6.5.21


Nebraska 
           hed never been in Nebraska before  it was as flat and featureless from Interstate 80 as Iowa was  although not as featureless or barren as Nevada  he understood why Atom bombs were tested there

they spent the night in Sidney

in the morning they took Old Post Road out of town to State 19 crossing the into Colorado 19 turned into State 113 a road map revealed that he didnt see any posted signage for several miles that revealed the transition wasnt like a butterfly emerging from its chrysalis 
                                       he played with a notion of Christchrysalis Christ inside trying to gerryrig a transformation into anyone other than himself because he knew hed be crucified  not unlike killingjars and butterflies pinnedup in shadow boxes for display  He really isnt any different 
                                                                        . . wasnt like a butterfly emerging from its chrysalis given this countryside any splash of colour would have been nice

denied  he decided hed look for anything old thing that might tickle his fancy 


his buddy was drivingit was his car  he preferred driving to being a passenger it was his car  this morningbecause it was his car he also wasnt interested in listening to music  he wasnt interested in conversation

he was fullblooded German his parents born in-country  their War experiences as children vastly different

this particular morning he was mighty tempted to describe his buddy as Aryan
                                                                                   anwhile he thought Aryan amused himmisting his craniumhis crankbox he saw a lingering fence line  it was in disrepair  he saw no purpose for it  no crops no cattle no outbuildings  intermittent for miles and miles 
                                                                   probably its sole purpose was THIS LAND BELONGS TO SOMEBODY  NOT YOU   You saw the fence?   I did   So you understood the land belongs to someone?   I crossed onto it where there wasnt a fence or gate   But you saw, you must have, the fence . . 
. . Was not contiguous   That has nothing to do with anything. A dotted line is still a line.   Not where there is no dot 

the disrepair was curious 
                            there were thin weathered slats strungbound by barbwire between steel U-channeled posts  some wires had snapped  hunreds of slats were broken  often an unbroken line tentwenty feet at a time  slats looked like sheaves of whitened ribs or broken dangling bones 
                                                          he imagined he was looking on the fossilised remains of an ancient snake or snakes who died twined  in the throes of sex 
                                                                  if someone hadnt witnessed snakes mating theyd likely be impressedas he was  he wished he could be as fluid an flexible bendy an pliable sleek  as snakes



What are you thinking about? You’re mighty quiet over there.

I was thinking of fucking like a snake

Jesus Christ.

Nah Cant  Hes nailed to a cross hes got an excuse for not being pliable 
                                                                           Whas yours

0912,  Reggae Friday,  30  8. 19
1507,  Thursday,  6  5. 21
Doors  Crawling King Snake  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dV0buYqrRo4 

  

he wasnt going to let his buddys unenthusiastic reception of his QT cat house to fall on its face by the wayside 
                                                                                                                  hed not been a playernever threw himself out of a moving car to meet a woman DAMN hed be the shy one at some orgy 

since moving away they hadnt seen much of each other they kept in touch with letters his letters  occasional telephone callsa couple a year his calls
                                he supposed over the years he was a lifesaver of sorts  oxygen  defibrillator  fire extinguisher  IN CASE OF EMERGENCY  BREAK GLASS


THEREto the left 
                a conceptual house of ill-repute flashed him again  Lucky Gal  a 50s storefront nearly across the entrance to Highway 235 off East Universitywithin a stones throw of the university AWCOMON wha mixes better than students away from home and sex
Right there 
           he stuck his arm out under his nosefinger pointing  There Lucky Gal

glancing his buddy barked Hey, man, I’m tryin . .
. . YahI wanted you to see opportunity QT Quick Trick didnt impress you

a red awning ran the entire length of the shop like a bloodybeacon Lucky Gal

after having a glance he took the long diagonal ramp right up to the 235 

Check her out in your rearview man  Lucky Gal shes begginbeggin pretty please  Cantya see

Man, you got a real bug up your ass about whores.

No Not whoresno whores 
                           Iowaahhaahha State begs some spicestate begs some hills an thrills an curves an cleavage Its as flat as an unfortunate teenage girl
                                           Imagine
You imagine, I’m driving.

 

Im always imagining 


You always are. Keep it up.

No problem there man No problem

0822,  Thursday,  29  8. 19
1048,  Thursday,  6  5. 21
Leonard Cohen  Last Year’s Man  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h_rJxVfe7vo
Adam Jensen  Pretty Please  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YpHS9-VyDuw