12.10.21


I live my broken dreams
                           Daniel Johnston            it is hard not to be a fan

suck it up

you can admit it

donbe a pansy
                what we left home forwent out into the world to pursue was like stalking a prey too quicktoo elusive  we shot too highdeluded ourselves
                                 but thats what youth is for  were still bendy pliable  bouncy   agile wouldnt be accurate   a twisted rubberband is not agile agile is sophisticated   bouncy aint
                                                                                      bouncy absorbs recovers reexpands regains its shape  bouncy cant think too much  the hurt hurts more when we pay attention to it

We don pay attention to it

No we don

Why are you speaking of we when you mean you  an us ofcourse

Careful careful
                 An us comes mighty close to the edge toes the line

An us aint no line
                   Maybe a line in the sand  in the sense that someone has sand or stones or balls           

Youre a riot

Were a riot
            Which brings me back to you using we  including others outside us   Speak for yourself

Yare correct I shouldI can only speak for myself  My apologeezs

Accepted

What I left home forwent out into the world to pursue was like stalking a prey too quicktoo elusive I shot too high
I deluded myself
                  But thats what youth is for  I was still bendy pliable  bouncy

However you were agile too sophisticated enough to cut your losses   not get lost

Yadidnt think I got lost

I thinkIm speaking for all of us an us   Quit your teasing   You may have driftedbecome aimless  but you surfaced againput one foot in front of the other again
                                    Everyone suffers reversals  Thats life isnt it 
Yes  Life 

Then youve done awright

Are we patting ourselves on our back

Sure why not  Well tell ourselves were putting out a fire  

1607,  Monday – Indigenous People’s Day,  11  10. 21


it was sobering
                 he believed he was in an intimate relationship 

a friend told him
                   When she couldn’t talk to you, she talked to me.

Shed talk to you

         Yes.
             she may have thought he was going to ask her what they talked about   when he had an issue with someone he went directly to them he wouldnt listen to people who wanted to talk about others   Stop Im not listening talk to them
I doncare I donwanna know its between you   I just wanted to bounce what I thought off you.   No  Talk to them its none of my businessno way Im getting in between

he frustrated many people who tried to obliged himsaid how much they valued his opinion

I have no opinion


he couldnt talk to her
                      she was dead  he couldnt ask her Why didnt you sayAsk why wouldnt you say Why wouldnt you say   Why


a ghostly echo
                Please Joe stop . . you’re too honest . . . you're brutally honest.   You asked me love

 

he didnt try to persuade anyone
                                  he couldntwouldnt be persuaded 

regarding himhis life
                      he was sole counsel  who knew him better than he 


she was dead

she hurt him  

2030,  ReggaeFriday,  8  10. 21
1307,  Monday – Indigenous People’s Day,  11  10. 21