thatll cool anyones coffee

                         thank gawd it wasnt over a lunch he usually didnt eat lunch

Anyare bringing this up now why

It’s been something that I’ve been thinking about for a bit and, well . . I wondered what you’d make of it.

Me  of all people

Yes you, of all people, not really something you can bring up with famil . .

. . Exactly who yashould bring it up with

                                           Im the guy you described as . . give me a moment . Ive still got it here on my clipboard . . YES here

                         Ya wrote  You are either a one-off or an anomaly in oscillation, in limbo, between fictions and reality.

I can’t believe you still have that on your clipboard, that was weeks ago.

Clipboard accompanies me whenever we have coffee Its profound ironclad written in your own hand  Yare rarely accurateoften jumble your wordsconfuse your thoughts 

                                                          Illuminating too Im aware I twist you but likely thats because you dont have my Midwest upbringing and tendencies or frankly family ties among a throng as enormous an extended as mine I grewup in a jungle you in a prim tea garden he rolled his eyes Donbe offended truth hurts not that it should your upbringing wasnt a matter of choice any more than mine

Were different animals

                                 So

So . . . Id like to hear what you think.

Exit strategy

Yes.

You still maintain yare in the fourth quarter

Yes, can’t talk me off that.

Despite my cheerful beginning of the second half hanginout in the tunnel watching the agile pretty cheerleaders kicking their legs in chorus

                     Some not wearing panties

Yes.

Yafuckin craz . .

. . I’ve had health challeng . .

. . That youve met and beaten  There maybe be some faded hints in chalk on the blackboard but that slates been erased  Time to write over it

                                 Time to quit feeling sorry for yourself

You think I’m feeling sorry for myself?

Yakiddin me

             Yare takin for granted advantages youve enjoyed since you were bornStop  Stop the pitying  Yave had boots to pull yourself up by your bootstraps

Exit strategy

I follow

When that time comesaround youll say your buhbyes an have a pretty lil pill to pop  an go to bed to sleep

You don’t think that a coward’s way out?

Worried about namecallingDont

                                            Ya wouldnt hear it anyway

               

1220,  Thursday,  30  9. 21

1004,  Saturday,  2  10. 21

Free  Wishing Well  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AdWz2fbiSno

he wished he had words to truly   truly  describe this kid itd been three weeks since he saw him

it wasnt so much what he looked like

eleventwelve

overweight  pudgy was more accurate

cropped red brushedcombed oiled hair keenlysurgically parted  

a tablet laid on the table before himleaving his hands free

at his left heel was a schoolbag not a backpack   Tartan red green black 

thankgawd no glasses

from where he sat he could see the boys feet didnt touch the groundhis legs dancing happily

he recognised that moment

the boy was satisfied content

                              nearly orgasmic although he had a lot of shit to change up before hed experience an orgasm with a girl

out of his schoolbag he saw the source of his delight

lengths of red strawberry licorice

he pulled them out one at a time

                                mete them out

he took a small bite and chewed it

not until he swallowed did he take another measured bite

as he chewed his legs danced

                              he remembered an older girl giving him a handjob in a darkened movie theatre  when noises began coming out of his mouth she gagged him with her free handshushing him as she did

his legs danced like the kids 

                             exactly like the kids

1630,  Reggae Friday,  10  9. 21

1250,  Saturday,  2  10. 21

Vibration Black Finger (featuring Maggie Nichols)  Alive in Five  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9R6Cqp4_HDM 

 

        like an old pair of shoes

he wasnt gonna throw them awaythey still had miles to go before they fell off his feet

even if they were uncomfortable

he must have had something in mind when he wrote thatscribbled it on a scrap of paper he used as a bookmarker as he stoppedstood on a high bridge over the river

he laughed to himself

                       someone passing on the road behind him might think he was writing a suicide note

some Buttinski

                 asif they had a right to interfere with anyones exit strategy

some kibittzer

some twocenter

                  Mind your own fuckin business

 

     exit   strategy

                      an old pair of shoesHmm  maybe he was thinking of himself when he wrote thatit seemed important at the time to get it down  he exhausted both sides of the scrap of paper

                                                                                      hed correct thatremember to slip a whole piece of paper in a book so he wouldnt leave himself highandry

                                                                          if it had been a suicide note hed have something to saynothing cryptic gallows humour  something  worthwhile

itd be addressed to his daughter to his partner in crime

if they wanted to share it that was their business

he always left them to their heads

thats what he understood love to mean

uncomplicated

unmitigated

absolute

love

he didnt think an old pair of shoes was an unlikely or unsavory comparisonhe made it a point to walk everywhere he went only occasionally yielding to take his car to save time

 

What are you doing, Dad? You ought to bring your coffee outside and sit with the rest of the family, we have only so much time here to enjoy them before we have to leave.

Yes  I will

           Everyone was cold when I woke this morningfound a note to myself in a book I was reading Made some coffee an sat down here not to wake anyone

Well, we’re all up now, sitting outside on the patio in our robes yapping. Come out and join us.

I can do that

             Right there

1220,  Thursday,  30  9. 21

1314,  Reggae Friday,  1  10. 21

Weather Report  Mysterious Traveller  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cg3lSfh8Zwc&list=PL382E3D3D77B4D6B4

 

   howbout this fucking lens

                                Joe Bidens priorities agenda his pair of infrastructure bills which he agreed with ought to pass Congress and be signed into law

he is president

                in 2018 he received 70,005,568 votes historically the most votes a candidate has ever received

on the other hand Joe Manchin of West Virginia received 209,510 votes winning 49.6% statewide  Kyrsten Sinema of Arizona received 1,191,100 votes winning 50%

                                                  according to these numbersthis offered matrix the presidents agenda ought to supersede what these miniature perhaps petty senators want

1212 or 0012,  Saturday,  2  10. 21

Alice Cooper  Elected  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e_qtQ52eFB0

No More Mr. Nice Guy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=huKbLK5aC6Q