Determination

                     exhalingwhispered Determination drives me 

Ohyare a hoot 

I was thinkin

I heard

           Yare determined  You

You may misunderstand me

                                In a manner of  speaking

Unlikely they resided in his head

                                    Whamanner 

Proactively 

             To deter  Latin de awayfrom terrere looks like terror terrain huh  frighten folded together like cake batter deterrere  MidSixteenth Century deter falls out 

                                                   Theres tha

An

Mine minedunearthed  Mining determent 

                                             Communications tha makes one afraid of something Nation goes without saying acculturation  ones mindset if febrile  agile   

Soyare not necessarily determined  Determination drives you  

No not necessarily 

                    Words are pliable like clay though have depth if you choose to weigh emfreight em forcemake people who like walnuts to have to shell them to eat 

                                               I knew a galwas terrible attracted to herMary whose parents owned a walnut farm California black walnuts Juglans californica glans californicate rolls off the tonguedon it When she returned from visits shed bring me burlapsacks of walnuts Id sit in my cubicle have gladiatorial competition between nuts pitting embreaking em in my hand winners I put aside into a second round sack then third fourth fifth on an on  Sack champions I keptdidnt eat lined them along a shared cubicle partition Did it for years  Squirrels peering through the windows at my back pounded on the glass Awcomon

Determination

   For anything else other than black walnuts

Every hill is a hill to die on  Grit   Grim determination

1719,  Monday – Memorial Day,  29  5. 23

2023,  Thursday,  1  6. 23

made him laugh

   he had a lousy night

was up earlier

                when he finally concededlooked at the clock it stared back at himBouttime its illuminated fingertips numbers shouted 4:29 

                         So youve been up since before 4 

Yawanna shaddup

Im just sayinwere just sa . .

. . Then yall can shaddup 

                           Im aware I have a keen sense of time

they wouldnt fight him on that he could usuallyhaving established a baseline say within five minutes either side time didnt bitch himhe didnt have obligations other than to himself those days were softfrothy wakes astern

   Christ he turnedtwistedthumped pillows he got uptook a leak  Id say after 6

After 6 

         6:59 is after 6

Donbe an asshole mines plenty enough

                                         he walked into the kitchentook a gander at the clock on the stove 6:09 he opened the frig pulled out a pot of redbeans he was soaking took off the lid stirred them with his fingersflicked the water off them back at the pot like a priest an asperges  fingers aspergilliums 

You likening yourself to a priest

Happy you followed my train of thought

Like we have a choic . .

. . Excuse meexcuse me  Excuseme all to Hell You chose me I didnt posted any Help Wanted signs 

                                                                                                          Im having rice an beans for dinner 

he placed the pot back in the frig

                                    went back to bed 

leftie followed him

Heybaby you gonnabe my sleeping pill

he pet herscratched her chin she went side to side backanforth then tucked up between his thighs against his loin 

Crotch 

Jesus man Ya gotta have the last word

 

Awright Crotch

Thank you 

   he wokedreams had been like scoops of icecream piledhigh stalwart on a sugar cone the clocks hands went beyond its face they exaggerated10:09 which was welcome all this extraordinary shit was welcomenothing out of bounds if the clock could talkmaybe someday itd say Bout time youre up Buckaroo 

4:29

6:09

10:09

his daughter was a fiend for numerology

                                           shed say the times meant something

One at a time babe

MAYBE Dad 

           he talked for her because she couldnt

4 plus 2 plus 9  15  1 plus 5  6

6 plus 0 plus 9  15  1 plus 5  6 

1 plus 9 why belabour the zeroes  10  1 plus 0  1

he Googled it read 6 is considered most powerful 

                                                    No wonder it woke youwoudnt let you go 

Hushit

        Also represents Venus Reflected in a person the person is artistic an creative

You needed a bout of sleeplessness to tellya tha

he turnedround faced into himself Please 

  he read 1 1 signifies self once I got some sleep and dreamsgalore Thus it can make a person selfish 

                                                                                                               It says a tad bit selfish 

One toetoke over the line Selfish is selfish

Awright Yaint a tad bit

Not I aint 

           May I continue 

Knock yourself out

Havent yet but thas another story 

                                     On the positive sidenot tha selfishness is negative indulgence in oneself also boasts a natives maturity selfawareness 

You are tha

I is

There you have it Dad.

Did time have to bust my chops

Please. You got to be clobberedhurt before you relent.

You know me well

I do.

I miss youlove you very much

I miss you too. 

                I love you from the tips of your toes to the ends of your hair, you always tickled me with that. 

 

4AMish,  Thursday,  1  6. 23

150preferred – a 6,  Thursday

Brewer and Shipley  One Toke Over the Line  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L9HXClusp_E