25.5.21

 

when he was a little boy he had a stuffed toy raccoon  anywhere he went the raccoon went with him   Tommy

he loved Tommy truly  he didnt go to sleep without him he did say anywhere he went

 

he was upset he was actually more than a little upset

he sat on a street curb with his granddaughter 

they had gone for a walk together and walked out furthur than they recognised they were taking five

Taking five, Grampa?

Were restin for a moment 
                          he was resting she was riding on his shoulders he did the same with his girls until he couldnt
shouldnt say couldnt should say his wife would say Put her down. She’s too big to be riding on your shoulders.   I could give you a ride on my shoulders if youd like   I don’t think so.   Yare not too big theyre not too big   People looking at the pair of you would think you’re ridiculous.   An you care wha other people think . I don 

out of the blue his granddaughter confessed that she accidentally Accidentally, Grampa. Accidentally, she said it three times  he didnt tell her that was an epizeuxis  usually he would I gave away a stuffed toy animal your sister, Aunt Lorelle, gave me for my first birthday. My Mom said. She told me. I still gave it away. 

his sister died not two years earlier


he supposed he couldnt blame hershe couldnt be faulted she was only one when she received it she was the first great niecefirst great granddaughter she received lots of gifts  she and her sister received lots of gifts for their birthdays and holidays the gifts almost seemed to be tributes and to his mind and taste they were too many 
                                                                                                    how was she supposed to remember one out of the glut she received


he gave her cash

many thought money was impersonal and mentioned it to him 
                                                                 Who asked you

it was a modest sum

he felt she was more likely to remember what she bought for herself 
                                                                        then when her money was goneshe was bankrupt when she couldnt buy what she wanted maybe shed think she should buy what she needed 
                                                                                                   it was a stretch
but every time he had the good fortune to spend alone time with her he mentioned it Need not want Buy whaya need Then occasionally treat yourself buy whaya want

 

he made her walk the rest of the way home   

0714,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  23  10. 19
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Stones  Can’t Always Get What You Want  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jv9sDn_2XkI