SOAR!

                 it was on a greeting card

it sounded beautiful

 

                      when he imagined soaring he saw agile hawks and eagles hardsilhouetted against a blue sky
their soaring was natural  royal  and defiant

                                                  he preferred defiance it was probably some kind of slavish deficiency  a sloven genetic mutation that quietly unveiled itself revealed itself  

apparently his family was ripe

                                 and misfortunate genetic mutations have a cruel habit of suddenly exposing themselvesSURPRISE!

                       leaving them to contend with their horrible genetic consequences  consequences baked into the cake

BRCA-1

SUD-1

       lethal acronyms that had stood in line waiting to make their appearance

he detested acronyms                       

                     he had always tried very hard to deny their simplistic shorthand    

he detested BRCA and SUD as he detested CA

he wrote California

                     often he wrote Californicate or Californication

hed beaten the Red Hot Chili Peppers to the punch by years

they werent as clevernot as clever as they thought or someone thought up for them

SOAR!

he thought the card was cruel

his daughter couldnt lift her arms

the card giver inside it wrote her addressing her soul

her soul

he didnt give soul much credencenot right nownot while his daughter was fighting with every fiber of her body to survive

fuck soul 

Fuck soul he wanted her to win the longest shot of her life

it was no time to encourage her soul

2225,  Sunday,  3  11. 19

1103,  Monday,  23  3. 20

Guess Who  No Time  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yKy4qhQNTLQ

Vanilla Fudge  You Keep Me Hanging On  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cft60HYb7Fs         

SEMPER FI

             Semper fidelis  he wondered if the driver knew the Latin

he looked at slivers of drivers facehis eyes butch haircut clean shaven puss his . . well . . for lack of a less accusatory description . . his smirking radiant white conservatism through the sideview mirror and an elongated rearview mirror which was beyond a diaphanous transparency that spanned the entire back window of the Ford SUPER DUTY pickup

SEMPER FI in khaki green was the transparency

the trucks paint job was unscathed a pristine shiny black

it wasnt a work truck 

and not being a work truck 

it must have been a fashion statementCHRIST

SEMPER FI 

             maybe once they were a Marine

they werent anymore

he was an athlete once

he wasnt anymore

he wondered as he made his lefthand turn behind him the driver seemed intent on him what exactly the pose was about

he saw it often among exmilitary

some kind of latent bravado

desperate to hold onto a bygone long-time-ago time

he might suppose the handgun in the Fords glovebox helped foster it

he supposed

              because he kept a Ka-Bar in his glovebox

he never served

he couldnt stomach anyone telling him what to do let alone doing whatever was demanded without question 

that takes a certain kind of mentality or diminished capacity he wasnt capable of

SEMPER FI continued straight onto the highway overpass eyeballing him the whole time until he turned right onto the entrance ramp

creep gave him the heebie-jeebies  

2021,  Thursday,  24  10. 19

1329,  Monday,  23  3. 20

The Original Caste  One Tin Soldier  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VGY9k5PeoQA