He had to know before they married

People make allowances, compromises.

They do But the death do you part thang imparts a wholly new an different understanding can I put up with this for the rest of my life

               Or their loves life

Hard questions

I liken it to a paper cut every day every week every month every year

                                                                         Paper cuts are minor  arent pleasant

But every fuckin day

   Have you ever shared that before . . with anyone?

I think everyone has their own analog . .

. . Not like that.

                  That’s heinous.

Heinous

Heinous. I whine when I suffer one forever far apart.

                                                          Heinous.

No Ive not bandied it about

You ought to. Can I?I’ll credit you.

Unnecessary

No. Necessary. I don’t want anyone thinking I’m a sick fuck.

OH thanks

That’s pernicious.

Look at you rollin out vocabulary basting words

   she giggled

                 I’m a masterbaster . . no apologizes.

Fuckme

Pretty goodhuh?you’re rubbing off on me.

Loaded

A tad.

            Did I ever tell youya’re my hero?

Screwball

            So youre tellin me he didnt know

He knew when he met her she was a micromanager. He thought she’d leave that at their doorstep, not turn it on him.

A micromanager  I coudnt work for one

You are, kinda, in your own way.

My own projects my own initiative

                                     My own me Im not a teamplayer

Gimme me a wide berth job gets done well efficiently  then the micros can have the product an try an punch holes in it

It

    Not me

There’s that.

Who does his exwife work for

Microsoft.

Ohfuck

         A micromanager at Microsoft

she laughedOh, I didn’t think of that.

Did he before marrying her

He did.

Made his own bed then decided it wasnt for him

                                                    So much for deathvow

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. . . serial monogamist

                             Wha the hells tha

Surely you’v . .

. . Is tha a thing

   What have I told you about that?

I know wha youve said but Im tellinya Ive never heard of it

You understand what it means?

I can parse it understand serial understand monogamy though I havent ever thought it a bad thing

Not regarding marriage, what you and your wife had, that commitment no; I’m talking in regards to, uncommitted relationships, boyfriends, girlfriends, staying with one while reaching out to anotherthey can’t be single, they have to be in a relationship, can’t stand on their own two legs, can’t date.

Thas dishonest

It serves their purpose.

Living a lie

Serves their purpose.

Thas shit

You’re tellin’ me.

Its happened to you

Yes.

he shook his head

                      How  Youre so smart

Smarts got nothing to do with it. Missed signals . . . because I didn’t want to think otherwise because I turned a blind eye turned a deaf ear.

Im terribly sorry

I did it to myself.

                  He stepped away, broke my heart, was living with a woman inside two weeks of breaking up with me.

Inside two weeksJesus

                           Im sorry  I don get it

she laughed tears began

                           Because you wouldn’t stand for it. You catcha whiff of a lie and you’re adios, you won’t tolerate the slightest dishonesty.

You’re unlike a lot of people.

What is it you say?

   Its a good thing I can get along with myself

Yes.

      I wish I could. A lot of people wish they could but they can’t.

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1515,  Reggaefriday,  12  7. 24

Fourth of July week

fireworks

dogs howl  cower

not pleasant evenings for them

Whas with your dog

hers laid at her anklechin on her foot blinked  occasionally looked aroundeyes only when a firework wentoff little lower than it shouldflickering ashes glimmering into treetops

taking the drink away from her mouth she swallowed

                                                          He’s something huh?

The explosions flashbangs suddensparklings ricekrispies don bother him

No. I’ve had him five years don’t affect him, but cries of other dogs, you may have noticed, his ears twitch in their direction, the extent of his acknowledgment.

her neighbours had had enough took their animals inside distancing them from the end-of-the-world muting them behind walls

I don’t know what that is.

she took another sip swallowed

                                       You’re not keen on dogs.

Im not  I cant provide the attention they require

                                                  A cat person  Affection a giveantake proposition sometimes yah sometimes no  Were amenable

Too aloof for me.

Aloof Perfect

             Were aloof  Far more accurate than amenable   Thank you for the correction

she was going to take a sipstopped at her chin

                                                  You’re welcome. You’re so polite.  sipped

he yawpedmuzzled it behind his fist

                                        Trust me ya woudntwan my Maw to suddenmaterialise slap the back of my head You know your manners, you ought to be ashamed of yourself.

Shame

        Was a powerful tool in our house cracked on the ass stood in a corner made an example

In junior high woodshop I made a miniature pillory an gave it to her for Mothers Day She didnt appreciate it it wasnt lost on the room my father my siblings However not to be made butt of a joke or oneupped she stitched a doll of socks an placed in the pillory kept it on top the bookcase in the livingroom a conversational piece affectionately referred to it as me Cant say who got the last laugh

                                           But I digress  Ya woudntwan her to materialise

Perhaps. Perhaps not.

                         All in all she wisely taught you good manners.

I have tha

   So.  Dogs.

Yah

They’re loyal, devot . .

. . Slaves

   Truly?

   Yah No appeal  Anymore than Lassie Rin Tin Tin Bullet Roy Rodgers dog fuckinRoy liked his devotion so much had him stuffed

Stuffin your dog

Interesting.

Noncommittal

Ohsorry, most people I know either like or have dogs

   Own a dog

You could really care less?

You know who you remind me of?

I do not

A dog.

Not rising to the bait? 

A three-legged dog.

   Threelegged dog

Yes.

       They absolutely despite four-legged dogs. Halfdozen rescues in the neighborhood.

Then youd know

I do I truly do.  Another beer.

Sure

Fetch.

HA  

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