it may haveprobably
grated on him a long long time
but for whaever reason
call it an epiphany
call it a latent miserable longlanguishing epiphany
service bugged him
whenever he heard somone speak of service it really bugged him
the speakers didnt speak
of their service
rather
others service as they saw it
probably as he
thought about it related to the fact tha
there had been so few people adults teachersno coaches who inspired influenced him
like compassion to be an influence hardwon
was tha stubbornness
stubbornness
he
was hard to convince
he insisted he had his own
mind
he was not pliable
not flexible
not plastic
HA stub born
tough to snap or break
a stub
service
his epiphany like
cold viscous dishwater
he finally
equated service to serve to servant
he could never he didnt use it often be a servant
he didnt play nice when part of a
team
saw tha coming since he was a little
boy
if forced onto a team he
made damn sureimpressed it upon teamleaders his parcel contribution was best forged singular by himself
completed he gave it away
Just leave me the fuck alone
if the team failed
he did not
his work was not the weak link
ever he didnt use tha
often
it was really unfortunate he had to use an epiphany they arent handed out like
Chicklets to equate service serve servant
Oh well oh wellOH WELL
339preferred, Twosday, 28 2. 23
