his nose began to run muttered Fuckin hay fever thought hed given it the slip in his Thirties when he finally put the Midwest in his rearview mirror

                                    he was trying desperately to get a handkerchief out of the outside pocket stitched to the side of the canvas bag he slung over his shoulder but it was warpeddistended by four large nonfiction hardbound library books and cans of cat fud

    it wasnt playing nice

as a kid  itchyrheumy eyes  a flowing nose  the cotton handkerchiefs jammed in his back pockets were dismally inept  however within a weeknot much more they gave way to colourful bandannas his mother bought for him because he needed more area  more cloth

a fifth book was tucked in his armpit  leek greens tucked in the other

                                                                           if he happened to drive past himself hed have guessed Houdini

an Houdini wasnt getting out of those embracesFINALLYSTOPPED slipped the bag from his shoulder down onto the street

extracted the handkerchief

gratefully blew his leaking nose saved only from dripping on his tshirt by repeated strong sniffs

                                                                                                   cocaine sniffs

updeep from his asshole cocaine sniffs

AwmyGawd

               it felt so good to clear his head

the bag was so stuffed nothing shifted

got his thumb under the straps  hoisted it back onto his shoulder greens back in his armpit  he liberated the fifth Wounded  Percival Everett  began reading again as he walked

                                                                         hopefully Houdini wouldnt reemerge

he was really relating to diggin Wounded   he didnt want to be interrupted

1330,  Tuesday,  10  6. 25

1916,  Tuesday

she smiledlaughed   tapered out to a chuckle a coo

                                                           I learned a word the other day, from a book, Fearless Speech, Mary Anne Franks, about the First Amendment, right up your alley, you’ll have to read it when I’ve finished it, you’ll agree, it describes you to a T.

It kinda sounds sexualwhich . . is why I think you’ll appreciate it, in addition to its meaning.

You think of me sexually

                               it was his turn to laugh

    Whas the word

Parrhesia.  You’re a parrhesiast.

GULP

Stop it.

May have swallowed my tongue

                                        Meaning . . .

Parrhesia. It's speech characterized by frank, fearless, truth-telling, even if personally risky or dangerous. To speak openly, honestly, often to authority, without regard or fear of consequence.

    Why  thank you

You’re welcome.

When do you expect youll finish the book

Probably in your hands tomorrow if you can keep them off me this evening.

    You woudnt want tha

No.

      Day after tomorrow.

page 58

           “. . . when assessments of the value and harm of speech are made with a white male subject in mind, the result is that speech valued by white men but harmful to women and minorities is likely to be characterized as protected speech, whereas speech that diverges from the interest of white men tends to be classified as an exception to First Amendment protection.”

page 86

           “The tech industry has accelerated and promoted violent white male supremacist rhetoric for its own ends. While the true religion of corporations is profit, not politics, indifference to the destruction wrought by the ruthless pursuit of self-interest is the very definition of recklessness. In its colonization and commodification of free speech, the tech industry unites corporate recklessness with individual recklessness.”                        

page 88

           “What accounts for the tech industry’s continued insouciance even as the social and human cost of its central profit model, based on the euphemism of ‘engagement,’ have become undeniable clear? It is now public knowledge that social media and other telecommunications platforms contribute to genocide, suicides, mass shootings, international and domestic terrorism, public health crises, insurrections, election interference, sexual exploitation, reputational ruin, psychological trauma, and misinformation on an unprecedented scale – and yet, tech industry not only survives but thrives.”

early June, 2025

1330,  Saturday,  7  6. 25

1350,  Monday,  9  6. 25

1144,  Tuesday,  10  6. 25

Immersive?

Bet your sweet ass

                     Why wouldnt one be

Because, don’t you think there’s more than nuance, splitting things into fine, discrete, what do I want to say?    Matter.

You answered your question

her expression puzzled  it looked awfully good on her

                                                          How?

Because it matters

                        Matters to me

Ill admit Im granular

But not . . . what do I want to say?  confusion smiled in her face  amazing dimples

Not geometry  geometrical

                              I wont be writing any tractuses  proofs   systematic analyses

OhHellno, that’d be unlike you.

                                  You’re at a pane of broken glass, scattered, picking up a piece here a piece there, same substance, but incongruous, edges don’t match, no interlocking, no rhyme no reason.

But one Immersive

                       I imagine a sphere of matter suspended agitatedmixed into clear batter

A bubble

I am its volume

I am the skin that contains it

Volume  Four over three pi radius cubed

Skin  Area  Four pi radius squared

I understand thas the math

    You have math to describe your immersiveness.

Howbouttha

she grabbed his face one hand puckering his mouth    kissed him hard split his lip

    not that he minded

1747,  Sunday,  1  6. 25

1050,  Tuesday,  10  6. 25

drove him nuts

                  You do  know

I don’t.

Yado

Why is it you think you can tell me what I know or don’t know?

If you told me you didn't know, I would accept the fact you don’t. I wouldn’t try to push you around.

    I.  Don’t.  Know.

Frankly   You do

                   An I say that because for some reason you discount you refuse to take into account  relate  the totality of your life experiences

    Ya live under a rock

Don’t be ridiculous.

Word Id enthusiastically use for you

                                       When you insist ignoranceanya do to make nice so people will think Oh, how nice is he? youll stand on your head not to ruffle feathers which are in serious fuckinneed of violent ruffling   I know  Because otherwise youd be dead

I knowI remember youve had life experiences that can be applied practically to circumstances despite not having been confronted before  exactly

You sweat the exact of the situation

the whole while he was shaking his head no

                                        You don’t know what you’re talking aboutso full of shit. If I laid that to you you’d pull Wittgenstein’s Whereof thereof out of your sleeve.

No no no Wittgenstein insists with his remark that one knows nothing hasnt a clue  when in fact you do

You have known something similar  If not very similar

Frankly Im gobsmacked by how you readily you discount yourself ya  minimise   yourself

    No  Actually I do

                         Mister Nice Guy

1747,  Sunday,  1  6. 25

0930,  Tuesday,  10  6. 25

Alice Cooper  No More Mr. Nice Guy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PPhgKNmBFCo