30.6.21

 

he wanted to try something differentmebbe not so different

maybe something old something new something borrowed something blue
                                                                             not too shabby  he wasnt a bride not-to-be 
thats a treatment for traditional brides not-to-be

he wondered wha they were all over now 
                                           wha had come downNOW  to defy tradition 


he had no clue  

actually trying this something different was something he tried years ago had almost forgothad almost sift awaycrushed beneath the tonnage of his memory but haphazardly he remembered usually did he was coerced by the man who accidentally shot his bride in the headhis wife Burroughs  William S Burroughs
                                                                                                it wasnt traditional to play William Tell at parties Burroughs may have confessed that into a dark mirror in Mexico after he fled the country it might have been better had he plugged his son in the forehead but he didnt have one he wouldnt have one queers then didnt have sons or daughters William fucked other peoples boys
                                                       ahC’est la vie  or did he mean Voulez-vous coucher avec moi ce soir he confused the two often which was which always was sloppy crossing the two and at his pronouncement he got strange looks which was when he knew he was wrong again

Thats life Do you wanna sleep with me tonight  negligible difference from where he stood

so following Billys lead had he met him he would have called him Billy he played cut-ups

usually its played with a book or books randomly opened eye dropped on a page then writing down words or the phrase or the sentence beneath it  

he played tonight although dropped in on his WORDs Recent Documents 
                                                                             wrote down their titles
was a little spooky
they made sense 


this isnt stupid

petered out

ya went through with it didntya

wha would ya say

he couldnt imagine housefly was tasty

man thats quite an admission

running children lamenters

I disagree

SCABS

she looked at himgave him the stink eye

soulmates got a TicTac

Wow he shook his head

things come in threes

frugal

touchstone

Its been an odd couple of days

iCloud

IQ EQ

it was a cosmic setup

tell me whaya know about me 
                                Go ahead tell me whaya know about me
Tell me something I don know 


Yawanna know whayer problem is?

Sure Enlighten me 
                      turning on a hot spotlight things unseen scurry to the shadows 
Hey ya donwanna see em  Noyadon   Im tellin ya yadon 
                                                             Ya only think ya do
Once yasee 
            youll be unable to forget


Im not tellin ya something yadon know 

We have lingering memories 

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This isnt stupid

Ohno, it’s stupid, and trying to defend it is even more stupid.

You took my words out of context which reminds me aligns you with your Republican siblings  Goin to the dark side                        

that cut him to the quick 
                         he saw anger flash on his cheekshis eyes go paleblue to hot piercing electricblue 

good 
      got him in the chops at a primal level he knew that hurt that it angeredenraged him he worked him into a corner right where he wanted him
                             Yalistenin now  listenin  Listenin to the context of what I said annot cherry pickin
he continued to radiate
                         although he was smart to hold his tongue

radiant knew him not to have much of a fuse

nearly combustible at a touch 
                                Son his parents told him you have to learn to control yourself, if you don’t, you’re heading down a long, ugly road.

Wont be ugly if I come out on top 


ah nothings perfect 
                      he came out uglycould have been uglier suffered far fewer loses than he thought he might                           
scars are evidence of character 
                                 he had character in abundance 
Ya ready to hear me out

radiantboy continued glowing

he tossed a wet blanket on him to take him down a notch or two
                                                                   Im gonna repeat wha I told you why I didnt turn the fan on it had nothing to do with stupid or your want that I should suffer one of your senior moments be forgetful lose my place my train of thought an the only reason Im gonna exhaust my patience explaining again  is so I don punch ya in the mouth an ruin our friendship  It just a shot away Stones 

his expression didnt change 


Can you hear me
                   Can you hear me through the blood in your ears 

I . . I . can hear you.

Areya listenin to me to my words

I  can  hear  you.

Not good enough 
                  Lemme know when ya come down enough to listen Yaknow better than push an issue with me

radiants anger hung around 
                              he didnt like debating his family they were religious they were red Republicans they were mighty white and fortunately entitled they were older and sure they knew everything better than he 
                                                                                                          dropped him like a white sugarcube into their hot tea or whatever brew they imbibed  they truly offended him

he was familiar with like offensesthe tyranny of family 
                                                          but he meant to offend him
bring him back to earth

 

the colour seemed to be leaching

Can you hear me

he didnt say he nodded his head

Awright I apologise I offended you
                                     It was my shorthand to bring you around to hearing me out and remind youas you knew because I said prior why I didnt turn the fan on when I went to bed to help alleviate the heat
You remember

I was teasing you.

Stop You were no more teasing me than I teased you But ya didnt like it  No ya didnt

No. That was apparent.

Goes without saying 
                     I told you earlier that night I had been writingworking a piece hardbeen shuffling parts around editing finding the right words so it would strike home when it was read  an because it wasnt coming together I thought I might be tired  I turned off the computer and went to bed thinking maybe Id sleep on it Laying in bed it was hot I seemed slightly aware of it Ill give you that however I was more aware of the piece and unable to turn it off

Working it with my eyes closedseeing the script rereading it parsing it I saw something I hadnt before

So I got up out of bed an went back to the computer Id been down about an hour     

I went back to bed two hours later

I stitched it up achieved what alluded me An with that off my shouldersout of my head I realised the house was hot 

Returning to bed I turned on the fan over my bed  

It wasnt that I forgot it was there or I wasas you insisted stupid  rather I was preoccupied and focused an in that space its hard for anything external to penetrate me or I can relate to

Thats a fate Im doomed to have having been raised in a house of twelve Ya learn to turn things off in your head

Its a matter of selfsurvival

Not stupid


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What would you say; what would you recommend?

he didnt saydidnt recommend unless he was tryin to get into someones pantsBE IT KNOWN  thatthat someone would be a woman  he was heterosexual with extreme prejudice which didnt or shouldnt suggest he didnt appreciate or approve of sexualities that were equally as potent as his own 

I cant say
           I know wha works for me therefore I would say find wha works for you Theres truly no worksarounds Try try an try again  Sooner or later tried and true will become apparent 
                                                                        Try not to submit to frustration Take a breath  Take a break Then get after it again

Thereya have it for what its worth


he found that his imagination didnt stop at the waters edge it was amphibious it perched where there were no perches and that was too attractive to resistCOME ALONG THEN 
                                                           not that he needed to invite it the invitation was strictly for himselffor his piece of mind his sanityinsanity in these moments he perched where there was no perches either  they were tacky like him  3M adhesive products  which were failures that they found purposes forcreated niche markets developed applications adapted  Necessity is the Mother of Invention  they created artificial necessities

his necessity was hardwired 
                              be that as it may he refused to worry  Worry was antithetical 
    
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