telephone rang

it was Robert

Robert called him threefour times a day

like a jilted lover

desperately missing his fat cock

but it really wasnt Robert

it was a robocall

soliciting something or another

AwRobert Ya oughta quit callin I aint buyin inta pressin 1 to be placed on the Do Not Call list or any other key or any lure dey – whoever dey was – thought a soul might select to be alleviated of deir telephone calls

he hadnt a soul

deys was barkinup the wrong tree

the telephone rang

he kept his head downears open

AwRobert  Again

when he finally returned to the room or got up off his chair he erased the message

he had an agenda

                    the same agenda he utilised when unsolicited creditcard applications arrived in his mailbox

he recycled the extraneous paper product

the enclosed application and envelope he returned

NO POSTAGE

NECESSARY

IF MAILED

 IN THE

UNITED STATES

                                                                                                                                                                             unblemished

he figured dey wasted his time so hed sap dem whatever postage cost

he recommended it to his family and friends

he didnt give a fuck if they followed his lead or not

yacan lead asses to water but yacant make em drink

the telephone rang again

it was Robert

he didnt hear his recorded voice

he heard pennies falling on its businesss linoleum tile

1350,  Reggae Friday,  15  5. 20

B J Thomas  Raindrops Keep Falling on my Head  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sySlY1XKlhM

ensorcelled

             not a word one usually encounters or rather had he encounteredhe should speak only for himself 

floating on a sea of words without context it was foreboding 

he didnt want to use a dictionary  not just yet

in context  . . I can be drunk, drugged, ensorcelled Anais wrote

                                                                     he cracked its bonessplit themdug out its marrow

he guessed sorcerysomething to do with sorcery

he cracked his dictionary 

beneath Ensor – Belgian painter engraver  noted for macabre subjects

enchanted fascinated – he wasnt far off

ensoul followed it – endow with a soul  hmm  who does that   who gets a gig as an ensouler

                                                                                                    did it hurt

Anais wrote ensorcelled three times in three pages finishing with  . . I sense the termination of (ensorcell), as I sense, too, that Henry’s love of me would end when he is strong enough to do without me.

OUCH

        when someone is strong enough to do without the other

it is not a matter of strength shes referring

advantage 

            if benefitted

leeching

          if benefitted

one can exploit their benefactor

                                 they probably do and their benefactor probably turns a blind eye because they are getting something in return a zero-sum game exactly balanced by the losses or gains of the utility of the participants

some people play games 

he couldnt follow mercenary relationships he understood them

understood the highest bidder

                                and the he or she who produced the most one wanted

speaking for himself he wasnt a product

he wasnt greedyhe wasnt selfish

he wouldnt see that in his partners

he did not parlay  If    Then

Good fuckin riddance

it hurts to be played

he was played once

fuckin shame on him if he allowed himself to be played againtheres always more fish in the sea

he was amazed though by how many people were willing to playwilling to stay in the game

he wouldnt play because he was ruthless 

Adios

       somebody was going to get hurt  and it wasnt him

there were plenty of things to do to keep him satisfied  and busy

as a young boy he entertained himself

if left to his devises he was perfectly happy

when he told people if he believed in past lives he would have been a mountain man they should have paid heed they shouldnt have pushed

he was comfortable in his skin

he needed a companion like he needed a hole in his head

the first time he heard the song played on the radio he rode his bicycle to Skokie to buy the album it was on from a Jew who owned a record store who had a concentration camp number tattooed on the inside of his wrist   

Neil Young A Man Needs a Maid

he knew then he was all-in

0240,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  12. 19  OhYah   Christmas

1234,  Thursday,  14  5. 20

Neil Young  A Man Needs a Maid  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bORW_YEmHwY