17.10.20

 

full-fledged films had invaded his dreamspace 

as the end credits rolled he read his name on the big screen as writer and director   cinematographer  stunt credits  

 

two  back to back 
                   he was running out of popcorn and Pepsi

 

Wha this shit about  he wondered when he woke 
                                                      he didnt leap from bed when waking  he rolled onto his left side and looking out the window enjoying the savage hummingbirds wheelingthrowing their shadows on the dirty windows  he had to clean them  but he liked that the birds shadows were more distinct cast on dust  he enjoyed their arresting iridescence when they finally conceded they were hungry and devised an uneasy truce to feed

with the aerial dogfight tamed he rolled onto his backmade sure his cock was still therewhich was always a comfortwhich always made his morning black cup of Joe tastier

usually when finished confirming he remained intact one or two or four or all five cats bounded up onto the bed to confirm Hey man whadafuck  Were hungry 
                                               he smacked his lips at them and they had learned to smack their lips back  few guys could boast they were accustom to waking up to more than one pussy 
                                                                                             he refused to elaborate
he wasnt a kiss n tell kinda guy


keeping pussy happy was his first priority 

second was the pussies outside nearly beating down his door  they were four

third priority was making freshground coffee and while it brewed in a simple Proctor Silex maker he washed up the cat dishes and looked into the cupboard and refrigerator vegetable crispers and freezer to figure out what hed make for dinner that night

his daughter was a fisherwoman and she bartered with other fishers so he also had an array of frozen wild fish to choose

he was good in the kitchen

when he was a boy and protested about doing laundry ironing mending clothessewing on buttons cooking his Maw tersely saidhed never forget If you think I’m letting you out of this house to be a bum for some woman to have to take care of, you’re out of your freaking mind.

it hurt that she called him a bum

did a bum the oldest of eight change diapers from the fourth on down 
                                                                          he didnt think so he was the least bumish of any of his siblings 
               when he skated on the Nam Drafthe shared Muhammad Alis I ain’t got no quarrel with them Vietcong he went cross-country with sixthousand in bill rolls he made cutting lawns raking leaves shoveling snow and most lucrative  babysitting babies neighbours dug having a young boy watching their kids and touted him to their friends  He can even cook them dinner if you leave him ingredients.

Bum  In a pigs eye

 

 

in his eyes a cinematic invasion of his dreamspace  Fuck

at least they werent poor more dramatic than hed ever consciously contemplatehe was simple
                                                                                                   more characters plot lines and intrigues than he thought hed want to juggle  less violent than hed livedone writes what they know

he dug the camera anglesthe cinematography  lighting  sound 
                                                                   they did seem like something hed produce


he was grateful the third nightlast night it wasnt a reel-to-reel he usual episodic  blackbreak between  no commercials next utterly disconnected episode 

he did dig the busty brunette in a red and ivory cross-striped sweater pulling down on its hem she asked him if it made her breasts look too big

Compared to what

she laughed gaylyshe didnt cover her mouth lotsa straight pearlywhites to be eaten by
                                                                                                Silly!  Compared to me.
Lets see Lift your sweater briefly

she grinned

it was a tight sweater

she crossed her armshands at the hem and tugged and wiggled sighed tugged and pulled and finally got it up over her braless breasts

Nah Yare sweater doesnt make your breasts look bigger than they are 

 

              Get real! 

                                    it was his dream         

AM,  Reggae Friday,  16  10. 20
1339,  Saturday,  17  10. 20
Elvis  Are You Lonesome Tonight?  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0wlqSQGgjBE

 
                      OhShit  Maw
 
                                                    odd waycourse to be reminded of her 

 

a girl he remembered affectionately Eva Lee he laid her or she laid him on a Crandon beach then they went back to her place to shower off the sand and fuck again 
                                                Eva Lee reminded him

a strange place for his Maw to enter her jumping in like jumping off a building as people below taunted

 

his Maw had to collect him from her place Ill take ya to breakfast No, you come home now. Id have to walk a couple hours I’ll come get you. Ohnoyawont Ill call ya tomorrow Joe. she took that tone he hadnt taken that tone from her in some time and she knew it  Tomorrow Maw

she was none too happy him

earlier he told her she could go without him 
                                              the ride from Miami to Chicago might be laborious or tedious by herself  she might not wanted to drive all alone 
                                      I can take a bus

 

when she pulled up to the apartmentthe address she honked the horn

he stuck his head outside the front door and called to her Dondo that Maw its rude

Come on! Let’s go!

Gettin ruder by the moment

Let’s go!

Park the car Donbe rude come in and say hello an goodbye
                                                               he let the screen door close and walked back into the livingroom

You should just go.

Eva Eva Lee  Please dont countermand me Youre a wonderful woman and person and she doesnt get to act like that like her shit don stink

Joe, she’s your mother.

An that makes how shes acting worse I havent lived under her roof for more than two years she doesnt get to pull that Im your mother shit  her mothering has long passed Were adults She donwanna act it then Ill treat her like a child

I couldn’t get away with that with my mother.

he took her by the chinher beautiful cleftchin Shaddup and kissed her warmly and deeply

releasing her he looked into her big bedroom hazel eyes 
                                                           People will treat you the way you let em  Donwalk on eggshells for anyone

Eva swallowed audibly 
                          But mothers . . 
. . Mothers nothing They walk on their hind legs on the ground as we do  they don walk on thin air even if they think they do  Mutual respect  anif they wont respect you theres no reason to offer it in return

                                              Christ

Excuse me

he turned from Eva and crossed the livingroom to the front door again

his mother was halfway up the walk

she was dawdling 
                     Step on it  Yare acting like a butt-hurt child                                   

Joe, for Christssakes. Eva said behind him

he turned to her Yawanme to come over there an paddle yer ass he pointed with his thumb over his shoulder At the rate shes movin I could really tan yer hide

she laughedshe didnt cover her mouth  No, though not that I wouldn’t like that.

You fracture me babe Yet again another reason why I want my Maw to meet ya You make me feel proud 
                                                                                                                Anif I havent said so Im very proud of you  

Aww, you’re sweet.

I aint

Methinks thou doth protest too much.

he heard his mother at the screen door 
                                         Well have to leave your paddlin for a later date Interest accruing

Oooh.  Suppose we’ll rock n roll, huh?

Rock n roll 
            turned towards the door  his mother was knocking
Christ

he walked to the door and looked through the screen at her Yare being a pain in the asswhy ya being a pain in the ass Please  Stop it  Its unlike you and unattractive  Eva Lees a fine young woman

She is, huh? She’s one of those girls.

Those girls

Yes, those girls.

Yare a piece of work Yare one of those girls yarself

he saw her mouth began to move but cut her offhe opened the door talking over whatever the hell it was she was saying Come in Maw Theres someone Ive wanted you to meet for awhile

Eva Lee had crossed to the threshold standing angled off his shoulder behind him  Welcome to my home.

he wished she hadnt say that 
                                  one shouldnt invite a vampire in

 

afternoon,  Sunday,  11  10. 20
1234, Reggae Friday,  16  10. 20
Joe Cocker  You Are So Beautiful  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vhI1DqMbDhA