21.3.19



Awfuck he was going to have to push hard to find her  Of course she was flatteredshe was excited to meet people who had heard of her art who declared their enthusiasm and interestpossibly to the extent of purchasing a piece 
                                                                                 an then there was much about her too to be enthusiastic she was beautiful which thereby  she was also something to be excited by

it was that something-aspect that turned his crankpissed him off

she wasnt something

she was someone 
                    anshe was enticing an doublescooped atop her person  somehow she had preserved a childlike wonder and innocence that made people want to run barefoot through her like a puddle after a warm summer rain



as he suspected unfortunately the housethe estate was what he expected

it wasnt a house he would be welcomed in  

but he wasnt easily daunted 
                               an particularly so when people wanted to daunt himhe shouldnt say people he should say men when men wanted to daunt him

some men thought their homestheir cars and money were perfect trappings 

they didnt know her

she wasnt interested

she was deeply interested in substance though not typically things others believed were substantial


her art was for sale

she wasnt


often men were disappointed Of course people have their price everyone has a price


she didnt


he didnt 
         thats why they jived an who jives anymore



Yah he hopedmaybe he could get away with explaining he was undaunted he tried to convince himself he preferred explaining he was undaunted

however some peoplefrom the get-go  decide they arent going to listenhe could see it in their eyes

his father shared two things with him that he always kept they and his fathers ivoryhandled straight razor

one Don’t stand still. It’s hard to hit a moving target.

two When it’s inevitable, throw the first punch.

whats inevitable 

he knew what inevitable washe usually knew it before the other guyguys

when it was guys Inevitable screamed in his ear

it helped to be crazy

he learned that from his brothernot a year younger than him amazing what you can learn if you listen


No they didnt want to let him in

he was going to have to convince them

he showedoff the policestick an brass knuckles he carried 

he said Look pointing to the array of scars on his face Youre welcome to walk with me but Im not walking away

aside from heads there were many valuable things along the way that could be bustedthey should never have let him in

he also employed his fathers old salesmans foot-in-the-door Fuller Brush insurance vacuum cleanershe was a door-to-door kind of guy until he met his mom then all bets were off although his technique was less subtle leg-and-shoulder-Im-inside Whachasay your name was


with his entourage he found her beyond a sprawling wet bar standing near an infinite pool with an entourage of her own they were each about the same size

Hows tricks babe he had a bad habit of catching her with a drink in her mouth she began to choke he quickly stepped around behind herrapped her on the backtook her by the shoulders My bad

clearing her throat You’re bad? Yes you are. Time to go?

It is time to go

Sell anything         

I could have; but not any art.

Oh baby its a wild world . .  
. . Tough to get by on a smile she smiled very big

Ready

I am.

Gentlemen were outa here


his entourage escorted them out an Of course they did Don’t come back! difficult to parry witless repartee


before 0700,  Twosday,  19  3. 19
1105,  Thursday,  21  3. 19
Chicago  Ballet for a Girl in Buchannon  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eQkGQHnwVjE