its just a nada day
Friday – before he conceived of
Reggae Fridays -- 8 January 1993
he was recording Miles Davis off the
radio a hep radio station K-PIG broadcasting
out of Cayucos had a sister station in
Freedom East Southeast ESE of Santa Cruz he was a decent Boy Scout with a compass without a compass indecent
he lacked a North Star
everyone said so
he dismissed them
he was an Erratic who drifted on
glacier sheets of ice deposited here and
there and having nothing in common with his foster surroundings
if he found commonality he found it distasteful
he jumped aboard
another ground-floating sheet of ice to new climes
he complained that night as he looked
over fourfive projects that were still in rewrite-form that he didnt finish anything
he loved starting new projects
if women could carry pregnancies like he carried manuscripts only occasionally would a child be born
other
children miscarriages or stillborn
but the child born would be born to
a committed adult an adult who would
kill to provide for them
amid so many uncommitted adults parents
brains have become so large to
contain their possibilities probabilitiestheir choices that things innate bugs fish animals mammals perhapsplants do as
human beings once did though they have been crowded mangled stunted strangled murdered worse ignored
if only human beings were blades of grass Leaves of Grass randomly Do you think it so easy to have me become
your lover? / Do you think the friendship of me would be unalloy’d
satisfaction? / Do you think I am trusty and faithful? / Do you see no furthur
than this façade, this smooth and tolerant manner of me? / Do you suppose
yourself advancing on real ground towards a real heroic man? / Have no thought
O dreamer that it maybe all maya, illusion?
if humans were blades of grass theyd be confused
by their colour structure and purpose
our Big Brains certainly enjoy us
they have certainly
ravished and enjoyed us
2216, Monday,
20 1. 92
1414,
Day-between-Two-Ts, 30 9. 20
