AGAIN   Kushners Creation Lake hard to let go

                                                                 It’s all the same, whether you’re in a relationship with a man or pretending to be in one. They want you to listen when they tell you about their precious youth.

his girlfriends might concur

                              although

they askedthen he said

it had been precious

though they to a one related unasked horror stories

                                                          but of course they would they were girls

girls understood fear horror  terror  more than dullboys

who should have balked when the doorman the bouncer carny  whoever  said

                                                                                      Step right up

Step right up with an urgency that made them step uphurry hurriedly  rather than lookround the place and know they didnt have to take orders

                                         they did

like later at the Draft Board STEP FORWARD – they were in the military now – stepped in it – didnt look around take in the surroundings – doomed

   he loitered

               Fuck you tossed the finger at the carny the barker he was there because he was deposited there and that was trauma enough not to respond to some swinging dicks Step up

Hell yasay Im havin me a look round takin in the lay of the land

Step up 

Deef  Blowin hot air man

                           Aint goin nowheres

 

he saw the shelves at the back of the room

stacked with good

snatched top shelf items

before

laden

        he stepped up and saw a happy life unfolding before him because he was prepared

   hadnt stepped in naked    

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1312,  Wednesday,  17  12. 25

Aahhe couldnt wait

                    could barely wait to see buddyboys Venn diagram regarding immortal and invincible

the two queued up by Rachel Kushner knew a Kushner in high school once no relation  Creation Lake  “. . . poplars tapering to points remind me of feathers . . . they are trees that remind me of a time when I felt invincible.”

 the protagonist a woman

invincible triggered immortal

lack of physical harm

lack of natural death

                  to interruptinterjecthad to quote this It’s all the same, whether you’re in a relationship with a man or pretending to be in one. They want you to listen when they tell you about their precious youth.

    sistah got that right

what would buddyboys Venn make of that

hes challenged him innumerable times and virtually the overlaps were  pitiful narrow ellipses

                                                                                                    BUT

he pitiful may apply to him as well he  as per usual  drew his Venn first  set the stage

                                                                                               drew a circle

explaining there was likely a cuticle but it so thin thin   thinWhadafuck Like a new moon in the night sky

    You’re ridiculous.

So you say show me whaya got

if he was a betting manhes not  itd be virtually like his others

                                                                  however  chuckled to himself

buddyboys probably unfamiliar with comic zines and series and seasons on characters called Invincible and Immortal

           maybe    maybe

                                hed drop that bomb on him to see what hed come up with

then   somehow  hed have to skirt his Venn reveal

                                                         obviously

have to contend with four circles two big Is two little is

                                                                         eesh  or iish   pronounced alike

 

what to do what to do what would he do what would buddyboy do

                                                                              Stay tuned

                                                      Same Bat Time same Bat Channel

                                                           in the vernacular a cliffhanger

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1109,  Wednesday,  17  12. 25

just for the hell of it

                      miss  noun  defined in Ambrose Bierces Devils Dictionary  “The title with which we brand unmarried women to indicate that they are in the market. Miss, Missis (Mrs.) and Mister (Mr.) are the three most distinctly disagreeable words in the language, in sound and sense. Two are corruptions of Mistress, the other of Master. In the general abolition of social titles in this our country they miraculously escaped to plague us. If we must have them let us be consistent and give one to the unmarried man. I venture to suggest Mush, abbreviated to Mh.”

“Frank Chodorov’s epiphany came when he picked up Henry George’s Progress and Poverty (1879). ‘A young man must have a cause,’ Chodorov would tell students in later years, and in reading and re-reading George, Chodorov ‘felt myself slipping into a cause.’”

Norman Podhoretz  The Longest Journey in the World  “That double life, Brooklyn and Manhattan, grit and glamour, loyalty and betrayal, nearly tore me apart. Yet it also saved me. It kept me honest, in a world where honesty was a rare currency, ambition was a sin, and the combination of the two gave me everything I have.”

these two quotes are in kind with the question he asks anyone who unsuspectingly inadvertently he usually provoked fall into conversation with him

                                         market check-out lines perennially understaffed are one of the best places to make ambush  waylay

theyre unaware theyre prey

What was your ambition

What did you want to become

in asking he always provided his ambition to chum the water

                                                                      make them rise

My ambition was to be happy  Ive achieved tha                          

 

    I dunno.

 

    I’d have to think about that.

Think

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0955,  Wednesday,  17  12. 25

https://stevehayward.substack.com/p/remembering-frank-chodorov

https://www.commentary.org/john-podhoretz/norman-podhoretz-1930-2025/