he was smug wasnt a good look on hisanyones puss You’re cynical.

                                                                     Why not admit it.

Im not  Thas not true

So you’re not mistrustful . .

. . Distrustful  Distrustful

                             By my experience

You interrupted.

   You’re distrustful . . . I don’t see a diff . .

. . You should  Yaoughta know the words you use

                                                      Words ya casually carelessly break

under his grimace he ground his teeth

                                          he cleared his throat You distrust your fellow man’s sincerityquestion . his integrity.                                                      

I have no fellow man

                          Authenticity wanes

shook his head dismally Just semantics.

Whimper Susurrate  Semantics  Suck a limp dick

                                                         Authenticity is unshakable A toggled harpoon

Whas past is prologue Shakespeare  Tempest

I see whawas helps me see up the road ahead A far piece  Obviously beyond you

                                                                                         Youre not a student of history 

Ya hang on my words  Shame on you  Ya don look or learn Ya don know for yourself

   I am not cynical

                     Im aware

Thaya don want to conflatecombine the two thas on youyour decision

                                                                           Out of my hands

I aint gonna break a sweat over whaya think

I  Believe

            I do not think

   So you believe. Not think.  Mistrust.   Distrust.

Yes

      The weight is behind me Years goneby now   You have no idea

                                                                            You havent invested

I’ve no skin in the game?

None An astute recognition

                              Bravissimo

1500,  Saturday,  13  1. 24

1936,  Monday – Martin Luther King, Jr Day,  15  1. 24

The Band  The Weight  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xLFAQuWFcTo

https://genius.com/The-band-the-weight-lyrics

Tiikk  You Weren’t  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fndhEBrEv9Y

he caught her abrupthalts  had he blinked he would have missed themhad he missed them he would still have had his suspicions

she was a synesthete counted in colour saw time like pictures in her head smelled in colours

but she was a witch

                      a good oldfashioned witch without the cackle without the wart with a depth of soul that was bottomless

             she had a fantastic bottom

   was the first time a fanny swayed him

no  small  feat

approx1400,  Sunday,  14  1. 24

1551,  Monday – Martin Luther King Jr Day,  15  1. 24

    sex alleviated soothed his angst

the blue lacy agate his daughter selected for him helped  but wasnt the trick it was heavy hard in his hand in his palm

she told him it would help calm him  Yareally think I need to be calm calmed

                                                                                 You?    Yes.

   he needed something softer  more pliable delicate

He knew

           the deeperHim knew

He mustered a salve a dreamed salve at once a voicenot his wordsnot in his hand he listened to the voice followedread with it like a subtitle

                                     she glistened  and looked  and felt  and smelled  and tasted like split stonefruit

he could feel his spine relax become a snakespine able to curlcoil a catspine elastic agile 

                                                                                                an atop it his skull warming

soothed  bathed 

angst away

glistening

looked

smelled

tasted

split stonefruit

   He saw the day comingstress coming and wanted him warmedup stretchedout to face it

AMish,  Monday – Martin Luther King, Jr Day,  15  1. 24

https://www.crystalvaults.com/crystal-encyclopedia/blue-lace-agate/

Kings  I HAVE A DREAM  https://www.npr.org/2010/01/18/122701268/i-have-a-dream-speech-in-its-entirety

American Greed second to none ticks him off egregiously

                                                            anyet what had been distant in the rear mirror is up on his ass on a crappy one lane road

White  Republican  Texan  Inhumanity

                                          cost a woman and two children their lives

THEIR LIVES

              which would be more significant if one viewed those deaths through a magnified len of THEIR LIFE

Yahear the one about Abbott screamingbloodymurder clutching his wheelchair dumped in the middle of the Rio Grande

“National Guard soldiers” – those are some names we need to know the bootlicks the enablers henchmen – “deployed by Abbott did not allow Border Patrol agents to attempt to rescue the migrants.”

                                                                                fuckedup

White House spokesman Angelo Frenandez Hernandez “While we continue to gather facts about the circumstances of these tragic deaths,” – murders – “one thing is clear: Abbott’s political stunts are cruel, inhumane, and dangerous.”

   which is exactlyexactly the point

1135,  Monday – Martin Luther King, Jr. Day,  15  1. 24

https://www.cbsnews.com/news/3-migrants-drown-near-shelby-park-eagle-pass-texas-soldiers-denied-entry-federal-border-agents/