16.1.24


. . . really . . it’s nothing more than a matter of discipline.
                                                            he closed his eyesnodded pursuant he may have imagined himself sage gravitas

which he wouldnt bestow no way no how in hell
                                                All ears Buddha Continue   Im listening

It’s relative. A incise matter of internal, external discipline, conjoinedcomingled.

he opened his eyeslooked on him


   Im listening

What is it you can’t or are unable to discern?

Discernment This is your argumentnot mine
                                               Theres no reason I shoud discern Not as you stand before me  exercised  eager  wanton to extoll the virtues of discipline whichif I may   if I may probably understand anave benefitted from more holistically than you

Sosay

he sniffed Internally, and externally.
Meaning

   How one submits themselves.  Externally. Submits to . .
. . Authority
                 Authority

Yes.

Disciplined by authority

Yes.

Coerced
I didn’t say that.

You didnt
             I did
Thas not discipline

It is.
    Heads tails    Yinyang

Complementary forces

Don’t get caught up in the wee . .
. . Weeds
             I disagree
With your assessment

Youve been reading again

Do you disagree that they exists?

No
    Though I believe one should only submit to themselves External is prophylactic an artifice either to breakdown or be broken down
                  Sooner the better

1448,  Reggaefriday,  12  1. 24
2254,  2sday,  16  1. 24

he had no idea how he got into shit

seemed it was a knack

a friend big house  threw a party

he was hesitant to attend
                           You know how often you blow me off?I ask you say you’ll think about it, end of day, not the next day or two later you call, thank me, decline.

I said Id think about it
Come.
         Please. Got some people coming who are as bizarre as you.   Afraid of a little competition?

Youre not gallin me

Not my intention. I’m just saying.
                                     The facts, ma’am, nothing but the facts.

he called that evening

Well?

Ill be there
             Wha can I bring
Yourself.

You know me
                I bring something or I cant make it

Awright awright. Ice for in the drinks.

Crushed Cubed
Sure.
        Both.

Ill be there


a number were unique
                        but not bizarre  not to his standard
he wasnt bizarre

just wayaway of mainstream



he couldnt take a leak on the grounds per usualwater the plants the two heads downstairs were in use figured master bedroom bath
                 out of bounds
door shut
out of bounds
he bounded in
               Ooops  closed the door behind him

sitting on the bed a woman Claire he met that afternoon was expressing herself
pretty sleek equipment
                         function primary
Claire also functional
primacy 
          primal

Excuse me walking towards the bathroom door Need to hit the head

she noddeddistracted  busy


he washed his hands rapped on the door alerting her to his exit
                                                                   Not necessary. Come. I’m nearly done.

he walked over to the bed
                             Joe
Yes I remember.
                  Introduced strange Joe.

Actually strange is my middle name Joe strange

she chuckled coloured her faceheightened her freckles

Whas your story

I’m a surrogate. Fell into this sweet deal with the parents. They’re covering me maintaining my lactation. Turns out I’m so plentifully I donate.

Dairy cow

You’re not looking to score points.

No Call a spade a spade

   Or a dairy cow.
                         absently There.  Finished.  she removed the breast pad
a tantalising pearl seepedmarbledappeared at the very tip of her nipple
                                                                               May I
followed his eyes
                   May you . . what?

he didnt answerleaned forward gently upswiped her nipple with his indexfinger  dolloped the drip licked it

her nipple firmed
                   Really?
As a baby  had swallowed hard  ached a sixpak of wet nurses from the neighbourhood Was a fat baby  Twentysixpounds at six months
                                     Obviously fond of breastmilk  Cant take tha out of a boy

Are you done

No.

You havent expressed your left breast

   No.

May I

May you?

May I
         On tap
Tap?
     her nipples hardened
he believed joyously
                     I imagine things have been at a remove remote   Clinical Rigorous   Stringent  

nodding They have.

Care for some humanity

Humanity?

Selfserving
              Though I believe helpin myself Id be helpin you also  Win-win Claire

   I don’t  know.

he slowlyachingly reached to her breast deliberately upbrushed her nipple she sucked in a breath  involuntarily she expressed
             I know  I know

gently he pushed her backshe didnt resist on the bed
                                                       took her breast in both hands reminded him of his childhood hot summer treat a huge slice of chilled watermelon greedybites juice leaked from the corners of his mouth to his throat wetted his tshirt front


   one thing lead to another

he hadnt had sex with a lactating woman before


   they exchanged numbers

AMish,  2sday,  16  1. 24
1510,  2sday


they were going to have coffee

had been like clockwork

go for an uphill hike

incline wasnt too steep

good to make the top

better coming back down
                           though

past fourfive weeks hes begged off the hike but still says Let's meet for coffee.

a small place mileanahaf off his
                                   Ill walk Ill meet ya there

I go right by your place, I'll pick you up.

No Im good stretch my legs   Ill meet ya there

hed buy coffees but he didnt want them to chill
                                                   wouldnt set a clock by him
five tenminutes fifteen twenty
                                hed arrive
no skin off his ass

had his canvasbag couple of books clipboard paper pens inside 

wasnt like he was waiting

he glancedup past the clock tower in the park 

hed come from parking in that direction


   he saw himwatched him stuff his hangdog
something was up
                        something had been up

he hollered COFFEES ON YOU MAN

he noddedveered left

his coffee was black black coffees black

his on the other hand was a moving target but always lightened with cream   sweetened


put his book down  Thank you

You’re welcome. Sorry I’m late.

I wasnt waiting



   So man   
              Whas got ya by the throat

Me? Nothing.   I’m cool.

I watched you come through the park
                                        Yawannasay

I said ther . .
. . Excuse me  excuse me   Ill ask once more
                                                Three an yare out I can see youre off anya pride yourself on being honest

Ya don have to say

But theres something

Serena.

nothing serene about her met her twice not his slice of pie

Feels like things are going south.

   She told me I could call anytime.

Held herself up . . you know.

I don

I could call her anytime.

Anytime.

Weel
       There coudbe a brilliance to her remarkdoubt it  Whaya heard might not have been wha she meant  You coud call her anytime

frustrated the sweet in his coffee wasnt cutting it 
                                                But she doesn’t pick upwhat are you talking about?
She didnt say she woud
                           She only said you coud call her

That’s wrong.

According to you
                     Did she say shed answer

If I were to cal . .
. . She say shed answer
                              No

Shes not wrong


Who’s side are you on?

I havent a dog in the fight
                             I woud agree there is an implication  But only that

That’s little solace.

Coud havemight have been more if youd been on time answered first time I asked
                                                                                       Well never know
   
2128,  Monday – Mark Luther King Jr Day,  15  1. 24
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