he said on his birthdaycelebrating  that the year following  was going to be a transformative

when thinking such  he ought to have kept it to himself

                                                            put into the ether  ratted himself out

That  which listens keenly  cant resist throwing a wrench into the works

transformative covers a lot of territory

                                           unfortunately  what transpired  covered a lot of terroritory

You coudnt have said transition

It felt transformative.

Sounded   tribulation

                          Transmogrification  Surprising    Magical      Bizarre

Went bizarre

                  But tha doesnt start with a T

It doesn’t have to begin with a T.

You cast it like chaff in the wind

                                    Weightless  Inessential     Easily scattered

Needed an anchor babe

Transmutation

                  Changing completely   From one form nature substance into another

    You’re not helping.

Transsexualise

Not.  Helping.

You started it

                 Ts

 

Ya learn something

                        Always take a lesson from your mistake

    nodding  You know. I think I have.

Jah

Yes.

 

 

Jah   Wha

Next time I’ll keep it to myself.

Elude avoid That  which listens

That.

         And you.

Jaysus broheim

 

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1240,  Sunday,  31  5. 26

The Hollies  He Ain’t Heavy, He’s My Brother  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z-5YXjKvbrE

    yetzer hara

               that one almost got away from him

Germans like Jews Jews like Germans have words for everything

                                                                        yetzer hara  evil inclination

the innate human impulse towards self-interest  pleasure   potential evil

the dictionary said

                     “the inclination or impulse to evil considered as an essential part of human nature in Jewish traditional belief”

Judaism

Catholicism

evils embraced

he hadnt evil in his vocabulary due to its religious connotation  he thought

                                                                                Good an Evil

Good just isnt good enough to offset evil  Evil is horrific

so he came away with Good an Bad

                                          Evicted evil

 

You’re kiddin’.

No

You believe there is no such thing as evil?

Not compared with good

I don’t know what to say. You’re smarter than that.

Evidently not

                   Im not sayinso to curb your thinkin You believe in evil knock yourself out

But you don’t.

Eeevicted

 1053,  Sunday,  31  5. 26

https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/yetzer%20hara

Zeppelin  Good Times Bad Times  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lsZG7n7ries

in extremis Latin  literally in the farthest reaches

                                                          he was talking with his old man

I’m ninetyfive.

No Dad not yet

Not yet?

No

I think I’m yet.

 

Whas tha even mean

                        he thought in the time still remaining  before all is done   There is yet time

he shared with his Dad

You said there is yet time?

I did

    Yet time.

Jah

There’s not yet there’s yet.  I’m yet

                                           Yet time my time. he looked too pleased with himself

he didnt want to debate him

                                 Okay   Yeti

Ya know whaelse tha is

    What is?

Yeti

Yeti.  Of course.

                     That’s me as you’ve said.

Youre okay sharing with Himalayan abominable snowmen an women

Way I see it, son forever son hasnt a name the more the merrier.

Awright

                You have a good Memorial Day weekend with brother Robert

I’m looking forward to it.

It was last weekend

                              Are you fuckin with me

No. You know I don’t like that kind of language.

    Just checkin Dad  just checkin

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yet  https://www.dictionary.com/browse/yet

Create

Evolve

Religious dogma

Scientific research

    sighed Say what you will but I’m awfully glad we switched to mugs yamind if I spike mine with some rum?

Not at all  Weve got Mount Gay Black Barrel

                                                 Excellent idea Buckwheat  Ill join you

huge smile dimples deep

                             When was the last time you spiked your morning tea?

Neverever Who the hell drinks tea in the morning

she laughed

Well own this for the rest of our lives

Jah, we’re on a roll.

    The rest of our lives doesnt freak you out

No.  Of course not.

                       You?

Ive a slew of years on you

 

You do.

          But with you, they disappear.

You’re fit.

You’re smart.

                I’ve never met anyone more curious than you it doesn’t stop.

If someone threatened you if you didn't stop . . .

 

 

    Wha

They’d likely suffer worse than picking themselves up off the floor.

Jah

        Im violently enthusiastically disposed

    I don know how to be otherwise

To be beat or not to be beat thas the question

Shakespeare.

Jah  You know

                    Do you think a lot of people your age know lines from Shakespeare

I’ve no idea.

I don’t care.

You recognise were ridiculous

Recognize? 

               What I do recognize, I held back on the rum.

uncorking the bottle she pointed it at him May I?

You fortify me in other ways

                                Why not

We’re at the front end of our day.

Its the weekend

                    Fuck it

 

Were responsible adolts

                            Anythingeverything we need is here

    Bubble bath?

I may have goosed the coffee beans our dessert

                                                     Mister Bubble    Not on your life

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Redbone  Come And Get Your Love  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ui7fZdK2mHw

Redbone  The Witch Queen of New Orleans  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x1HPQ_hEIiU

Another cup of tea

Are you?

Reflection an reflexivity

she giggled

             Ah.  Another cup of tea, a fine kettle of fish.

Kettle

       Clever

I have my moments.

                      huge smile crossed her face her dimples  vortexes

Mighty pleased with yourself

You’re not pleased with me?

Im always pleased with an by you

    yet more reason why he dug her

Carry on, my good chap.

    Reflection  It involves thinking about actions to improve performance

                                                                                Reflexivity  Care to take a stab

I’ll take the Wittgenstein.

Youre so fuckin cute

I am.

Reflexivity

             Paraphrasing

The ongoing process examining how our identities assumptions cultural contexts power positions shape research the knowledge we produce

                                        How this affects an changes us

This is kindalike a power tea.

                                 Maybe we ought to go to mugs, mugs we can pound nails with, smash walls.

another reason why he dug her

                                  introduced to herprior to actually meeting  their mutual friend called her Spike

Two mugs coming up

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https://www.bps.org.uk/blog/design-not-linear-and-can-never-be-seen-neutral

Cat Stevens  Tea for the Tillerman  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=070ecdv7vr0 

they were discussing over chintzy gaudy China teacups he forgot to pickup beans at the grocers  called accountabililty that he held by its lip because he couldnt get his finger into its handle

                                                                           she could

You have these teacups, why?

They were my mother-in-laws who left them to my wife who left them to me who Ill leave to my daughters because at long last their fingers will fit like yours do

Maybe tea this morning was subliminally imported to you while you were shopping yesterday.

thats why he dug her

                    I knew you were spending the night

I didn’t know that, I hadn’t planned on it.

    I subliminally imported it to you

If you did, why did you ask if I’d stickround?you wanted to get in my pants. . . for dessert.

Because Id also forgot to buy a dessert when I was shopping

 

Weak.

We werent weak last night

Ohshitno.

            We always crush it.

thats why he dug her

 

they were discussing over chintzy gaudy China teacups . . .

                                                                      lantern versus spotlight consciousness

babies have lantern Alison Gopnik The Philosophical Baby “diffusely lighting up the landscape” as contrasted “with the more spotlight, focused consciousness of the adult”

he tendered the difference between explore and exploit

Do you think?

Wonderment versus efficiency

Oh.

      You’re good.

Thank you

            You said so last night before we knocked out

As you copped Gleasons, The Honeymooners.

I did

         Baby youre the greatest

How do you even know the Honeymooners

Nick At Night.

Heard of it

             Tell me there wasnt a Nick

she laughed gayly

                      No, no Nick.

 

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https://www.bps.org.uk/psychologist/opening-our-minds

The Honeymooners  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RfeccqUVkkE

 . . . hair is identit . .

. . Youre attracted to a womans hair

I am. You’re not?

No  I cant say I am

A woman with a full head of hair, say auburn, wavy, to her shoulders, it twists my head if I catch her out of the corner of my eye, crane my neck, move, to see her better.

Thas you

 

I have a hard time believing a woman’s hair wouldn’t attract you.

Whell  Ya heard it from the horses mouth

    Same guy who says he’s not attracted to women with large breasts.

Ive said it before Ill say it again proportionality

                                                    Antha proportionality is usually ascribed by their athleticism  physicality

I don’t know.

               Not a week ago, electromagnetism, your third sex dream in three nights, assuming the same position in bed, axis, if you will, you dreamt of a chubby girl with large tits.

I also said she was fivenine Gives genes plenty of room to roam she lost twentytwentyfive pounds guys woud be crawlin after her

You summonsed her.

Summonsed No

                     Youll recall I asked why woud I know

    Dreams visit

Doorbell rings Dreamed-me goes to the door to answer it an letsem in  Off we go

We?

Dreamed-me dreaming-me the dream

                                         Dreaming-me orchestrates my lucid dreaming

Yeah.

        I don’t get that.

Because you havent put in the dreamwork

                                                Anyouve no recollection

I do.

    Rarely

Hair

 

What?

Where we began this venture

Ohyeah . . .   

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0938,  Saturday,  30  5. 26

The Marcels  Blue Moon  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W3EE8Xxx0mo

Frank Sinatra  Blue Moon  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dw1ZC6sZjIY

Dean Martin  Blue Moon  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7mPlOi74Sec

How pathetic

                     Im havin a hard time determiningdelineating  which  who   is worse

You surprised?

Unbelievable

                We as a species have slipped to a new low

Have bred awesome limbo dancers

    Limbo?

Jah  For lack of a better term

Oh.

      It's also a video game. 

Video

         Anya know tha why

Unlike you I’m not inured from playing video games.   

                                                          Why?

Ive better things to doexcuse me I refuse to waste my time

But they’re entertaining, helps take your mind off things.

So be it

             Appears weve come full circle

Full circle?

Pathetic

Ohyeah, though you cant be surprised given the climate.

    Pathetic sympathetic AI or pathetic sympathetic human beings

                                                                            A coin flip

Each sickly compliant

Attachment hacking

Intimacy attention economies

AI agents

              Make no mistake  They arent tools                  

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1241,  reggaefriday,  29  5. 26

Ezra Klein interviews Yuval Noah Harari  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9NCxS__rtAo

. . . I told him if I learned he blackballed me again Id be back

    You threatened him.

 

 

Warned him

Yacant possibly be tha ignorant

That’s a threat. If it had been me I’d’ve called a cop.

Idve broken your arm if you reached for the phone

You threatened him.

                          And if you learned he screwed you again?

Idve killedim

Killed him.

            You’re being facetious ya wouldn’t have.

 

I sued him for wha he was obliged obligated to provide me 

He lied forced carpenters I worked with to confirm his accusation on the threatjah threat  hed fire them if they didnt

I beat him in court

When I recovered from my surgeries began looking for work I maintained a file of the first two hundred applications I submitted

    Then I quit keepinem

Three years later an employer I interviewed with called an asked me to return for a second interview

You have no idea how elated I was

He asked when I came to come to the back door of his business

No sooner than sitting down tha morning he told me he wasnt offering a job but tha he wanted to tell some things I needed to know

Employers don hire people who sued an employer no matter the reason

Shoud have just taken it on the chin an moved on

Last thing he said My ex-employer was badmouthing me

                                                                  Good luck

Showed me the door

I thanked him for his candor

                                                                                                           

Cost me four years of employment

    I warned him

 

And if he ha . .

. . Id have killed him

Not really.

 

Ever threaten anyone

I haven’t.

    Id suggest rather than taking a cooking class call Lisa go to church  yaoughta take a threat class

Open your fuckin eyes

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Survivor  Eye of the Tiger  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XxxfQ7-aMrE

inspired by True Detective S1 E1  probably the only shorthandacronym he could tolerate

                                                                                      You get any sleep? 

whatever the character replied he didnt remember though  if asked of him

                                                                                  I don sleep I dream

S1 E1

         wondered what season what episode he was in would he have to negotiate another

asked

        Am I being pickedup

We understand they didnt its a tough game  Somebody younger may be trying to unseat you

                                                                                                  You beseech them to relent  Stop

  

I woudnt panic

You might

 

    Awright gang  Listenup

                                 Thad be the death of you 

they were big boys big girls

                                he warned them at the door  

2142,  Wednesday,  28  5. 25 a freakin year ago

2142,  Thursday,  28  5. 26

These Eyes

So

 

 

    So, what?

Whas the cooking class callin Lisa

                                       She provide other options

Go to church

Don tell me its too soon

 

Have you no compassion?

Dumb question

                    Rather you ask me have I no pity  Though

Another dumb question

 

It’s too soon.

    Listen man  Try as I may

                                     I cant summons either

In my defense . . . . love is blind.

Was blinded

                Cocktail forks   Shards of glass

    Your eyes you tell me

I didn’t see what you saw.

Saw shook his head

                     Saw   Years

cleared his throat You were played man

    You could hav . .

. . I did

            I said

You didnt hear

You didnt want to hear

 

You didn’t know her like I did.

No

        But I listened to her

 

Motherfucker  She said

My heart’s broken, you call me a motherfucker.

 

Theres something to tha

                            Howbout this

The appellation is meant for your heart

                                          You obviously have no control over it

Dickinson

Paraphrasing

The heart wants wha the heart wants

    Sorry man Don get it

                              Im not romantic began humming Guess Whos These Eyes

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c8Fc6GFs0mM