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truth be known

have names

             he had affection for them since a teenager when he thought he hurt himself but an older boy a friend who had his confidence exceptionally rare told him he hadnt hurt himself

                                                                        Ya rubbed one out.

Rubbed one out

Don’t be thick. You masturba . .

. . Arya kiddin me I didnt think I was old enough

    Evidently.

You

Ohyeah like every night. You’ve seen my sister, her friends.

she was a college freshman they were eighth graders

                                                           Larryd been failed

I have

going their separate ways Larry turnedHey.  Do me a favor would you?

Whastha

Don’t masturbate, now that you know how, to my sister.

I cant promise tha

    that summer he went over to Larrys house to take care of his German Shepherd

Jane was home

he had a keysurprised her

                             didnt know she waswasnt supposed to beheard a noise upstairs

her bedroom door was open

found her naked on the bed

riledup masturbating furiously

    Jane

            she sawdidnt stop croaked Joe.

he watched intrigued intimidated  his cock rockhard

    she came righteously

                                  giggling she got out of bed walked up to him

Open your mouth.

he did

putting her fingers in his mouth she said Suck.

he did

         as he did  Tastes good huh?

couldnt answermouth full

    she nodded as he sucked  I know.

                                           pulling her lollipops out of his mouth she touched herself againstuck her fingers artfully into her pussy she taught him pussy  a pant quaked in her throat

    then  she put her fingers into her mouth and sucked them           

I . . I. I gotta gobetter  go intimidated

she giggled again

                      Joe.   The garage.

Yah he thought she was referring to the dog

                                                 If I’m home when you stop over let me know.  Get up on the garage rooflooks right into my room.  I’ll give you a show.

 

    shows two years 

became a bit of a voyeur  trying to catchup with Jane

 

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                   only place for privacy growingup was in the bathroom there were twelve in the house

he had occasions  found Playboys

                                      snuckem into the house

laid down on the bathroom linoleum

Cynthia Myers handsdown  hand    favourite

Victoria Valentino

Marilyn Hanold

Elaine Reynolds

Donna Michelle

Maria McBane

Melinda Windsor

Fran Gerard in those crazy blackrimmed glasses

Angela Dorian

Jill Taylor

Avis Miller

Liv Lindeland

Marilyn Cole

Debbie Davis in a bubble bath

Nancy Cameron her front-back centerfold  only one ever taken

    his last linoleum gasporgasm  Marilyn Lange  May  Seventyfour

remembers Candy Loving

lastly Dorothy Stratten

                               which isnt to say he quit masturbating

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Did you mean . say . . . calling . not answering his calling?

Wha  Ya def

              No  Galling he made a point to include the G  Enunciation    Pronounciation

Galling?

Yah

     loved the word it was that miniscule spot of soup or pasta sauce on an otherwise clean had-been-freshpressed white buttoneddown dress shirt

                              Youah  got a little something there

cant conceal galling

                        an ancient tree that buildings had been built around razed built again then some fuck gets a bug up their ass and has it cut down because it could kill someone that buildings have to be super-reinforced constructed to withstand earthquakes

give him an unreinforced masonry building every day

                                                         if it collapsed with him insidekilled him

hed be cool

       ungalled

should the earth decide to scratch its back shakefree the irritating lice

    galling

is the fortunate who don see it as privileged white son or daughter who hasnt done a lick of workbusted a knuckle on a car enginetaken a sliver that pins two fingers togetherdone HARD WORK  who believe their rightful place is over others who know better are more experienced than they

                                               who cant see beyond the end of their nose or the silver spoon either stuck in it or in their mouths

    NO  I didnt say callin

                              Galling

Yeah.  I’m not following.

How the hell cantya Havent you been galled

    Sorry.  Not that I can really think of.

Friend  Thas leadin a blissful life hope you appreciate it

Maybe. Perhaps.

   he was galling him

bile rising in his throat thickened  mucous   he was barely able to hawk it out

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Friend

             Theres only one way out an thas through you

No matter where you want out fromno matter circumstances

                                                                  The only way out is through you

bad relationships

bad jobs

bad habits

bad thoughts

bad dreams

    the door out the exitentrance  to elsewhere

Is through you

Tryin to pin the rap on someone else

Someone elses got your keys

    Thas horseshit  

Thursday,  16  11. 06

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“ . . . a feeling for the hysteria of the times.”

                                                pianist poet Cecil Taylor

he wrote to himself I have an urge for  Hysteria 

shaggystuffed

                I stand like a scarecrowpalms up to the belly of the sun my widespread fingers shadows in the dirt

I would also stand with the white cool cheek of the moon soft over me

                                                                             tryin

to sense

become a bellwether harbinger  of quickened furious tempers

                                                                   hysteria

not hysterical

    he knew the difference    

Wednes-hate-day,  15  11. 06

Thursday,  16  11. 06

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Cecil Taylor  Free Improvisation #3  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EstPgi4eMe4

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. . . Nymph     Wha

                      Christ aint clickin   sometimes his brain forced his hand You cant recall get a little help woudya Aint the end of the world

                           hence he was forced to do a synonymcant stop this shit cinnamonsynonym searchnot if he tried nymph gave who he couldnt remember but had thought first a rousing hipcheck knocking her asideout of mind anwha a hip  wha a delicious hollow funneling to her stem wha a happy Venus dimple as she twistedfinishing her thrust

he used the dictionary  The New Oxford American Dictionary  Second Edition

FUCK

Cherub

             reason why nymph persisted  dominated

 

 

    where this began

                        he was wishing his toilet was on rollers so going while going he could visit the four sidescorners of the bathroom and take in possible perspectives though those possibilities changing if he crossed his eyesif  he put on reading glassespeered through a magnifying glass at the twelvebytwelve inch fake tiles imprinted on the linoleum

                                                                                                                      thasaid

even in place where hes squatted almost ten years presented subtlerer things  he hadnt seenknew hed remember if he did

       perhaps

the candle flickering over his shoulder spraying ivorybutter light  tickling happy shadows  linoleum was tan crackledfragmented driedblood bearbrown hints slivery fissures

threequarter tile from the tub where his head would rest

                                                           that next tile nearer from its edge the sixinches left to right  stackedunstable he thought vertebrae offcentered seems scenes sequences  unassembledpossibly  countenances   in its high rightfield a bemused partial beauty  off where her chin might have been   violence  eyes proud nose where what would have been her throat her a face thrusted left the che- nymph head tilted down beyond her cheeks lost  a relief  negative space  then a sudden fierce shewolfs head twisting towards him its muzzle wrinkling lip raised he could not see her bared canines

                                  next tile beneath it

like steaming rising palpable atmosphere  a goddess head emergedwas turned towards him  on diagonal her left eye bisected by the tile edge  a straight regal nose  high cheeks the tip of her upper lip revealed enough as it was the extent of her suggested hinted   an audacious grin

                                                            the four above her truncated head  her dream

   or a mission  revealed

         

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