he was taking a shower

he heard it in his head Im gonna wash that man right out of my hair . . a commercial . musical . . . hecouldnt . ah he could  Mitzi Gaynor  South Pacific

                                        a dull neuron fired

his second shower in a weekhed been too busytoo busy for all the right reasons

too early in the day bed at 11 up at 4Johnny on the spot

                                                               showers amplified his fatigue

they didnt refresh himdidnt wash a damn thing away

                                                         showers let his tiredness glom get in his eyes inside his head where he entered with trepidation like opening a closet in a tenement letting rooms not caring about the tenants until they didnt pay the rent on time

                        NO EXCUSES

                                               NO EXTENSION

and since no one per se paid them any attentionFuck what rights they think they may have or were written he didnt have leases cash-in-hand he had skeleton keys he knew enough about locksmithing had the tools that hed still get inside if a lock was changed

stack their shit in the hall

leave a cardboard sign FREE on it

                                    if they werent sharp theyd lose the Murphy bed they slept on and every fucking thing they thought they owned

shits only borrowed  Proof when ya die whadaya takin with ya

YAH  showers didnt do shit for him except clean his body erase his odor

                                                                             they muddied up his consciousness

he was his own shadow aping himself like a puppet hung on string wire or tenterhooks  usually  painfully

nobody said Life was going to be easy

suck it up

1458,  Sunday,  16  2. 20

1059,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  19  8. 20

South Pacific  I’m Gonna Wash that Man Right Outa my Hair  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qr3wH4u4xus

there are different ways people gauge time

                                              dependent wholly dependent  on demands made upon them

work is a culprit

                  as are the indoctrination of schooleducation entertainment   family and friends

time is tendered by clocks watches cellfones public displays

                                                                ticktockticktocktic . .

his time was novel

he went to bed when he was tired

                                     he rose eventually well after he woke  he liked playing with his hypnagogic playmate   

usually he was roused by the sunlight through his bedroom window it faced east it was devoid of a window treatment he kept the glass spick and spaninside and out  it had to get mighty cold before he closed the windowstopped the flush of fresh air

he never took his waking for granted

when he wokewhen his eyeballs popped openHellyah! What a gift!  Thank you!

to be fair he would be remiss if he also didnt credit his cats

                                                              they were also alert to dawn  they ran roadraced across him

he was not dependent on timepieces

                                       his inestimable fortune was that time turned on his ball point pens when they ran out of ink he kept three or four beside him  interchanged them they had to keep up with his writing and were accents and peripherals to the sixseven books he kept influxread at same time

                                                                          trustworthy timely companions filled with goofy thoughts keen information and facts

Slip N Slides

              never to worry about coming up for air bathedsurrounded in fresh blue air

had someone caught him on the street and asked him for the time hed share what was on his cellfone

that time would be three minutes slow

his fone was set to Trilogy time

                                  the make of the ventilator his daughter used

                                                                                  to be precisely on her time

until they werent

0719,  Sunday,  16  2. 20

1336,  Twosday,  18  8. 20

Mingus Dolphy  Meditations on Integration  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DhMEwE3te6A  

he was takin a leak

it was pleasant

his fingers and wrists were working better

                                           not as much pain in them fingers locking wrists feeling like there was broken glass inside them

but because they were workingfeeling better

                                             he wondered what it would be when he missed the painthe discomfort he preferred to call it discomfort

an excuse?

             a crutch that helped him embrace he was alive the day to day reminder  discomfort  telling him YOURE ALIVE!

perversehuh

            he didnt know a better way

the species is easily complacent

0059,  Sunday,  16  8. 20

1539,  Twosday,  18  8. 20