3.5.23


it rained forty days and forty night 
   nah it didnt 
                 however to live in Californiafour years drought  two days heavy rain winds   it felt like forty

the earth a drowning man unable to absorb it unable to breathe it shed the rain

runlets creeks burgeoned 


two days later he went to the creek 

the erosion was devastating
                              from a downturned tree limb eight feet now above the testy rapid water a black bra hung from its strap 

homeless setup camps along the creekbed

he kept his eyes peeled for colour that looked like flesh

there wasnt a tit in the bra


before the next storm struck the sun exercised its brilliance ferociously probably knowing itd be shuttered again  another twothree days
                          kings majesties do not like to share their realms

walkingreading he crossed on the street between the towns historical City Hall and the Mall the fountain at its feet

people families friends gathered on the grass he glancedright returned to his book  his locomotion checked himceased Don be an asshole LOOK 
                            slipping his finger in the bookfiguring it best not to cross his unconsciousconsciousness he looked again  let the book hang from his hand like poorlyhooked bait 
                                                                          aahSEURAT  he woudave been enthused the Mall The Island of La Grande Jatte in its pointillistic splendor 
                                                                  he thought Seurat because he and his kid brother used their paper route money   Hey Maw! We’re heading out to play!   You’re not back for lunch, dinner’s at 5, you’re late no dinner.   they yelled We know! as the screened backdoor slapped home behind them they took the train into city summers to visit The Art Institute of Chicago The Island was part of its permanent collection  the painting created by daubs of paintTWO YEARS TO CREATE  blew their minds

the mall fountain would suffice for the river Seine

his brother was head over heels for Jatte

he preferred Landscape at Saint-Ouen oil on panel rough brushstrokes  also the three vowels in a row O U E excited him 
     Hey man shaddup, you know how oeuvre affects me.

Yeah do, damn near sexual, can almost imagine you jacking off to it.

he nodded 
            Yah.  Almost.
his locomotion stutterstepped 
                               his unconsciousconsciousness asked Arent ya glad ya stopped  See it fire off a cascade of memory neurons

   he nodded wasnt often he was taken offstride by his greased innerworkings 
                                                                                     Thank you
 
Yare welcome  Thank you for paying heed

1252,  Thursday,  13  4. 23
1603,  day-between-2-Ts,  3  5. 23


I was thinking . .
                  her smiled stopped him You’re always thinking. You exhaust me. I know you must turn it off I just don’t know when.

pointing at his skull  A perpetual motion machine 
                                                     Its a happy merry-go-round a carousel  I just ride roundanround refuse to grab the brass ring

When I was little I did.

You get the ring

No. I fell broke my arm. 
Ouch

she giggled That learned me. 
                                  You were saying you were . . thinking. 
Yah
       I was thinking if I was water I woud prefer not to be absorbed My hydrogens oxygen dissipated devolved

her eyes widened What made you think of that?

You remember the heavy rain two weeks three ago

Yes. Rain here is memorable.

Yah 
       Theres a fenced-in empty lot beside a pizzeria on the way to the market dirt weeds don even grow in it an a huge puddle formed Its growing smaller evaporating being absorbed bit by bit  So slow . . 
. . It reminds you of death.

   Yah 
           A slow death Lacks quality

The quality of life.

Verses quantity

Yes.


If you were water whawoud you prefer

Boiled.

1455,  day-between-2-Ts,  12  4. 23
1209, day-between-2-Ts,  3  5. 23


she startled him
                      enough to wake him

he laid there still  eyes closed

if he opened his eyes shed be there

if he did an she wasntwhich is what he expectedknew 
                                                          shed break his heart again 

hed have to pick up the pieces again glue them back together  again
                                                                             funny
hearts can be glued back together as many times as theyre broken

as many times as one has the will to endure 


he could still hear her voice  her words 
                                           Dadu . . I love you to death.

lying there he listened for her breath
 

   no

a mariachi gently  Just open your eyes  You know

he did

she wouldnt be there

he was dreaming
 

   he opened themshe wasnt 



she loved him to death

   hell love her until he dies

b4 7AM,  day-between-2-Ts,  3  5. 23
1111,  day-between-2-Ts
Janis Joplin – Big Brother & the Holding Company  Piece of My Heart  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SCngPse1iiI 


Supreme ethics

All power tends to corrupts

And absolute power corrupts absolutely
                                           it ought to shouldnt it 
Let them 
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